- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y
Getting married and need some support please :)
Hey y’all, it’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’ve been needing some support though. I recently decided I wanted to get married to my partner who is a man despite having what used to be (but is now a whole Lot less…)TERRIBLE ROCD and SOOCD. The SOOCD came after and I’ve been dealing with the thoughts for about a year now. I’ve recently just told my grandmother about our plans and she said “congratulations! I’m surprised and glad you are marrying a man!” That didn’t send me into a spiral but it sent a shock through me and I gotta say it didn’t make this any easier. I’m trying my best to keep my head above the water but am struggling bc I don’t know anyone who understands what having OCD is like in these scenarios. I am happy to be getting married especially to my partner but I will be honest, I’m really fucking scared. I can’t really feel a lot of my excitement and my brain doesn’t let me picture our happy moments together without ruining them or making me question whether or not I really want life with him. It’s draining. I’ve been doing so so so good in the realm of OCD and I half the time can’t even get myself to truly believe that I have ocd and am not just lying About the whole thing. I could use some love right about now and maybe some personal experiences or stories. Thank you for taking the time to read