Lately I have felt like I care less about everything. People, hobbies I used to enjoy. Etc. can ocd do this to you after you’ve been fighting a flare up for awhile ? My POCD has been back pretty intense for about 2 months.
Yes. Lately I’ve had moments where I think “everything is pointless” or “is this all there is?? Or that everything is like..so predictable?? Idk if anyone else can relate but it SUCKS.
I feel you. I would say yes but remember that sometimes people around you can make you feel better or maybe those you don’t see as often so if your down then, try calling an old friend or relative and asking how they are, or maybe hang out with them even if it’s a lot of mental energy. Push your self to do it cause it’s such a great feeling to not have thought surrounding your head for once. Much love ❤️
Yes I’ve been feeling the same way for a think about a month or 2 now and it’s been hard for me to eat, sleep or do things I find enjoying. Flare ups are annoying but you can get better over time. And eventually you’ll come down from it and get back to being able to control it more better
@Awkwardgr1 Same here:( it’s been hard for me to do all of those things. But I’m hoping eventually it’ll back off :(
@Katarinagabriella In my experience I’ve noticed that my ocd flares up badly when I’m either stressed out, burnt out, or experiencing a big life change idk if that is how it is for you as well.
But nonetheless just taking things one day and one step at a time will help you feel more in control and slowly doing things that make you happy even as little as watching something funny to make u laugh will help a lot. I wish you the best and always remember you’re definitely not alone 🩷
@Awkwardgr1 Thank you for your encouragement. It helps bunches. 🤎
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@emilyvictoria Exactly. And the more I think of my problem, the worse it is and the bigger it seems to become but I don’t really know how to think of anything else.
@emilyvictoria I’ve felt this a lot. I think it’s important to be easy on ourselves and know how terrible this disease can be, I’m sure if we had that choice we wouldn’t have it
@emilyvictoria I feel for you. A lot. We are all in this together
@emilyvictoria I think the same exact thing. Eventually we will have peace.
@emilyvictoria I think acceptance is one of the hardest things for me. Acceptance can be scary.
Hey - how ru now?
@Dreamydream I have flare ups sometimes, but for the most part after medication and therapy I’m feeling way better than I did. There’s a light at the end of this tunnel.
Is it possible for OCD to start playing with your feelings? Because I'm so sure about it, but sometimes it feels like it doesn't even when I don't feel anything. And I'm feeling so empty. Like it's okay to feel when it's not. I don't want to feel this. But I feel so weak to deal with it. Is this normal? I'm feeling weird. Everything kind of hurts but at the same time it doesn't.
So I was doing good for about 5 months. I was going to therapy, practicing the skills, and for about the past month, I fell into a depression funk. The last week, however, has been a week of really loud OCD. I am in a constant state of anxiety and find myself doing compulsions. I'm wondering if anyone has experienced what I'm about to describe. I'm considering taking myself to the hospital, but my little boy's birthday party is this weekend and I don't want to miss it: I keep having this bad feeling like I actually want to do the bad things in my mind. I know OCD intrusive thoughts can tell you "I want to" but this just seems different - maybe it's OCD trying to come at me a new way. It's not like thoughts telling me "I want" it's like even when I tell myself I don't want to do the bad stuff, there's this nagging feeling telling me I really want to. I'm scared.
I don’t even know where to start because there’s so much going on in my head and it feels like there’s so much evidence for every thought. Like my ocd feels like it doesn’t just have one specific theme it’s honestly every theme and it just switches throughout the day depending on the thoughts I have. This started all about a month ago, this whole ocd flare up. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd for about 3 years now and looking back on my childhood, I feel like I’ve had it for probably my entire life. My grandpa just recently died back in February and I feel like this whole ocd spiral is a result of dealing with grief especially because it didn’t even hit me for the whole month of April for some reason and things felt “normal”. But since this ocd flare up has started I’ve been constantly reviewing and revisiting my past, all my childhood memories and so many of them are terrifying which is weird because I never had a traumatic event hppen to me as a child. I feel like it’s always been “self-inflicted” trauma if that makes sense? My mind is telling me so many things related to so many topics like maybe I liked my family member as a kid and have just hid it to fit in with society? That my anxiety as a kid has caught up with me and I’m turning into a psychopath? That I’ve always been a creep and enjoyed looking at peoples privates or chests, etc but just ignored or allowed the thought this whole time. Also before this whole flare up I remember always feeling on autopilot and not really alive like everything I did I just felt numb about it. Which aids my ocd to tell me that these feelings are real and the thoughts are true and that I’m “waking up” or realizing or something. I haven’t felt such intense anxiety and distress since I was a kid and I didn’t even understand my own thoughts. It’s like I’m either hyper aware or totally unaware of what’s going on around me and it gets me thinking about my existence, personality, what my role in life is and like genuinely what I’m even doing in the moment like what’s the reason behind everything. I’m constantly questioning my intentions because I don’t know if they’re true or not and it’s like my ocd doesn’t even allow me to consider the thought it just jumps to conclusion. Like telling me I’m guilty before proven innocent. It honestly feels like so much at once to even simply call it ocd or anxiety because it feels like a crisis and any moment I could spiral and breakdown completely. Going to school everyday feeling like anytbing could trigger a panic attack at any moment makes me feel like I can’t be left alone with my thoughts. And like overall since I got down this rabbit hole, my first obsession was harm to myself, then it was harm to others specifically my family, then it was being a pervert or pedo, or being attracted or someone or something I shouldn’t be, which then makes me question my existence and who I am along with also being hyper aware of my facial movements like my eyebrows, nose, etc. Like why does ocd have to involve itself in every aspect of my life? It feels like there’s always something wrong that I need to fix.
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