Existential ocd/ real life events ocd

Real life events is kicking my butt today lol I keep ruminating over and over again about the mistake I did in researching and triggering my existential ocd worse to a point of no return 😭 it feels like I can’t enjoy life and that I’m stuck I don’t like sharing but I’m terrified of being stuck like this forever. My thoughts keep getting more extreme and severe pertaining about space, time, and eternity, afterlife. This sucks I wouldn’t wish this ocd theme to not even my worse enemy :/ I’m just so confused in how can your brain one day just get triggered by something and bam, I remember I was obsessed with space and I would even watch hour long documentaries about it and i would hear people talking about the afterlife and even myself I would think and i never got fear or was scared. Hell I would actually be the one talking about the meaning of life and pondering so this is something I was in essence exposed to so I really don’t know how one comment I saw on TikTok could have triggered this essential ocd im so confused and mad it feels like I unlocked a part of my brain that I never should have :/ I’m so hyper aware of everything now

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

THIS IS WHAT IM DEALING WITH, I hate this so much. I don’t even feel real anymore, but at the same time I feel too real. I used to be just like you, obsessed with life and just very grateful overall for everything and this just came out of nowhere 😢😭 and i see my family and friends chilling while im internally panicking

XOsaturn

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous It sucks so much, I just want to turn back time and go back to my old self I can’t even look pictures of me before having this existencial ocd triggered without feeling like crying or guilty. And I relate so much to what you said of feeling not real but at the same time I see everybody around me happy and smiling and it makes me feel not real but at the same time too real because I’m so hyperaware of everything around me and questioning everything in life. 😔

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@DGviolets22 yesss 😭 i 100% agree w you! i have been crying everyday because i miss my old self and when i was just kinda living life like a sim, being self aware + hyperaware + dealing w OCD, anxiety and DPDR is very intense and has made me feel like nothing is real, or just questioning life and myself. It feels good to know you can relate honestly i just got done breaking down crying 😭

XOsaturn

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous It feels comforting to know I can relate to you because this theme makes you feel alone especially when going through an episode of intense existential ocd, but wow I can relate with the sim part it’s like what I said it feels like unlocking a part of the brain that I never should have opened🤦‍♀️ if I were to tell you I just got done having a breakdown lol i have to joke cause it’s what gets me through it

Dan8421

Date posted: 2y

Hey, I know it must be hard but for sensitive people it's just natural to stumble upon these big crisis. Believe me, you will get back on track, it's just one of the crisis that will strenghten your love for life. Actually, you are life, the life is pulsating in you and in everything around you and it's happing NOW. That is the biggest beauty of life to be fully present and part of it. It is really terryfying the emptiness and endlessness but I believe that God or life knows better than us. We percieve world from our limited perspective for which it is just incomprehensible but from the perspective of God/Universe everything is just peace and bliss. So don't worry because your human perspective lasts only here, when you die there won't be the worrying limited self. We are here in the limited dimension to live the life, enjoy it in all its shades and tastes. So explore it, be the purpose of life on your own, that is the most beautiful thing we can feel here. Hope it helps, you will come stronger from this experience.:)

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

@Dan8421 thank you this was very beautifully written 🥺❤️

XOsaturn

Date posted: 2y

@Dan8421 Thank you so much for this ❤️this opened my eyes to another perspective, and has helped calm my anxiety🥹 I 100% believe it because it is true that the reason why we get anxiety/fear is because the human brain can’t comprehend in truth the concept of space/universe but once we go we won’t be limited to that and we will experience peace without limitations 🫶🏼 thank you once again you have no idea how much this helped

Dan8421

Date posted: 2y

I am really glad it helped, have you heard of teachings by Eckhart Tolle, Alan Watts, Rupert Spira? They cover this topic very nicely, might broaden your perspective. Just remember that being happy in the present and sharing love with others is the best we can do as human beings.:)

Anonymous

Date posted: 2y

if you want i would really feel better if we texted eachother for comfort and get through this together!

XOsaturn

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous Definitely!

XOsaturn

Date posted: 2y

@Anonymous I added you!

imsonocd

Date posted: 23w

Any tips on Existential OCD?

I’m really struggling with this theme because it can make me feel “fake” and it creates doubts that the world around me isn’t real or it’s a simulation? I’m really trying to expose myself but even the possibility makes me incredibly afraid. It even plays into my suicidal ocd as well and makes me afraid that my life would be miserable if this was true. I know how ocd works and I know not to fully believe that. But at the same time, I am trapped in doubt and fear. How could I possibly accept this? Will I ever see the world or life the same again? (Don’t answer that I realize that’s reassurance). Idk this theme is so ass.

AnnFon

Date posted: 18w

Existential/Anxiety OCD

This is my first post, so I apologize if the formatting is weird. I experience existential ocd I always struggled as a kid but learned more and more how to manage with school and such forcing me to learn how, now I experience a lot of overwhelming intrusions from when I wake up to when I go to bed (simply because I live and work in the same place it gets cabin feverish) but now more often going out maybe it’s just paranoia, I walk into a place and each person comes with a story immediately, every piece of trash on the floor, every piece of produce, each isle is a brand new way I could get into a life altering situation. I’ve managed well enough but sometimes I just completely lose my original objective and just leave or I’ll wanna leave my house but everything that goes with it and that could happen pops up and I just won’t go. It’s started to become avoidant behavior. Any help or similar stories? I just feel like I’m going crazy but my thoughts are so scattered and immediate it’s hard to break the habit and not spin a story. Thank yall!

user23456789

Date posted: 13w

Existential OCD

Hey guys so I’m new here and just recently started struggling with some health ocd and thinking I had a brain tumor but it’s taken a turn for the worse and become this existential ocd where I’m questioning quite literally everything in my life, the purpose of being here and stuff. I just started meds yesterday, which is scary for me cause I’ve never been on them before. I keep having thoughts like, why does everything feel like a blur, what’s the meaning of this and I wake up every day with just existential dread. I’ve been having very vivid dreams that make dreaming and reality confusing I also am scared cause I’m dealing with some DP/DR as well. I just wish my life could go back to a few months ago before I knew all of this was possible. I guess I’m just writing this too get it off my chest and see if any of you all have gone through something similar and made it out okay?

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