Whitestar
- Date posted
- 6y ago
BrookenoelBrookenoel
- Date posted
- 6y ago
@Whitestar hey so I’m Christian and here’s the thing with god, god loves you even if you have sex before marriage, if you have sex at all, if you’re a different sexuality, etc. I know religion is such a big thing but we can’t revolve our lives around what god wants. After all he wants us to be happy, so go out and do what makes YOU happy.
WhitestarWhitestar
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Thanks guys so much. I really really appreciate it, because I feel very alone in this obsession. I don’t know it’s like I get this huge overwhelming fear that god is watching this part of my mind which might be dirty?? Like that scares the shit out of me that god can see or know.. it’s killed my sexuality with everything. Even something simple like flirting or thinking about sexual things in like omg no no no it’s dirty and god is watching this. Then I am so uncomfortable by this:( I don’t even know how to be ‘okay’ with those thoughts? Like how to do exposure or acceptance :’(
WhitestarWhitestar
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Yes I am Christian too. I don’t feel like that at all... I don’t feel the love God has. I don’t even know if I believe it anymore, what do we truly believe? Like I got so much existential ocd at a time that it made me so scared like what is it to believe something ? What is right and wrong? Yeah.. it’s just so hard and I’m so far gone. I wish I never had looked into Christianity because this all started around the same time. I would read and read my Bible for hours a day and take everything so literally
HiHoSliverHiHoSliver
- Date posted
- 2y ago
@Whitestar If I can help you out at all here: I’m a fellow Christian who struggles with scrupulosity. It definitely causes me to beat myself up over any thoughts that could be sinful, including lustful sexual thoughts. Let me tell you the truth. Lust is sinful. So are thoughts of hurting people, like a lot of OCD sufferers deal with. The thing is… there’s a lot of thoughts that can’t be helped. The things that pop in your head are not things you can help. Lustful thoughts that pop in your head and you can’t seem to stop them, even if you are trying desperately to, are not sinful. God understands your brain chemicals. He created you. He loves you. Even if you were sinning, He died so we could be washed white as snow. It’s taken me forever to view myself as someone completely forgiven by Jesus, even when I try so hard and still fail. Repenting and believing is key. Repenting does not mean you get everything right and don’t struggle anymore. It means you’re trying. God is aware of your struggles. He sees you. He knows you and your heart. Let me tell you as well, sexual desire is not sinful. God created sex as a beautiful thing for marriage. He wired us a certain way. Sin distorted that desire. Know you are not the most awful person on the face of the earth. We are all awful people who have sinned and have fallen short of God’s glory. We don’t deserve His love. However, He has more than willingly given us what we don’t deserve. He doesn’t view us truly disgusting, never enough, and unable to please Him. We are worth it because He made us in His image, not because we are good. We were worth dying for. Remember that God does not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind. Those thoughts are not ones He wants you to obsessed with or worried about. He wants you to rest in Him. Do so. I’m praying for you as I consistently go through the same thing and have to the point of suicidal thoughts. I hope things get better for you. You are not alone, and YOU WERE WORTH DYING FOR.
WhitestarWhitestar
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I really appreciate any advice or anything!! I know it’s weird if it’s not your obsession.. but it’s so hard for me ? (Btw I only became religious in December when all this started and have had sex previous to any of this)
WhitestarWhitestar
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I have suppressed eveything sexual and I am worried everything is dirty and wrong :’(
WhitestarWhitestar
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Oh thank you so much for your message. Would you recommend me getting this book? Or would it worsen my scrupulousity? Martin Luther king, what a man.
willovercomewillovercome
- Date posted
- 5y ago
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