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Hi, I am new to the platform. I am 17 years old and diagnosed with OCD. I’m pretty sure my actual diagnosis is High functioning, and it’s all pretty new. I’ve been diagnosed for a few years now. I was diagnosed in the hospital after an attempt on my life. I struggle with intrusive thoughts, they can sometimes be extremely inappropriate, painful, or suicidal and homicidal. I feel like I’m a bad person a lot of the times because of them. I grew up very religious and fight with these thoughts constantly. It’s very hard because I have like the ultimate goal to be kind. And these thoughts really hit my self-esteem and worth. I’m looking to find help, and coping. I go to therapy, but it isn’t specific for OCD, and I am embarrassed to really say some of the intrusive thoughts I have out loud. Anyways, just thought I’d share. Thank you.

Artloverforever

Date posted: 2y

I struggle w saying things out loud. I say my thought are taboo

AC2001

Date posted: 2y

Hey! Im 17 too. Im so sorry you’ve had to go through all of that. I havent been professionally diagnosed because my family does not take mental health seriously, however i realllyyyy relate to the religious background and the embarrassment of intrusive thoughts. Its hard out here :/

drak4

Date posted: 2y

Hi dear fellow human. All people experience intrusive thoughts sometimes saints and sinners alike. But we with OCD are really freaked out about them because they go againts our values. In our core we are opossite of our OCD fears. Intrusive thoughts are ego-dystonic it means not in aligment with our personality. Research found that people with OCD will not act on their thoughts, so do not judge yourself it is not you, you only get caught in this cycle. If you are believer try reading - Can christianity cure obsessive compulsive disorder? from Ian Osborn. It will show ypu that even many heroes of faith had OCD and tabbo thoughts. What is really important is your values and life not intrusive thoughts. ... i encourage you to see OCD as some proccess some loop you are in... it not tell anything about you really... talk therapy can get it wrong when ypu analyze your obssesions and reasons for them. It can be feeding more a loop. OCD is really not about what you think, but how you think and act... every person had sometimes intrusive thought a content can be same as yours, but person without OCD dismiss it and focus on to move on with present moment lufe according his/her values. We with OCD have fear anxiety and focus on solving intrusive thought - by compulsion, rumination, paying attention to it. So our how,our reaction is different... so according my experience recovery is more about HOW you think, not what you think... so try find something about ACT therapy and MCT therapy... Cognitive-behavorial therapy in general is more about HOW as what... talk therapy about what can cause you to be in loops. If you research it it is not good for OCD, because OCD is not about your personality (what talk therapy can help), but about bad techniques/styles of thinking. A theme do not matter. A thinking style to overanalyze/solve/doing compulsion catch you in a loop. .... as believer your identity of good person is not in your thoughts and feeling, but in Goodness of God. When we try to be good on oue own it can be endless loop of doubt. But when we connect to godness and mercy, when we get at the end of our self-efford we can really put a sword down and not fight anymore to be good, because our godness is from God/source. He is a vine and we are the branches. Our root is in Him not in our thinking patters. I generally treat OCD as something that I go trought not as sin. It is more trial as sin. But we can grow trought trail. I do not count inteusive thoughts agains me, because when I do not agree with them and do not want them these are not my thoughts so not my sin. More as a trail my mind is putting me trought. But our mind can and will heal. I experienced it. Focus on your life and values not fears. You are so precious soul and worthy. You are strong fighter to dealing with OCD, you have inner power. Do not fight thoughts accept that these came, but refocus always on here and now and your values. Remember that you are not alone you have your OCD brothers and sisters. We together recover.

_okayylexi

Date posted: 23w

Newbie Here 🙏🏼

Hi, I’m new to the app as of today. I’m 20 years old, and wanted to get some stuff off my chest about the types of OCD I’ve been experiencing over the years. I’m not entirely sure how or when my OCD was brought up, but I’ve been a perfectionist for as long as I can remember. Anywhere and everywhere I go, if I see things placed in an order/angle that my brain doesn’t approve of, next thing I know I’m “fixing” it to be in the placement I feel looks better. I’m not aware of why I feel the need to do that, but until an object is in the “right” placement, I won’t take my eyes off of it. My eye will even twitch. Another form of OCD I have is in relationships. I spend each day overthinking and over-analyzing every one of the relationships that are important to me. Friends, family, significant other. Another one is what’s considered “Pure OCD” . When I get an intrusive thought of something devilish, whether it’s randomly seeing my great aunt naked bc my grandma considers her “fat” even though she’s not, or it’s seeing something demonic and traumatizing, I immediately tell myself, “I don’t wanna see/think about that” over and over and over until the thought is gone. Or I’ll try to replace one mental image with another. One other form of OCD I face every day, is religion. I got baptized for the first time in my life earlier this year in January. I had finally started to repent for my sins, and now I’m constantly feeling afraid that I’m letting God down due to my depression/lack of motivation and vaping/smoking. I also fear excessively that He’ll banish me from His kingdom, or just turn a cold shoulder. I know that what I’ve just typed up is probably all over the place. That is my brain unfortunately. How do you go from being a mentally disorderly and seemingly erratic young woman, to a more well-established, successful woman? I’m all ears!

L0ng16aelak

Date posted: 17w

Unsure if I even have OCD

Hello, I’m new to this app. I’ve always had an anxious brain, and I’ve had coping mechanisms for as long as I can remember. When I was a kid, from as early as I could spell, until I was probably early teens, I would constantly write words in my head along to the beat of music. It’s such a vivid memory because I never stopped doing it. The word had to perfectly match up to the lyric and I loved that it kept my brain busy. I grew out of that, but felt like good context. My anxiety increased drastically around ages 17-19, and I began therapy. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety and panic disorder, due to having a panic attack nearly every day at that time. I overcame that as well, and now the panic attacks are every now and then, but the anxiety is constant, and some recent symptoms have led me to believe I might have some form of OCD. Maybe not. I’m trying to understand myself and get better so I joined this app to make sense of things. Lately I’ve been having really intense intrusive thoughts. I’m really embarassed and they make me feel like a bad person. Thoughts pop in my head seemingly out of nowhere. It will be an image of me harming myself or someone else in a really bad way. (Trigger warning) for example the other day I couldn’t shake the image of me putting a knife through my own forehead, although it’s not something I want to do. Or I’ll imagine someone killing me. I imagine my loved ones dying often. The thoughts feel so out of my control it’s insane. I hate them. Another persistent issue that isn’t as new is replaying social scenarios. I’m a hairstylist so this one is difficult since I meet a bunch of new people every day. I obsess over how I act and if people like me. I will impulsively say things all the time and they will haunt me for weeks. I question even my closest friends and family who show their love. I find myself so angry and numb and like I have so much built up emotion and a busy mind always. While doing my job I spiral really badly if any little thing goes wrong and it’s embarassing. I know there’s more but I can’t think of it now. I just want to feel better and like I’m not constantly battling my mind.

Emeee

Date posted: 13w

Just starting here

Im new here so im not exactly sure what im supposed to be doing but my therapist recommended that I start using this platform. I have had OCD my whole life as does my mom and her parents, but I never had a formal diagnosis until about 5 years ago. Recently my OCD has been absolutely taking over my life and it is just so mentally exhausting. I know there’s nothing “wrong” with me but I really wish that I just didn’t have OCD. I really just want to be able to exist without all of these obsessions. I’ve seen a few posts from people just talking about experiences so if anyone has any tips on how best to use the platform that would be great! On a funnier note - I’m pretty open about my OCD and I mention it to a coworker and there response was “Do you really have that or is that just something you say”. And my response was oh yeah no I really have it and it really impacts every minute of everyday in my life and they were just like 😶

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