Does anyone feel so impaired

Has anyone else OCD toward morality? I have an obsession with being morally right, doing the right thing, being a good person etc I have a notebook with a list about my morals -things that are morally wrong/right -words to avoid because they are wrong -things to do to do the right thing -moral missions how to change the world ... I check at the end of the day if I was morally right and write it down and hate myself if I failed I am hypercritical of myself and also about others When for example and artist does something that’s against my morals(and even if it is only on slur in a song) I delete all their songs, unfollow them, don’t listen to the music again I am very isolated because almost no one can be always morally right ;me neither but I can’t stop this. Is this even OCD or am I narcissistic or something like that. Or am I maybe a narcissist with OCD. I come from a narcissistic family system so I am scared that maybe I turn into one without noticing.

I’ve always been a huge feminist, anti-racist, anti-sexual assaulters, etc. Basically against everybody anti-human rights. But because my OCD has been trying to convince me that I’m a sexual assaulter, a pedophile, racist, etc. (basically everything that goes against my morals), it also tries to tell me that I should sympathize with people I used to be against. Sometimes I’ll read about, say, teens committing sexual assault, and in the past I would have firmly said “they need to be punished”, whereas now I think “well, what if they didn’t know better? I made a mistake when I was a teen; what if they thought it was okay?” I never say these out loud because I dont want to make real victims feel bad, obviously. And if I hear someone has been racist, I’ll think, “What if they’re like me?” I still believe we need to eradicate sexual assault, racism, homophobia, etc, but I can’t help but think I’m a part of the problem, so sometimes I find myself sympathizing with “bad people”. It’s really messing my mind up. I don’t know what to think. Does anyone feel the same way or have any tips?

Since scrupulosity is a big part of OCD, I was wondering how other people deal with moral dilemmas. Things like choosing whether or not to support a company because of problematic ties or actions of employees or associated people, is something I'm struggling with. It feels like if I were to support certain things (companies, video games, etc.) that I've been supporting for a while I would be directly or indirectly supporting people who have done bad things. But sometimes giving those things up is difficult, and it feels like I'm losing a part of myself. I also feel that if I were to ask for guidance, I'm not really asking for guidance so much as hoping people will say it's fine for me to keep supporting those things for one reason or another. The burden feels like it's entirely on me to make these decisions, and either way it feels like there's no right decision. It's really overwhelming, and I'm having trouble navigating it.