- Date posted
- 1y
Today I’m feeling discouraged
I’ve been in a flare up for over a week now. Worried about choking and anaphylaxis. Eating food is hard because it physically is so hard to eat now because I get psyched out while eating. I’m either worried about one or the two. I’m scared that I’m starting to get dysphasia or another health crisis. Sometimes my throat feels so tight or there’s a lump in it. I have to drink so much water while eating. My diet is so bland now or consists of meal replacement shakes. I feel like I’ll never be able to eat my favorite foods again or rather eat normally ever again without feeling like the food gets stuck in my throat. I focus so much on swallowing even when I’m not eating. I don’t even do it normally anymore and if I get even the tiniest bit of mucus I get really anxious. Eating is an ordeal because I have to literally calm myself down while eating bc if I don’t I won’t eat bc I’m scared. I focus so much on every sensation. I’m really sad and anxious. I just want to feel normal again. I don’t even know how to treat this except just keep pushing myself to eat and hope to one day calm this hyper vigilant state and get the answers I need for my health