Does anyone else feel like their intrusive thoughts become more like an urge and a feeling? That's what's so hard for me to overcome. Not the thought itself because I know I can't control or stop that. It's when it turns into an unwanted urge that I can't handle

I'm not alone then, ? with my ocd I'm told it becomes an urge because of anxiety. But the thing is why I'm finding it so hard to cope. My harm ocd thoughts are around punching people and lashing out but then it turns into a feeling and an urge makes me think I'm gonna lose it so bad I get so anxious about it. Feel like I can't control it I mean I have controlled it and never acted on it but everytime I'm in the situations where my thoughts are there it becomes so overwhelming such a strong feeling. That's why I can't be around people. I'm terrified. I know what I have to do to overcome it. Erp. I'm just Terrified of that too ?

We certainly are ❤️ like one big family although we've never met aha ☺️❤️

I’m sorry you have to wait that is bs! If you are reading Jon Hershfield books you are doing great! Treat his writing like a mental coach. Do whatever he recommends it totally works! Practice practice practice ERP. If you don’t have a guide use the samples Jon talks about to get started! It’s a process so don’t rush it! I think mindfulness is fantastic I use headspace it helps a ton. I take 60mg of Prozac and I know that some people are afraid of meds I just know there are good meds and meds you only want to take in crisis. SSRIs help and they are good pills not something like Klonopin that can be harmful. Stuff like Klonopin has its uses it saved me when I was hospitalized but it is an emergency med. I would definitely recommend working with a doctor to find the right meds and don’t self medicate! Always here if you need to chat more!

Yeah it's really bad having to wait so long and it makes me feel so anxious and worried! I feel like I can't handle it on my own but I really need to start trying! Yeah the book is brilliant only read first two chapters so far and it's given me a better understanding of the ocd and understanding how to do the techniques and why they work. Jon said in one of his videos just buying the book and reading it is good exposure therapy lol. Im gonna start doing some of the exercises he talks about, like writing down your fears. He's amazing isn't he I wish i came across him alot sooner! I'm happy to let him and the book be my guide ? I'm trying to get more into mindfulness and mediations unfortunately I can't afford headspace right now but I've found some good ones on you tube! Im glad mindfulness helps you ☺️ I think I may start taking the sertraline I was given got nothing to lose really by giving them a go. Im sure they are ssris Oh I've never heard of that one! I know some can do more harm than good. Luckily I have quite a good doctor usually but he's away for a while so having to see another one who's not quite as good. Thanks for all your help and advice I really appreciate it ❤️ and always here if you want to chat too ☺️❤️

Might take you up on the offer of chatting more. There's so many things I want to know about erp lol would be great to chat to someone who's practiced it alot ☺️❤️

Even doing it a few months is still more than I've managed to do! Lol So I would appreciate being able to talk to you sometimes if you really don't mind ☺️I appreciate it. I do have a twitter account, I'll have to redownload the app and try get into my account, or do you have anything like kik messenger? Thanks for being so kind though I really appreciate it ❤️☺️

Installed kik! Never used it before my name on there is zander2417 feel free to add me!

@where does i...nd what's your kik? I'll add you

Me too

Yes mine turn into urges to objectify women, watch porn, masturbate, etc. Sometimes the urges are really strong and hard to fight

I'm sorry guys I'm not really seeking reassurance although it might seem like I am to some people. I just don't know what to do anymore. My mom is really upset with me. She knows about the harm ocd and has been supportive and understanding but she can't understand why I've shut myself away from everyone ? I tell her it's because I'm worried I'll lose control and act on the thoughts even though obviously I don't want too. I'm just in such a bad place right now and can't seem to get out of it ?

Hey! I’m sorry you are going through this and I know it hurts I’ve been there. Terrified that I might strangle or stab the people I love was absolutely horrible and it felt like it would never go away. I’ve been working at it and I can tell you it does subside. ERP and medication for me were an absolute must. Are you seeing a CBT or practicing ERP? Are you medicated?

Thanks for your reply guys I appreciate you speaking out and sharing your stories with me, makes me feel a little better knowing I'm not alone. Although I'd never want anyone else to go through this. Im sorry you guys are too ? zander.. I'm not currently on any medications due to my fears around taking them. Although I do have some 50mg sertraline (zoloft) just sitting in my cupboard so I can take them at anytime if I decide too. And I'm not currently having any therapy I'm on a long waiting list. The uk is awful for waiting times. So im looking into private therapy but it's so expensive. I want to practice erp but have been scared to do it alone. I've been reading a book by Jon hershfield if you haven't read I recommend you do there's some really good techniques in there. Cbt and erp also mindfulness. What medications do you take and are you seeing a therapist? Scarlett.. I'm sorry to hear youre also going through a tough time ? I don't drink alcohol anyway haven't for over a year, I've recently quit smoking cannabis after 15years I'm now on week 7 without it very proud of that and it was definitely making me worse. If you do drink at least you are aware it makes it worse and hopefully you will be able to cut down or stop. Im glad erp seems to be helping people I spose it's just taking the first step and being brave enough to do it. Which I know I need to do. I hope your boyfriend is supporting you does he know about the harm ocd? I've been able to tell my mom and my best friend. Still need to tell my dad cos he's the one Im closest too and Iive with him but I don't seem to get the feelings around harming him luckily. But I do with everyone else ?

That's brilliant that you've managed to be so open about it. I definitely need to tell more people close to me about what I'm going through. My mom and my best friend have been supportive but I think like you said they don't understand why you can't just get better it's frustrating for them and it is for us sufferers ? that wasn't nice to your sister to say that and it certainly isn't true at all. No one knows the mental strength we actually do have! Even if it seems like we don't because like me I give in and do my compulsions of isolating myself and avoidance. But just to live with this horrible illness and even get out of bed in the morning is an achievement and takes a great amount of strength. I'm sorry she said that though ? I can see why it would hurt. And I'm glad to hear your boyfriend is supportive it makes alot of difference having someone who is on your side. That sounds good I'll look into that thanks ? sending love and positivity to you ❤️

I’m still new to it been doing it for a few months now (like it said it’s a process of working up your OCD hierarchy!) I’m happy to chat! I’m in USA so might have to use an app or some other feature. I use Twitter chat a lot of you have a Twitter :)

Oh bless you thanks for downloading it! I shall add you in a bit. ☺️

The name is embarrassing cos it's old! Don't laugh? It's charleebaybee_90

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