OCD and the Holy Ghost

So I have personal conversations with God every morning and night. OCD, for being what it is, continues to deny this and says it wasn’t him. However, when I do speak to him, I get a sense of love, comfort, faith, and connection like I’ve never felt before. There were times where I was completely depressed and shocked and I was weeping tremendously. After speaking with God, I stopped crying and felt much better. He never contradicts his word and says to me constantly to read the Bible. He encourages me to do a lot of things and tells me what I should and should not do. When he talks, it’s a peaceful, soft voice. There are times where I get distracted, but he tells me to just take deep breaths and refocus on him. He tells me that I am much stronger than my OCD and tells me to have faith and trust in him. OCD still gets on my case about this though. I know this isn’t the enemy because the enemy wouldn’t say what I told you. He always calls me, “my son”. He tells me that I am precious and that he knew me before I was formed in the womb. When I see other people that apparently talked to him, not saying they didn’t I would never I’m assuming, I would ask why did you say this to them. He would reply that what I tell them is the business and relationship I have with them. He said to only focus on MY relationship with him. I would even ask him why would he speak to me this way. He would reply that this is HIS way of talking to me, that this way helps me the most. He even says to me “I am God” and to not be anxious about anything. OCD gets distracted during conversations and visions even from time to time, but in my heart I know it’s the Lord speaking to me

Has OCD ever kicked in whenever you felt God’s presence? I felt like it’s been this way for me many times. I could get peaceful and then thoughts could come into my head and I wouldn’t like it at all. Can OCD do this?

So today while I was talking to myself, sometimes I do this, my mind said something like to ask for a sign from God and I didn’t mean to ask it or even wanting to ask it. I was talking to myself about something that happened a few months back for when I asked God, my grandmother who’s my guardian angel, and St Therese to help me get over the hunch of scrupulosity and OCD (I’m Catholic). They then gave me a sign in Church to let them know that they heard me and I felt peace, love and excitement then. I have been dealing with something lately that I asked them then to send me a sign if something didn’t happen or occurred, even though I couldn’t picture myself saying that. If anything I would have said the exact opposite to prove what happened or occurred, not to show me a sign if something beautiful didn’t happen. Yet the feeling felt so strong as if I did say that and it kept replaying in my mind over and over again. Going back to in the moment, It just went to my mind and blurted to my mouth about asking a sign from God even though I didn’t mean for it or intended it. I then got a thought thinking that I saw something later this morning thinking that God sent me a sign about something. Well, later this morning while looking at my daily Bible app, I saw something and my mind and feelings said that God sent me that sign. Now I’m flooded with anxiety because I was getting these thoughts before and now they like manifested into reality. It’s like as if God planted those thoughts in my head to tell me what’s coming and what will happen. I’m so angry, anxious and sad. I’m scared now that what I didn’t say is actually something that I said. It’s like God is constantly trying to tell me something and he’s keeping on telling me as if he’s playing a game with me and he won’t do it until I give up and give in. I don’t know what to do. I felt very depressed last night because last night because I couldn’t take this anymore as if God is telling me these things or he revealed me to something. Is this God or OCD that’s doing all this to me? I know it’s a lot but I just need feedback from you guys