I want to beat OCD because it puts stress on my relationships, my health, my future. I thought it was under control but with constant stories of Covid coming back, infections from mosquitoes, flesh eating bacteria in the water I am becoming scared to leave my home. I want my normalcy back.
I’ve been recently feeling how it’s much easier to just let go of those fears. We can feel bad while worrying and hiding or feel bad while actually doing something which could lead to us overcoming our fear.
How did you get it under control before?
@Will86 8 years of intense therapy and heavy medication.
@Will86 I did eventually stop therapy and have been off all but two medications for over 5 years though
@Susanthonen 8 years is a long time of intense therapy. Any advice on things you picked up during it that may help a back door spike?
First deep breathe and focus on something happy like a photo or picture on the wall and try to let all the bad things leave your mind. With my necessary order I would force myself not to do something to see that there was no harm in not doing it. It is hard work. I started with my family making subtle changes and then go large like cooking a dinner and not doing the dishes. It did not happen over night. Have patience with yourself.
Sorry miss read some of that. I believe my issues are stemming from being out of work since June 1st and that there is one health problem after another. Nothing serious all correctable but then I sit here and you hear about spikes in Covid and I live in Florida where our governor refuses to have mask mandates, I see our state lit up, then we have a hurricane, cat 4 that came through and there have been cases of flesh eating bacteria popping up everywhere, then mosquito born illness. Then add in that my husband is being a jerk because he is going through a midlife crisis and unhappy with himself and taking it out on me it has been a disaster. But I am trying to employee everything I have learned to stay off of heavy medications. The first step is talking about it. Not being afraid to speak up and ask for help and know that does not mean I am weak or broken
I’m so scared that my OCD will never get better and that I’ll never have a normal life or fall in love and have kids. I’m just so scared that OCD is taking over my life and I’ll never get it back!
I want to beat OCD/GAD? because I'm tired of being this shell of my former self. My brain has been hollowed out by the chainsaw of fears while my body remains fixed in place, unable to run. I once loved to sing and write. I once remembered conversations with others. I once was actually able to hold them myself. Now, I can barely complete coherent sentences without my thoughts veering off. My OCD leaves me exhausted. It's so hard to feel rested when you think something awful is going to happen all the time. I have started to affectionately call it Chicken Little Syndrome. However, it doesn't deserve any affection. I am supposed to be savoring the little songs my toddler sings or the jokes my husband cracks, but I am worrying about making ends meet or about inadvertently not being able to help my patients. Why did I have such issues with time management last shift? Why couldn't I focus on other simple tasks? People have shown me so much love and I can't even think of the proper way to respond, nevermind coming up with something clever, eloquent, or creative. I am a shell. A chainsaw of fear. My family is so good. They deserve to have me back.
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