Kind of struggling

For the past 5 years I’ve been in the same relationship with my boyfriend. I love him but recently I’ve been questioning if I’m in love. I also just lost all my friends at once so I’ve been very overwhelmed. My body just feels so tense and like exhausted and scared ALL the time. Sometimes I even question if I want to be with my boyfriend and I can’t tell if it’s OCD or how I really feel… it’s very annoying. Does anyone have advice on that I’ve never struggled with ROCD before. Also any tips to manage how my body feels all the time. With all the therapy I’ve done before I’ve never once gotten recommended anything I can do to help my body feel less overwhelmed. I feel like the best way to help myself is to learn from people who deal with the same situations. 🤍