- Date posted
- 1y
Struggling not to give up
I have been ruminating on a thought about weather i cheated on a night out when i was drunk, i woke up on the morning and i had a thought/image of me kissing somebody in the club after thinking of what might i have done while drunk, this person in the thought has no face and no body just a little movie of me going into kiss someone, and doing such a thing while my girlfriend and her friends were in the club and its just so out of character for me as i obsess about cheating OCD all the time and worry if i ever do something immoral to our relationship all the time and i love my girlfriend very much. Ive just got to the point where i dont know how i could think up a false memory so quickly after the event and i dont know why i had the thought without even thinking about it really, which makes me think of it as more of a memory than a thought that i am believing to be true as how can OCD make me think of something so quickly and randomly? Im very close to letting this take control of me as im loosing more and more faith in myself as the days go on, please anyone that has gone through anything like this or have a similar experience could u let me know of your experiences because i feel like the only one