So I tend to think about the fact that I may have ocd a lot. That alone is enough to give me major anxiety. I usually will try to talk to somebody about it when it makes me feel anxious. I’ve noticed though as soon as I try to talk about it, I forget most of the obsessions that I’ve had. Is that normal? It makes me feel like I’m crazy sometimes
I was diagnosed with OCD at the age of 7. Someone asked me a question the other day about something when I was young and I realized that I don’t remember a large chunk of my childhood. One of our brain’s defense mechanisms is so forget. Maybe that’s it? Idk I do agree it’s weird, gives me some anxiety too. You’re not alone tho.
@mooxthepoox For some reason the way that I think about my childhood is so weird. The overly traumatic parts feel like normal events to me anymore. Like I know they’re not but it doesn’t make me distressed when I think about them. My mind is just like “Oh, okay!” I don’t know if that makes sense???
@Anon2002 I have also forgotten a good chunk of my childhood too. Even people I have met.
I forget soo much , literally takes a second to forget . When I talk to people I forget all the names of places i need to mention , I stutter and I’ll forget to do things people tell me to do , literally need to put a reminder on my phone for everything even when I take pills
@Terry70 Me too! I have forgotten to take my medication so many times just because I forgot to set a reminder. People tell me I’m “absent minded” all the time but it’s not because I choose to be. Between the possibility of ocd and my ptsd I forget literally everything.
Is this is the reason? #still trying to figure myself out #still not diagnosed #i am considered “slow” with others even my husband . I don’t get it , this is ocd??? Omg
@Terry70 Also any change of getting really emotional about telling your feeling because in your past no one cared to listen? So when someone is listening you ball out crying cause they are listening???
@Terry70 Yes I feel overly emotional because when I try to find comfort by talking to other people they tend to make me feel like I’m crazy. I’m not diagnosed with ocd but I’m here because I think that’s my problem. I will spill literally everything when it comes to someone that listens. It’s like my mind has everything locked away in a vault and as soon as there is someone willing to listen I just spill EVERYTHING. Idk is that a trauma response or something? Is that a ptsd thing.? I’m still figuring out everything myself.
@Anon2002 Like I know I do that but even now trying to remember the things I talk about, I’m having a hard time. It’s frustrating.
I have the exact same problem omg! .. my husbands asks why I’m emotional and I honestly say I blame it on my parents for yelling at me when I scream out my feelings towards them and they would always walk away from me and never listen to me, I think it’s ptsd and thinking about it more and more means that it’s ocd
@Terry70 I went to counseling as a child but I never really have been able to find out what’s wrong with me. Like I grew up in a household where mental illness was frowned upon but now I have major depressive disorder, ptsd and generalized anxiety. I think a lot of my anxiety might come from ocd though or maybe my ocd stems from anxiety I don’t know. I just know that when I get stressed out about something that is all I will think about for days on end to the point that it literally wears me down. I stress over health issues that I have convinced myself that I have to the point that it will trigger my depression and I will lock myself up in my room. It’s frustrating.
Wow holy crap it’s like ur my twin! . I don’t know what depressive disorder or is , please explain Also I did grow up in a household the same way too And I also get obsessed over something that will make me sad and eventually will fade away
Or even that will get my excited like learning a new language, I’ll obsess over time but then give up at the 2nd month , it’s like phases I go through
I also lock my self in the room when I don’t want anyone seeing me cry over something I have thought in my head or if someone is triggering me and I don’t want them knowing , usually my husband will know when I did this , thank god for him knowing cause then he will check on me to talk or give me a hug . Sometimes he gets a bit overwhelmed when I do it a little too much
@Terry70 Major depressive disorder basically just means I’m depressed most of the time. Some times are worse than others but it just kind of lingers there. I do the same thing though. My family tells me “you just need to quit worrying so much”, when I literally can’t. I’ve tried 😂
@Anon2002 A lot of the time things just fade away for me too but I have certain triggers that can make the obsessions really bad. Right now I’m a single woman so if I start talking to a new guy or girl, it makes me worry about my health when logically in anyone else’s mind, they would know they are fine. My mind plays tricks on me. I tend to convince myself that I’m sick when I am not.
@Anon2002 Well I analyze myself why I have my moments of small depressions and it’s matter of events happening at the time of , I don’t get depressed all the time and I love staying positive and strong for my relationship with my husband because even he has some tough issues in his life as well. But I wouldn’t say we’re depressed all the time , it happens roughly 2 or 3 times a month or sometimes we would actually have a great month and wouldn’t happen at all , we can tell we get depressed when being with my family so we have been avoiding them for two weeks and actually has been working. Only because my parents are the most negative people on earth, and yes they tell my I need to stop worrying so much too , they even told my husband that “he will get over it” and I swear my husband wanted to hurt them so bad at that moment , he is in the verge of pstd from his dad passing away and sick of all the drama my cousins have cause us in the past two years and my parents say get over it!! Wtf , just the fact they don’t want to hear us vent anymore and sad we can’t even get help from them
@Terry70 Honestly some of my relatives are like that. I think that they see it as tough love when really it’s emotional abuse. Like I don’t think I would have turned out the way that I am if I had more of a support system growing up. They just downplay a lot of the things that I try to tell them but they don’t understand why it’s such a big deal for me.
Yep 👍🏽 and if funny and sad because they actually have worse symptoms than me and they don’t even know , just this year I told them they have anxiety like I do , they were like really? I said everyone in our family does! That’s when they actually paid attention because I was talking. About them and they realized they actually have it cause I explained what it ment
Yep I’m pretty sure ur my age and literally any parent born in the 50s or 60s has no knowledge and is very stubborn about helping , they just think they still know it all
@Terry70 My favorite is when my dad says , “what are u? A doctor?”
i’ve been dealing with this “thing” since i was 15. (i’m 23 now) if i have a bad memory that i have done when i was really young or just an intrusive thought i feel like i need to tell my mom or boyfriend. it’s been on and off ever since but since January hit it’s been an everyday thing about the littlest things. mostly about my relationship. an example is i was talking to someone random at my job and we were talking about taxes and when im in deep thought or just thinking i do a thing where i bite my lip (not in the sexual way) and i had a thought when it happened “was that sexual?” and i felt like i did something wrong and i went for a while thinking that until i told my boyfriend about it. or like my ex’s face has popped up in my head in the most inappropriate times and i feel the need that i have to tell him. (my ex was not a good person) i feel like im a prisoner in my head everyday, trying to justify thoughts or remind myself that its just a thought. i didnt know that this was or could be a form of ocd. it runs in my family but i’ve just never considered it being this. i always called it anxiety or depression but i always felt like it is more than that.
Is it possible to have a huge fear of OCD itself? (OCD about OCD) I’m scared that I’m not perfect and that I’ll go crazy or something like that, that i won’t achieve the life that i want, that im weird bcs of ocd, what other people will think bcs of my ocd, that i will feel like this forever... I try to reassure myself that I don’t have it, but I just want to cry. Everything related to OCD triggers me, and I know these things are also signs of OCD. Is this normal for OCD? Maybe I just need to accept it, I don’t know. I think about this 24/7—some days are better, and I kind of feel like I don’t have OCD, but it always comes back when something triggers me. I also keep asking my parents if they’re sure I don’t have OCD. They tell me I don’t, but it doesn’t help because I know they don’t really understand OCD. So, it’s basically just another obsession, but about OCD. Has anyone dealt with this? I’ve never heard anyone talk about this, so I’m not sure if it’s even a thing.
Alot is on my mind u feel like I’m going to lose my mind , not really a lot but if I think too hard I think I’m gonna lose my mind , I was trying to slp n I think I’m gonna lose my mind , I’ve always been having thoughts about going crazy it never really changed , I have other thoughts and triggers but they always somehow lead Bk to me thinking I’m going to lose my mind , guys I’m so tired , do I even have ocd
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