Daughter of Jesus

Date posted: 2y

Values

This ocd makes me feel like l don’t own any morals or values that l have always stood by and it makes me feel lost and confused

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

No one will ever be perfect. I have always been ashamed of myself when in those moments of bad ocd/doubt/unbelief, I felt like I could really want evil. Like that was my true self BUT (a good but, not an OCD but) God is fighting for me when I feel like I have nothing left

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

I had a rough start to faith and I’ve always to tried to search for the answers- like ocd wants you to- and then you feel like you’ve gone too far and all of the bad stuff you’ve dealt with when you were little was all real and then you feel like you’re pushing God away

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Date posted: 2y

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Daughter of ...

Date posted: 2y

@Someone99 I sent you a message on there

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

Amen- that’s what it does ALL the time, my ocd has tried to convince me that I wanted evil and that I gave myself to evil but when I’ve been feeling the most vulnerable and open a special song pops in my head “you’re on the thrown, stop holding on and just be held”

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

God is always reminding me that while I know still have sin and there’s a real battle going on; He is with us in it

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

I have let ocd convince me of the worst, believing it was me that wants to be evil. I think that it’s just OCD. The ERP therapy is bringing up a lot of anxiety but God is fighting for us even when we’re helpless

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

One of the staff had written: Shame is OCD’s best friend. When shame around our condition is increased it tells our brain the thoughts are a threat which can result in more urges to do compulsions. While we can’t magically get rid of shame, we can be mindful of it’s presence and do work to de-stigmatize our experience! This can be done through reading the stories of others with OCD (like in our My OCD Journey project on our website), learning about the condition, and finding support from loved ones. ERP can help us to sit through these feelings as well.

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Someone99 I am struggling with the things that I’ve said and believed that are completely against God and I just feel empty with them. Have you guys done that too? I may have already asked this, but that’s what makes it OCD i guess.

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Someone99 I guess that’s a combination of our own brokenness, sin and and our OCD. You are not alone because I HAVE BEEN THERE TOO

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Someone99 No, but I can look into it. An app?

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Someone99 Yep

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Someone99 Yes, I like Mark’s stuff but I’ve also been compulsive and triggered in some of it😭 I don’t think I want that app but thank you for offering:)

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@KelSul73 Do you have GroupMe?

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@KelSul73 Also, have you ever had OCD issues with compulsions about your anger/frustration whatever against God that turned into an ocd theme? Like a good chunk of the time it’s me centered- like what did YOU do to mess it up but I find myself blaming God for a lot in my head

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@KelSul73 And I’ve done that for a long time on and off so more ocd spirals😭

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Someone99 Like believing lies about God and spiraling with them thinking that you accept them

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@KelSul73 Cause I’m trying to sit with it but I am just so numb and struggling with a lot of fear

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

Amen to that my friend

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Date posted: 2y

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KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Sweets Amen to that one

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Sweets I’ve struggled with that one ALL OF MY LIFE

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Sweets Yep and my OCD spirals are like, well you believed you are one of the people grace can’t change but God keeps coming back. And then of course that’s a doubt too but that’s OCD for you. We need to trust God is hanging onto us through all of our evil sinful brokenness. In every OCD spiral

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Sweets And even worse, if you’ve spiraled like me and then you’re like “oh yea, I did that and welcomed the thoughts and I am actually evil and am I living a lie?”

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

I’m obviously stuck in an OCD spiral but I’m having trouble cause I know God’s grace is good but ocd but God but🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️🫠🫠

Daughter of ...

Date posted: 2y

@KelSul73 I understand l’m not doing so well either

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

I am struggling too, you’re not alone

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

Have you guys with scrupulosity ever had ocd try to convince you that you’ve committed the unpardonable sin because of lies you’ve believe about God. And compulsions led me to trying to say things to make it better but I made it worse

Daughter of ...

Date posted: 2y

@KelSul73 Yes my ocd makes me scared of that everyday

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Daughter of Jesus THANK YOU

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@KelSul73 I’m sorry, I’m just so glad that I’m not alone in that

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@KelSul73 I need so much healing from my evil thoughts and desires and my punishment based relationship with God

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Sweets YEP- at least I’m not alone

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Sweets I have been having patterns and seasons of pure anxiety attacks- when I starting committing to ERP this week, it got so intense I called out of work twice, I’ve been snuggled up to my mom each night and waking up in panic attacks (I’m 22 with my own child that I’ve needed help taking care of)

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@KelSul73 In the back of my mind, I’m thinking “welp all of this is a cover up for your evil choices as a kid” SHUT UP OCD

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

@Sweets I am like afraid to read the Bible and then when I’m sitting with the awful thoughts I have, it feels like I don’t care and…. more freaking OCD

KelSul73

Date posted: 2y

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