Daughter of Jesus

Date posted: 1y

Values

This ocd makes me feel like l don’t own any morals or values that l have always stood by and it makes me feel lost and confused

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

You're not alone, this is what it does.

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

No one will ever be perfect. I have always been ashamed of myself when in those moments of bad ocd/doubt/unbelief, I felt like I could really want evil. Like that was my true self BUT (a good but, not an OCD but) God is fighting for me when I feel like I have nothing left

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

I had a rough start to faith and I’ve always to tried to search for the answers- like ocd wants you to- and then you feel like you’ve gone too far and all of the bad stuff you’ve dealt with when you were little was all real and then you feel like you’re pushing God away

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

I've been a believer for 26 years and OCD messes with my faith and values. Please get telegram and write me. @Mavh99 ,We don't have to be alone.

Daughter of ...

Date posted: 1y

@Someone99 I sent you a message on there

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Daughter of Jesus 🙂

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

Amen- that’s what it does ALL the time, my ocd has tried to convince me that I wanted evil and that I gave myself to evil but when I’ve been feeling the most vulnerable and open a special song pops in my head “you’re on the thrown, stop holding on and just be held”

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

God is always reminding me that while I know still have sin and there’s a real battle going on; He is with us in it

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

I have let ocd convince me of the worst, believing it was me that wants to be evil. I think that it’s just OCD. The ERP therapy is bringing up a lot of anxiety but God is fighting for us even when we’re helpless

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

One of the staff had written: Shame is OCD’s best friend. When shame around our condition is increased it tells our brain the thoughts are a threat which can result in more urges to do compulsions. While we can’t magically get rid of shame, we can be mindful of it’s presence and do work to de-stigmatize our experience! This can be done through reading the stories of others with OCD (like in our My OCD Journey project on our website), learning about the condition, and finding support from loved ones. ERP can help us to sit through these feelings as well.

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

It's about God holding on to us, not the other way around. I need other believers going through this in my life. Those who don't understand just think we're "bad Christians" and it's difficult being alone in my church and family.

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Someone99 I am struggling with the things that I’ve said and believed that are completely against God and I just feel empty with them. Have you guys done that too? I may have already asked this, but that’s what makes it OCD i guess.

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 I've believed I was unlovable, unforgivable, don't deserve love, grace, and forgiveness. Go through seasons where I feel completely empty and away from God

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 Do you have telegram? I'd love to be able to encourage you and be there for you. I have a lot I've learned about this theme

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Someone99 I guess that’s a combination of our own brokenness, sin and and our OCD. You are not alone because I HAVE BEEN THERE TOO

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 And some great resources to share with you that may help

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Someone99 No, but I can look into it. An app?

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 Yeah, much of my Christian walk has been very compulsive. And I've been learning that OCD therapy is extremely important for managing the thoughts, but it's very necessary to allow God to heal us, which isn't possible when we're in the OCD toilet

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 Yes

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Someone99 Yep

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 Look up Mark DeJesus on YouTube. He has a ton of stuff, a former pastor and OCD survivor

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 And I'm @Mavh99 on telegram, should you get it. 🙂

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Someone99 Yes, I like Mark’s stuff but I’ve also been compulsive and triggered in some of it😭 I don’t think I want that app but thank you for offering:)

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 Do you have GroupMe?

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 Also, have you ever had OCD issues with compulsions about your anger/frustration whatever against God that turned into an ocd theme? Like a good chunk of the time it’s me centered- like what did YOU do to mess it up but I find myself blaming God for a lot in my head

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 And I’ve done that for a long time on and off so more ocd spirals😭

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 Yes I do!

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Someone99 Like believing lies about God and spiraling with them thinking that you accept them

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 Cause I’m trying to sit with it but I am just so numb and struggling with a lot of fear

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 I get it. You're not alone

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 You're invited to join me on GroupMe. Use this link to join: https://groupme.com/contact/88403123/nfgA9aqn

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 We can connect on GroupMe me if you're comfortable with it 🙂

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

Amen to that my friend

Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

💕

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Date posted: 1y

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Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

If anyone needs someone near as I do, for encouragement and support, I threw my telegram on my 2nd reply to original post: @Mavh99.

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Sweets Amen to that one

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Sweets I’ve struggled with that one ALL OF MY LIFE

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Sweets Yep and my OCD spirals are like, well you believed you are one of the people grace can’t change but God keeps coming back. And then of course that’s a doubt too but that’s OCD for you. We need to trust God is hanging onto us through all of our evil sinful brokenness. In every OCD spiral

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Sweets And even worse, if you’ve spiraled like me and then you’re like “oh yea, I did that and welcomed the thoughts and I am actually evil and am I living a lie?”

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

I’m obviously stuck in an OCD spiral but I’m having trouble cause I know God’s grace is good but ocd but God but🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️🫠🫠

Daughter of ...

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 I understand l’m not doing so well either

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

I am struggling too, you’re not alone

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

Have you guys with scrupulosity ever had ocd try to convince you that you’ve committed the unpardonable sin because of lies you’ve believe about God. And compulsions led me to trying to say things to make it better but I made it worse

Daughter of ...

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 Yes my ocd makes me scared of that everyday

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Daughter of Jesus THANK YOU

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 I’m sorry, I’m just so glad that I’m not alone in that

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 I need so much healing from my evil thoughts and desires and my punishment based relationship with God

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Sweets YEP- at least I’m not alone

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Sweets I have been having patterns and seasons of pure anxiety attacks- when I starting committing to ERP this week, it got so intense I called out of work twice, I’ve been snuggled up to my mom each night and waking up in panic attacks (I’m 22 with my own child that I’ve needed help taking care of)

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@KelSul73 In the back of my mind, I’m thinking “welp all of this is a cover up for your evil choices as a kid” SHUT UP OCD

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

@Sweets I am like afraid to read the Bible and then when I’m sitting with the awful thoughts I have, it feels like I don’t care and…. more freaking OCD

KelSul73

Date posted: 1y

🫠🫠

Brian :)

Date posted: 25w

losing myself . Giving up?

I feel so worthlessssssssss. I feel like I’m not even me anymore . Like my ocd is me.

moon0270

Date posted: 20w

OCD

Makes me feel lost. I feel like I don't know who I am anymore.

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 14w

I feel lost

I honestly can’t tell when thoughts are being affected by OCD. Sometimes I think I have what I think are normal “grey” thoughts, but then OCD adds so much weight to them and I spiral. I had this thought that I wished my boyfriend was more confident or independent. I felt so guilty for thinking it. I told him, and of course it hurt him. He told me it’s a normal thought to have, I just dwell on it too much. And that it’s the kind of thought most people keep to themselves. That’s the thing. I don’t know what’s okay to keep to myself and what isn’t. I think sometimes I say things out loud not just to relieve anxiety, but because I genuinely don’t know what’s okay to think or say. I do not know the line between a normal grey thought and something that’s “bad” to think. I don’t know how to tell if it’s something I should process privately or something I need to be ashamed of. I get this confusion with intrusive thoughts too, but those are easier to spot and evaluate. This is harder, because again, it is *my* thought. That makes it harder to sit with. Maybe the intrusive part is the voice that questions what kind of person I am for even thinking it. I don’t have the same telltale signs anymore. My physical anxiety isn’t there anymore, it’s all in my head and that makes it so much more confusing. But I don’t know. The line between honesty vs compulsion is so blurry. I just feel lost

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