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The one thing you have to think about is people without ocd may have the same thoughts and not realize it... people with OCD go "woah wait a minute what was that thought about?" and it causes the anxiety and rumination cycle of OCD

Hi. It is so sad to read this all, but there is so much hope for you. What you write is definitely case of OCD in my opinion and many here would agree - but I highly recommend to see a official OCD specialist. OCD specialists are really good to treat it and they already had cases as you. My OCD specialist heard from me things simmilar to you and was helpfull. Other psychologist can misunderstood who do not have expertise in OCD. But OCD expert will never judge you and can help. Do you know someone in your area who specialize on OCD or anxiety disorders? These people can help. Also CBT or ERP therapists can be helpfull. I do not recommend talk therapy and psychodynamic for OCD - it was not beneficial for me. ... Till you find right specialist you can help yourself enormously by learning some basics od ACT - acceptance and commitment therapy - in case of OCD it can be applied that when intrusive thought came you do non engage with it and instead refocus your attention to here and now and act according your values ... it about accepting that there is pain in life, but not getting be focused only on it and then suffer and miss all the beuty of life - there is a big difference between having intrusive thoughts and then refocusing ti enjoy your day and accepting a amound of pain in it and to suffer whole day focused on wanna get rid of these thoughts - it is first soo hard and needs so much courage...but after refocusing many times, your mind will learn that intrusive thoughts are false alarms... right now you react on them as real alarm by fear and compulsions ... I had simmilar case to you also sexual intrusive thoughts including kids... you are not far gone...many people recovered from pocd ... mind is capable to recover... you are not danger to society... people with OCD are not danger... people who do not act on their thoughts continue to not act on their thoughts...because these thoughts are unwanted intrusive thoughts - there is a BIG difference between these and real fantasies of dangerous people. Dangerous people are in aligment with their bad thoughts, their bad thoughts are not same as OCD thoughts. You are a contrary person to predator. You want be so good and safe to kids that your fear brings up all this intrusive nonsense up. It is fear based... but you slowly will learn there is nothing to fear ... you are so worthy of love and underatand and are a good person...we are here to help you...many people here had simmilar story ... and cried at nights... it is okay to sometimes cry... OCD can be hard...we need compassion and self compassion ... do not worry that you do not worry enought... it is another trap ... really try to refocus on some good things when these thoughts came...accept them but do not engage with them ... I am sad that you are going trought this, but there is way out ...way out is trought ... you are brawe... you will win ... nobody is far gone... there is a way out ... nowdays OCD is treatable by so good therapies - ERP and CBT ( and CBT modalities as MCT and ACT) ... I hope it all be good for you ...

I think starting with therapy is a great start your not a lost cause by all means you are stronger than this and the fact your on here and looking for help is amazing stay strong!

Hey sweetheart, you have OCD, so you can stop beating yourself up now. Your disturbing thoughts do not define who you are. You need to get with a therapist who specializes in Exposure Response Therapy and OCD, so they can thoroughly explain your OCD to you.

Your not alone, I feel the EXACT same way but a different theme. It’s debilitating, I hope you find the right therapist to help you reach recovery.