I’m done with it all, I don’t know what’s true or what’s not anymore I feel scared I’m hiding something from one drunk night out, I feel as though I ruined my life that night that could’ve put me in jail due to doing something inappropriate with a female I have not heard anything or nothings came about from it but because I was intoxicated I don’t know what’s true, I’m done I can’t carry on it’s been over 1 year.
Mine is both. It's all the time now. Can't decide reality from false memories.
@Loukel It’s so frustrating I just want to own upto mine because i think it’s more chance of me doing something evil than not now
@Anonymous I understand.
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@kotabear7 Thankyou so much, same here it’s horrible but nice at the same time to know we’re similar with our brain pattern etc.
@kotabear7 Yes send me your username for any social media and i will add u if that’s better
@kotabear7 Look I’m not being nasty however I don’t know anything about you, it’s a complicated subject Snapchat because it’s personal and people tell lies on there people can act so different etc on there or be completely a different person. if you got any other social media I don’t mind added you on would preferably be better
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@kotabear7 It turned me the other way into drinking to blackout to ‘escape’ reality every weekend I binge drink to a high level of drunk, sorry to hear your stories too it’s so horrible these thoughts ent they makes us replay everything, I just wish I didn’t go out that night because it’s ruined my life, I went to a therapist but they wasn’t OCD trained or not right for me so looking for another, have you found one yet?
@kotabear7 Yeah I’ve always taken it too far with alcohol in general always normally the one getting the drunkest could never be the least sober on a night out, being that drunk all the time just kept leasing to me making ‘mistakes’ with females but after I spoke to my friend about it he said that’s just normal and part of growing up kinda. But I never say it as that I always held onto them and felt awful, I just hope that the one night I walked home I didn’t r*pe a female I’m so scared
@kotabear7 Yes I still think about it every waking day and most thoughts in my head is still about this night, it’s cruel. I would recommend you see one if your still struggling I’m from the UK and still waiting to see one through the NHS, I use to have OCD but never got a diagnosis but I thought it went then this night has hit me like a tonne of bricks
Kotabear7 please leave a username of some sort so we can talk I did not mean it in a mean full way about Snapchat I just think the app is very good etc.
I feel so scared and gross and i keep replaying everything in my head for reassurance but everything feels blurry. I just need exact information, exact proof that I didn’t hurt someone.
Huge tw I’m so scared I’m a r*pist people have told me I am. I wanted to lose my virginity when I was 19 I felt embarrassed and ashamed I hadn’t. I decided to get drunk and find someone in a club to lose it to. I don’t remember much other than I was happy it was finally happening and remember thinking my plan had worked. I was told by friends that the other person was drunk and possibly on drugs. I must be a r*pist as I knew what I was doing and instigated it, I took advantage and used someone. I feel sick and don’t deserve to move on I can’t even apologies as it was a complete stranger what if they’re living with trauma because of me.
First I must say I love children and harming one sickens me. So if you don’t understand pocd please don’t commment. Ive only ever been drunk around children once at a house party , my ocd then convinced me I could’ve assaulted them the next morning as my memory was patchy…I haven’t let this go for YEARS. I didn’t even know what I did? 6 years later I have this whole story, based off an intrusive image I had but still don’t really know what I did? Every waking day of my life I’m trying to figure this out but I’m getting more and more confused. I’ve found clues, coincidences , things I believe could be evidence but isn’t really? I’m mixing in reality and false images….My therapists (I’ve had 3) all say this is false memory ocd? But mine feels different? Mine feels worse? Anyway I need a break.
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