Date posted: 1y

Recovery question

Working my way through ROCD/SOOCD. A symptom that happened the instant I had my first obsession, was complete loss of excitement, libido, attraction, and basically any positive emotion. Makes sense as to why I went from ROCD to SOOCD with the loss of these feelings. The best way I can describe it, is it was like “you’re unable or not allowed to feel these things anymore until you’ve sorted out this thing” I want to believe that if I get my OCD under control that all these feelings will naturally return. However, is that true? Is that common? So difficult to deal with these themes when there are no positive reinforcements. I.e. if I felt libido, it would reinforce abc. Any advice or experiences anyone can share on this?

Nanana_lw

Date posted: 1y

For me, sometimes i get a handle on my ocd but then certain situations will trigger it. it's a huge up and down when it comes to healing but there will be a point where you can understand it compeltely to where you don't have to panic.

Nica

Date posted: 1y

Maybe, maybe not. Part of ERP is accepting you might not get back to that level and let go on the need to control all of that.

Date posted: 1y

@Nica Yep and the uncertainty side of things is absolutely something I’m working on. I guess what I’m looking for is some shared experience when it comes to my lost emotions or seemingly ability to feel them. Are these just a symptom of ocd and anxiety? Losing these emotions don’t appear to be written about much?

Anonymo12

Date posted: 1y

@gp I’ve lost it too. When I feel somewhat better, I jus get stressed cuz the attractions n sex drive don’t come

Date posted: 1y

@gp Oh I should also add to this it’s not just focussed on libido/attraction. It’s also the ability to feel excited or look forward to anything. Or enjoy anything. For example - I used to love the idea of sitting at a cafe reading the paper for an hour. I’d look forward to doing that. Now, I have no feeling towards it what so ever. No motivation or excitement about it. Sorry if this come across as just libido related. I mean, that’s obviously gone too and upsets me.

Anonymo12

Date posted: 1y

My sex drive still ain’t come back😭😭😭😭😭😭

jammywammy

Date posted: 1y

Wait didnt know how to describe what I feel but yes it's literally like wow u are not allowed to feel anything bc what if u feel the wrong thing 💀💀💀💀

Date posted: 1y

@jammywammy Yeh - I think it’s all related to ocd as from the instant I had the first really bothersome thought, every other emotion just upped and left. And now it’s kind of like nothing else in life matters or can matter because of theme XYZ. And I’m guessing the anxiety that XYZ causes just exacerbates the lack of emotion. Then add ocd in general with this expectation of what I ‘should’ be feeling. It’s incredibly hard when you don’t seem to have a positive emotion to support your recovery.

Hippest Hobbit

Date posted: 1y

My OCD has evolved from the beginning. Now I'm dealing with a lot of contamination and some social anxiety. At one time I had really bad social anxiety and would constantly feel like I did something wrong and people really disliked me. I noticed even though I had people that did care about me I constantly second guessed everything and excluded myself from people because I was afraid of judgment. During this time I felt completely alone and thought everyone was judging me, even people who were my friends for a long time. It was impossible for me to have close relationships and friendships without trusting and being open with people.

Date posted: 1y

@Hippest Hobbit Did you find you have been unable to feel excitement, look forward to things, general confidence and contentness during these themes?

Hippest Hobbit

Date posted: 1y

@gp It's more that when I'm really anxious and paranoid my mind is so distracted by what I'm obsessing and stressed about that it doesn't really have for anything else. Lots of times I've gone to bars or event and tried to socialize and end up just stressing in my head for 2 hrs. It's usually only temporary for me in the moment and then I'm back to normal when I'm out of the triggering situation. After going back to the bar multiple times though and making friends with some of the people there I feel much more comfortable there. For me it's best to fight through the anxiety and do things to make the place less anxiety inducing. It's easy when you first go somewhere to see 30 people who will judge you but as you keep going you will find some friends and feel more comfortable there.

Hippest Hobbit

Date posted: 1y

@gp My advice would be to try to focus on helping your OCD and mental health and feeling healthier and happier and then those other traits will most likely return.

Anonymo12

Date posted: 1y

Does this impact ur ability to have an erection and also maintain one if u get one ? It impacted my sex drive and this. Can anyone relate ?

🧡🍁🎃

Date posted: 20w

Feelings

Hey everyone, I wanted to come on here today to just share this post because I’ve been struggling with this recently. I just wanna know if this is a common thing in relationship OCD. So last Friday me and my boyfriend had a conversation that was important, and my emotions were high and I got a little emotional about something he said and we had a long talk about it, the conversation went great and afterwards everything was okay. On Saturday I was so excited to see him after work and I was overflowing with feelings of happiness and excitement. Sunday was great and we stayed on FaceTime just enjoying the day together after he went home that morning, and then came Monday. I remember getting a thought like this, “What if I’m losing feelings for him and I’m just leading him on?” And even this thought, “I don’t really feel anything towards him right now, does that mean I fell out of love with him?” And then the anxiety came, I could literally feel myself breaking out in cold sweats and I could feel the pain in my chest after these thoughts crossed my mind. But what bothers me so much about this is on Saturday and Sunday I felt so content and happy with him and I was so happy and I didn’t have any anxiety whatsoever, and then Monday came, and I had those thoughts and I feel almost numb and I can’t feel anything else except the feelings of worry and fear and my anxiety has been at a all-time high and I keep feeling this pain of guilt and hurt in my chest and I just wanted to know if anyone else has experienced the same. Because personally one thing I hate is that one day I can be so happy and energetic and then the next day I can feel numb and feel absolutely nothing towards my boyfriend. I’m not sure if this can correlate with my menstrual cycle as well, but I’ve heard that that can also make your relationship OCD worse and cause you to feel differently about your partner. Just wanting to see if anyone has dealt with the same!

What is happ...

Date posted: 20w

Does anyone relate? I feel exhausted

I think I may have SO-OCD and OCD in general. At a young age fear of death. I use to tap my heart 8 times (lucky number) for each person I loved. Then I think I suffered with ROCD and HOCD when I was 18 after 2 bad relationships who they ran off with a ‘close’ friend at the time. I’ve struggled with OCD and these HOCD/ SO-OCD about 12 years ago but the HOCD went and the ROCD came back and forth. I did previously last year have a Fear of death of my children with alligators going on holiday after reading a bad article in Florida which lasted few months. Briefly Started with ‘R-OCD’ again but went pretty quickly. Am I good enough for my partner? Is she going to leave me? What if she finds someone else? Though I saw a picture of a good looking male on a social media which my Brian instantly questioned if I was gay, panic and anxiety which lead to which I think is SO-OCD and HOCD. An obsession is an unwanted and unpleasant thought, image or urge that repeatedly enters my mind, causing feelings of anxiety, disgust or unease. A compulsion is a repetitive behaviour or mental act that you feel you need to do to temporarily relieve the unpleasant feelings brought on by the obsessive thought. I’m stuck in obsessive doubt around my sexual identity, even though I say that deep down i know what my sexual identity is but even this is being questioned at the minute and I want to cry. I have always, always been interested in women. That much I would say I had a sex addiction. My attraction to the opposite sex has pretty much disappeared. I have a fleeting thought of attraction which will set off a cascade of doubt and terror which some thoughts/ feelings make me physically sick. I’m scared of going out in public or even looking at people especially men for the fear of false attraction. I try to do ERP when I do have moments but it makes me want to be sick. My brain feels like it’s in a clamp and I can’t stop the constant thoughts. It feels like something is my head has stopped or not working correctly. Even at night. Every time I wake my chest seems to feel strange and the thoughts are suddenly there. I’ve tried ERP but it makes me want to be sick even when it subsides. I am still continuing this but I feel so drained. I just want to be myself again who I was 3 months ago. I hate that this has happened and I feel that I can’t cope, can’t be the husband I want to be, can’t be the father I want and was. These are my main issues at the moment; false attraction to pretty much any male even voices, decrease attraction in opposite gender, severe anxiety, I can’t sleep or eat, constant thoughts 24/7 and scenarios, groinal responses, seavere recriminatory thinking, I hate myself, I even have false attraction to myself in the mirror. What is wrong with me? I just want to be the husband and father I was a few months ago!

What is happ...

Date posted: 19w

Those who suffer with SO-OCD and ROCD…

What’s your experience on: Losing opposite gender attraction? And, False attraction to same gender? I have both and I feel like I don’t know who I am. I can’t parent or be a husband due to the mass panic and anxiety. Just wanted to know if anyone has had both and regained theirself?

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