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Someone99

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

It is amazing how OCD plays games with us in everything. For me, masturbation actually became a compulsion, and even a punishment at times, and I didn't realize it until I was recently diagnosed and began learning about OCD. Now it's much more of an enjoyable thing. From what you described, it sounds like you're learning to not allow the intrusive thought to alter your life in that moment, I wouldn't consider it weird. Thanks for being brave enough to discuss what some would consider a sensitive topic. :-)

bkelp213

Date posted: 1y ago

It’s not weird as far as I’m concerned - I have the exact same issue and I do the same thing. It definitely makes me feel icky to keep going and it can cause quite a bit of anxiety, but the way I see it is I should be able to do the same things I did before OCD decided to crash the party, so I’m gonna try and continue to do things like normal, at least as much as I can. I remember when I was much younger, I had a bad year with intrusive thoughts that often kept me from bathing regularly (bc it was a trigger for me) which was obviously not healthy so I always remember that OCD can tell you to cut out lots of things in life out of fear, but it shouldn’t get to dictate that - like you said, we should be the ones in charge, not OCD.

ap_

Date posted: 1y ago

I totally understand what you say, for me it happens too, i even stopped self pleasuring after my intrusive thoughts started and now 3 months later i just tried 1 and did what you say, continue no matter what thought crosses my mind, and IT IS hard, it feels bad, for example now I'm talking with a guy and we may see eachoter this weekend and I'm already thinking about what if we kiss and i get an intrusive thought and then I think ofc you're gonna get an intrusive thought when you kiss him if you're scared of that (the pink elephant analogy) haha it's so exhausting but we got this and you're not alone

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 18w ago

Self pleasure and intrusive thoughts :/

I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh

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issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 14w ago

Advice please??? I’m CONFUSED

OK, this might sound really dumb, but when you guys get intrusive thoughts, do they just come once and then go away? I’ve heard that repeatedly thinking about an intrusive thought is considered ‘checking,’ but it doesn’t feel like I have any control over how many times it comes up in my head. It’s not like I’m trying to check anything—it just keeps showing up, almost like it’s terrorizing me every time. I can’t seem to stop it from looping, stop remembering it, or prevent it from coming up. Every time it does, I feel horrified, and I already know it’s going to horrify me. I don’t think I’m actively trying to see if my feelings have changed, so is this still considered checking? How do other people get an intrusive thought and just move on? Doesn’t it pop up a million times for them too? I always thought that was normal, but now I’m hearing this could be a compulsion, and I feel really confused, scared, and lost. Is this why my OCD feels so extreme? Because I really don’t feel like I can control how many times the thought pops up.

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 12w ago

Idk what to do

Hey yall, having a tough time. I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts while I self pleasure and it GENUIENLY feels like I enjoy them for whatever reason. And then now about half an hour later it’s like okay it’s a sexual thought but I might not actually like it. Idk I just really hate myself, because I basically genuinely liked it in the moment

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