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It’s not weird as far as I’m concerned - I have the exact same issue and I do the same thing. It definitely makes me feel icky to keep going and it can cause quite a bit of anxiety, but the way I see it is I should be able to do the same things I did before OCD decided to crash the party, so I’m gonna try and continue to do things like normal, at least as much as I can. I remember when I was much younger, I had a bad year with intrusive thoughts that often kept me from bathing regularly (bc it was a trigger for me) which was obviously not healthy so I always remember that OCD can tell you to cut out lots of things in life out of fear, but it shouldn’t get to dictate that - like you said, we should be the ones in charge, not OCD.

I totally understand what you say, for me it happens too, i even stopped self pleasuring after my intrusive thoughts started and now 3 months later i just tried 1 and did what you say, continue no matter what thought crosses my mind, and IT IS hard, it feels bad, for example now I'm talking with a guy and we may see eachoter this weekend and I'm already thinking about what if we kiss and i get an intrusive thought and then I think ofc you're gonna get an intrusive thought when you kiss him if you're scared of that (the pink elephant analogy) haha it's so exhausting but we got this and you're not alone