Overwhelmed

I had a terrible session with my therapist today. We have been doing CBT for a little over a year now working through a few different things. Today was the first day we really experienced therapy during an active OCD meltdown. I've had a hard week and was seeking help from my therapist to move forward out of the spiral. She ended our session by telling me people with OCD can become psychotic, that it does happen, that OCD gets worse and that I have to use my tools. That was the least helpful thing she could have told me, as I've been actively spiraling about harm ocd and fearing "going crazy" or losing impulse control. It was VERY hard for me to be honest with her, and now I just feel worse, worrying more about whether or not this is a common occurrence. Can anyone shed more light on her claim that people with OCD can become psychotic?

Yesterday I had an ending session with a therapist I had been seeing for almost 2 years. This is because she doesn’t specialise in OCD and actually when I spoke to her about my diagnosis it was quite triggering for me as she didn’t think I had OCD (she thinks it’s only excessive cleanliness etc). She’s a humanistic therapist and I have worked with her through so much that i’ve formed a really strong attachment. I’m so nervous to start doing ERP/ CBT work and i’m really frightened that it won’t work for me. My old therapist has said i can always come back whenever, but I feel alone and scared and like my safety blanket has completely gone. I realise this is probably because she provided me with so much reassurance. Does anyone have any advice or can give me any words of wisdom if they’ve gone through similar things? I can’t stop crying and feel very depressed.

Today was kinda hard😵‍💫 I tried to go to a new therapist who does ERP (my current therapist doesn't - I've read a lot about it on NOCD but never tried it with a therapist). However, telling her my intrusive thoughts, I got so triggered. I don't know, but the more she asked and the more I answered, my brain was like: "She thinks you like girls and you are in denial... and you know, it's probably the most logical thing. That's it". I somehow went out there convinced that was the truth. Then I had a really ugly cry with my mother 💀 and now I don't know what to do! I don't know if it's her "fault" that I got triggered or if it's a good thing... like, she didn't reassure me or give me an answer ("oh don't worry, you certainly love your boyfriend!" or "uh yeah, you're absolutely lying, you're in denial"), so maybe that's a good thing?