what if god gave me this to punish me for everything iāve done wrong in life and now he hates me and iāll never get to see my family members who have passed again and iāll never get to heaven?
I donāt believe God gave you this as a punishment, but I do believe that God will use it for your good. Maybe you donāt see how itās for your good now, but you will if you keep walking with the Lord. Romans 8:28 tells us that God works all things together for the good of those who love Him. Also, trust and believe in those signs that you have been given. Donāt second guess them (Iām guilty of doing this too). & like Philipp said, the next step is to learn to trust without needing the signs.
Sometimes God allows us to have things so itāll grow us and grow others. I know God allowed me to have this disease for some reason. I have no idea what that reason is, but I have to trust Him. I try to use this disease to help others. Itās hard, but always remember God LOVES you. Heās madly in love with you and he would not allow you to have something that made it impossible to follow him or go to heaven. His word is still truth no matter what OCD says in the background.
I think the same. But my logic says it doesnt make sense. God wants us to be free not under those chains. Be sire that its not a punsihment.
@PhilippFree i keep asking when i pray for signs he still loves me and heās not angry with me and i think he gives them but then the doubt begins again, itās so tiring
@ocdishorrible.x. I also prayed and still pray sometimes for signs. But I guess the next step is stop asking for signs and starting to learn how to trust. Its difficult. But remember what was said in the gospel that those are blessed who dont see and still believe. I think my answers sound like Im fine. But believe me everyday feels like a fight for me and my healing progress seems always to be interrupted. You can interpret everything as a sign that why I stopped doing that.
Sometimes I feel like itās Satan doing this
I'm Christian and I struggle with being close to god a lot but lately I just feel like I will never near a full relationship with god because of this not only that my heart physically hurts because I think about how I want god to allow me to get married and have kids but I don't think that's his will for me I feel like it will never happen and my heart hurts thinking about it and even if god does allow that blessing to come my way l'm afraid I'm going to end up hurting my husband or committing adultery and I'm afraid how he would react to my past and old relationship and ocd I don't think it will ever go away not because I don't think god is powerful enough I know he is I just think he wants that to be my story for the glory of his name and because it keeps me close to him idk I just my heart hurts thinking about not being married and not having kids but l'm trying to accept that in case that isn't his will for me it just really hurts my heart physically im thinking of starting therapy but im scared it wont do anything or God will get upset with me that I couldnāt do it with just him i got put back on pills and im gonna end up going back to therapy i get afraid of death and other things now idk I just donāt wanna upset god
Was I a bad person before this life and is God punishing me. Sometimes I think I have a reverse punishment. Like God knew I'd be a horrible adult so that's why I was abused as a kid. I wasn't horribly abused but I didn't really realize I was until my psychiatrist told me I was. I hate myself
So, alot has changed. I'm Christian and currently believe we are in the end of times. It's changed my whole perspective on life. I quit my job and moved back in with family, starting to go to church, apologized to those I hurt except, one person who I talked to two family members and they told me to delete the message and with my other apology ( that i also believed was God telling me to confess in 2020) i lied at some parts because of shame and confusing myself most likely intentionally. I confessed everything to my dad and he says since i turned from it, repented, that i need to let it go and continue forward. Since then, my minds been saying that I'm outside of God's will and everything's gone down hill. I had also prayed that God exposed me and now it's like all this evil and wickedness that feels like it's coming out of my heart settles into my chest. I've prayed to God, worshipped to God, but thoughts and images of being sent to hell or my loved ones pops into my head and I've gone to sleep twice each night accepting the fact that because of me not doing so may have doomed me and my loved ones and I feel scared that I got so tired and stopped fighting it. I've had ocd since I was 7 but it just is so scary because it's hitting down to the wire and I'm scared that I was never a child of God at all I mean I have iniquity I thought I repented for but people I love still struggle with what I've done and I prayed for them and tried to help them and suggest therapy but I haven't did what I could to make it right like I should've. But these images and thoughts they're horrible. I feel like I'm against God truly and I'm like Lord change the circumstances and I won't resist so that I can preach Your word and everyday I feel like I'm gambling. It's like every thought is biblical for the most part. I don't want to kill myself cuz what if I have a chance that God will have mercy on me but....
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond
