1000% percent certainty

I’ve wrote about this before but I’m doing so bad right now. I struggle with Pure O with a religious theme. Not so much scrupulosity, as much as just what feels like blasphemous thoughts against what I have believed to be true. Genuine questioning of faith is normal and actually I think it should be encouraged! But I feel like I’ve gone past that. I can’t remember the last time I went through a whole day without ruminating and googling information about my beliefs. It’s the first thing I start thinking about and it distracts me from everything that I try to do. I just want 100% assurance in what I believe but I can’t find that. Im searching for something that can’t be found. That doesn’t stop me from ruminating and devoting all of my energy to something that won’t be found. Any suggestions or help from Christian’s would be helpful

Username: bjornkattbjornkatt

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm Christian as well and this is what I personally feel regarding this topic: the really important things are plainly communicated like the 10 commandments, the things that are uncertain or could be interpreted in multiple different ways are meant to be pondered because they can mean different things at different times, depending on what you need in your life at that moment

Username: cprock17cprock17

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Hi! Christian here with scrupulosity. I try to remind myself that OCD wants 100% tangible proof, but Christianity is faith based. OCD hates that. It doesn’t understand Jesus and faith. It doesn’t understand the dedication and love that goes into that. We can be certain of our beliefs through the FAITH we have in JESUS and what HE says. Living by faith is very hard with ocd. I get that 💯 BUT remember that ocd doesn’t have to understand for us to believe and have faith! I even tell my ocd “My walk with God is faith based, and you don’t like that. That’s ok ocd. You don’t have to understand”. When we accept ocd isn’t going to agree with us, it gets easier.

Username: Betterdays_ontheway 🙂Betterdays_o...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Hi, it doesn’t matter which type of subtype you have or experience. OCD is still OCD. It will always demand 100% certainty over something. However, nothing is ever really 100%. If you read bottles of something it may say 99.9% because there’s always that percent of something turning out a different way. Just know that is not the way God has intended us to live. “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind.” 2 Timothy 1:7

Username: TmarsTmars

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Hey there, I myself struggle as a Christian and it can be such a challenging and threatening feeling. First and foremost, the Lord loves you and knows what you are dealing with. He knows you and knows the thoughts that plague us. That said, I strongly believe that he has blesses us with knowledge of treatment. That said, I myself was exactly where you are at with looking up solutions to faith problems, but it never quite answered all my questions, or even if it did, there was ALWAYS another level of doubt. THAT IS OCD. Not you. And God knows that. If I had to give you one huge suggestion, is to treat that reassurance seeking as a compulsion, which if you keep doing will only make you feel worse. Not looking into this does not make you a worse Christian and I know that I lt can feel like you are neglecting your duty as a Christian by not doing anything with this urge. But coming from this exact same situation, the only and best way is to pray that God can help you move forward just today, and try to just sit with the anxiety for some time- and try to focus on the things the Lord has put right in front of you to engage in (like the small day to day stuff). Praying for you!

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 1y ago

I did this for 10+ years. Read hundreds of books, googled everyday, went to classes on Greek, Hebrew, history of religion, I might know a lot of information but I am no closer to the 100% reassurance I was seeking than when I started. It’s good to want to learn, but our motivation is ocd anxiety. I can’t say I regret it all but we aren’t going to get the reassurance we seek.

Username: Ricky01Ricky01

Date posted: 1y ago

@Malisimo Exactly where I’m at:( it’s interesting to some extent but it’s not even a genuine intellectual journey but rather a need to find something absolute

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 1y ago

@Ricky01 Yup exactly! Be glad you realized it early. I knew I had ocd for years but thought oh this is me just being intellectual or philosophical. In reality it was fueled by anxiety and an inability to live my life with doubt. I am glad to know I’m not the only one with this type of ocd.

Username: Ricky01Ricky01

Date posted: 1y ago

@Malisimo Can’t even lie it is incredibly comforting to know someone else has this subtype. I haven’t found anyone that’s experienced quite the same so it leads to that feeling of “this is very real and true so you must be the problem.” Thank you so much for your comments. Now I just gotta implement and decide to live my life the way I want to-not how OCD demands

Username: katiesexistence

Date posted: 5y ago

Hi everyone, I think I’ve struggled with OCD since I was a child but it’s seriously effecting my life now. I think I have what you would call Philosophical/ Existential OCD. I can’t stop questioning my reality, the truth of reality and the universe, enlightenment, Christianity, solipsism, god, myself, my own existence. It never ends. I don’t really know what to do anymore. I think I have Pure O, but I also compulsively google my questions and search through the answers for hours until I feel calm. The peace lasts all of 5 minutes and then I’m googling another question. It’s so stupid because I know the meaning of life isn’t found on the internet but I can’t handle it all on my own in my head.

Username: Kirsten2

Date posted: 4y ago

Hi everyone, I’ve been struggling lately with something I never have before- doubting my Christian Faith. I’ve struggled with religious OCD for a while now so I guess it makes sense that this would eventually happen, but it’s still super difficult. I spent the past couple of days constantly google searching evidence for God, Jesus being God, why the Bible is true, etc., but every time I find something that makes me feel better, I keep looking and find someone who doesn’t believe in God arguing against the point that was made. I talked with my therapist today and I’m working on cutting down the compulsive googling, however I’m struggling with the thoughts still being stuck in my head that say I don’t actually believe in God and that it’s just something I’m telling myself. I’m mostly scared that if I don’t keep on reminding myself why I believe in God, I will eventually stop believing. If anyone is currently struggling with this or has overcome it and has any advice or stories of hope, I would greatly appreciate it.

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Username: Andrewspriggs

Date posted: 4y ago

I've struggled with anxiety, depression, and insomnia since I was a young teen and am currently struggling with what seems like scrupulosity (for the past few months I've been fighting with thoughts and feelings that I'm not saved or not good enough to be a Christian and it keeps me up all night half the time). I desperately want help but I'm afraid that I'm just seeking a diagnosis to blame my shortcomings on something other than myself or that going to a therapist would prove that I can't trust in God and go to him first. And the truth is I truly haven't been a good christian and there are many sins I still haven't totally faced and overcome yet and I'm not sure if I ever will be able to. I just don't know how I KNOW if I'm really the problem or if it is OCD. And I'm not looking for reassurance but maybe I am? I just don't know... if it is OCD it also feels like my "obsessions" are constantly morphing and changing and I can't keep up with them. Like I'll go from having existential thoughts to questioning my belief in God to feeling like I'm gonna turn into a creep or lose my mind or turn evil in some way. I'm just so exhausted and need help. I want to be able to turn to Jesus for help but I don't always know how to... I have faith that things will eventually turn out OK but then as soon as a feel secure in that the anxiety and doubt comes back. And even as I'm typing this I'm having thoughts like "its not that bad you just need to toughen up and be patient" and I know that's true but I just feel so alone and like I can't talk to anyone about this and if I do it'll all prove to be true. And as I write this I wonder if I made up all of these thoughts and feelings because I read online and on here about OCD and I'm trying to fit myself into it as an excuse to avoid my real problems... which might just be perfectly true but even if it is I don't know how to fix those problems??? I just want to get out of this loop and be a better person. I don't know if posting this will help. Maybe its even a compulsion in itself. I just want to understand... how do I know if its OCD or if I'm being convicted? Or both?

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