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Tired of caring?
Anyone here get tired of feeling hyper responsible and having to care about everything?
Anyone here get tired of feeling hyper responsible and having to care about everything?
for sure. my ocd got so intrusive that i started to resent love ones around me for doing normal things because they were triggers for me. rn i’m in recovery after spending 3 years locked in my room tortured by my thoughts, and now that my ocd has subsided, I just don’t have motivation to use my brain much. Fatigue from the obsessive stress of OCD can be rlly damaging. OCD truly causes trauma and therefore creates trauma responses.
Everything triggers me and it sucks. I am my dad's caregiver now and that sucks because my harm OCD has always been about my parents. So I am dealing with the resentment thing big time and often I feel trapped with only one way out.
@JamesMY I really empathize with what your going thru and understand how suffocating and complicated ocd can be. knowing these thoughts are due to ocd is a huge first step, though! i know it can seem inescapable and suffocating, but ocd is very treatable. Please look into DBT and CBT methods online. Here are some links that can hopefully help. https://psychcentral.com/ocd/ocd-cycle https://www.therapistaid.com/therapy-guide/ocd-treatment-overview/cbt/adults
yep!
I get angry at getting up and having to worry about other people's problems .
@JamesMY - Yes, I get angry at how ocd makes us feel responsible for every single thing, and I even feel bad saying that now because my ocd is saying I am responsible
@peachtea_ - Well I just feel like I have to worry about everything and be on alert. I don't feel like I have any feelings I just worry.
@JamesMY - yeah i get this too, it's the worst feeling inside- you are not alone :)
i'm so so sorry to hear this is something you are going though:( it sounds really tricky but you are not alone in this fight <3 there is a discord server that's designed for ocd support! i've been apart of it for about 4 months now & absolutely love the community. here's the link if you are interested in joining:) sending love & support your way! stay strong my friend! https://discord.gg/mQxyBmGwhU
My husband suffers from SEVERE ADHD and he claims that he “forgets” whenever I ask him to do something like clean up after himself or pick up his clothes off the floor. But it’s everyday now and we’ve been together for a year going on 2. We also have a 5 month old and I feel like I’m going crazy worrying about my mental health and taking care of the baby AND still having to come home and worry about him. At this point I’m done telling him anything as he sees anything I say as me “attacking” him rather than me just telling him why I’m upset and that this is now affecting my happiness in this relationship. I no longer feel close or want closeness. I’ve also mentioned this to him and he doesn’t take me seriously. “All this, only because I don’t pick up after myself.” I get stressed very easily over the smallest things. I don’t know if I’m at fault and need to seek help for getting mad over small things or if he’s just not mature enough to own up and be responsible for himself(he’s younger than me). Am I overreacting? I’m just a very clean person and can’t stand that he’s a “I’ll clean it later” type of person and forgets. I just don’t feel I’m getting the support of a mature spouse. I want to lean on him and feel like I can’t do that. Like I have to everything myself. Does anyone else feel like this? PLEASE HELP. I’m reaching my limit and feel like I need to break things off.
I just feel like therapy isn’t working… like I get to talk about myself and understand myself… but I’m already incredibly self aware. My therapist thought I was like 5 years older than I am… and she gives me such basic strategies that do absolutely nothing for me. And a psychiatrist prescribed me with Zoloft… but I don’t know if T want to take medication. I’m scared of side effects… and I’m scared of getting better… I’m scared of letting my guard down. I know it will make me less cautious which makes me less likely to push myself to perfection like I currently do, which I can’t have happen. Every time I talk to my mom about it, she’s always like “Let’s talk about this some other time, I’m busy with other things”, and then never remembers. But in the rare moments we do talk about it, she treats it like I’m signing up to be a drug addict. I also feel very guilty for spending so much of my parents’ money- therapy… medication… etc… and also the idea of my being unlovable is so deeply engraved in my brain… I genuinely, truly believe it. No therapy or medication can fix it. I can’t change my mind. My therapist tells me my misophonia is not a “deal-breaker” and that someone would be lucky to have me as a partner… but then why hasn’t anyone ever liked me? My own FAMILY can’t stand me. How do I believe something I know isn’t true? That’s even harder to accept than me being unlovable. I can’t see someone loving me. And it is so incredibly exhausting to seek love,e I know I cannot have. My sister says, “It will get better with age…” It has only ever gotten worse. To the point I don’t want to get better. It has reached the severity where I feel more safe and successful with anxiety. My past 3 birthdays have been me wishing for therapy. And now I have therpay- and medication, the potential key… and I refuse? Am I too deep in? I cant get out, it’s too late. How did absolutely no one notice how much I had and have been hurting? Why did no one listen to my cries or worries? I feel really depressed and hopeless right now. It takes so much effort to get up every day… I’m so tired.
I feel like if I spend time with anyone im always failing everyone else. A lot of people depend on me and want my time. I feel like I can't be enough and it makes me feel like I deserve to be alone. Does anyone ever feel like this?
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