All I want to do is stay in bed. Lock myself up. Read. Watch TV. And that’s it. I have major depressive disorder along with OCD and PTSD so I guess this is the depression part of my world. It sucks because on days the OCD isn’t too terrible, the depression or trauma is. I feel like I never get a break. I need a vacation from my disorders! Just feeling a little down tonight - anyone feel like chatting?
The brain mind is a weird place. I'll chat. What are you watching on TV or reading at the moment?
@Invalid The mind can be the worst…. Currently watching Love, Actually so nothing super interesting there. But I’m reading two fascinating books: One called Book Queens about the middle eastern horsewomen who fought the war on terror (non fiction), and Martha Gellhorn’s memoir Travels With Myself and Another. She’s a fascinating character. Had a 60 year career and was basically the first female war correspondent. I have a podcast that I’m reviving and will be using these stories as inspiration. What are you reading or watching right now?
@emilytravelswild Love actually is a classic. It's a guilty pleasure of mine 😣 the books sound interesting, I've recently tried to get into reading but my attention span is so flighty 😬 Whats the podcast going to be about? Will you have a theme or just do whatever you feel like in the moment? I'll have to give it a listen
@Invalid It really is a guilty pleasure! I started my podcast 2 years ago and based it off an interview series I had on Instagram called Female Firesides where I shared the stories of female entrepreneurs. Well, enter the OCD flare up this year and I just couldn’t keep up with the interviews. So I’m going to be sharing stories from inspiring people based on what I’m reading at the moment and only interview maybe once or twice every few months. I’ll be talking a lot about my OCD diagnosis, especially in the beginning. It feels like the resurrection of this podcast is an analogy for my resurrection from OCD so I’m really excited to start it up again. Would love it if you gave it a listen! I’ll be dropping my “announcement” episode this week and my first official one will be Dec 8. Would love to know your thoughts!
@emilytravelswild Yeh I'll definitely listen.
As for TV, just lots of Netflix stuff. I want to watch stuts and the fundamentals of caring next
@Invalid I’ve been on a Hulu kick lately so haven’t paid much attention to Netflix but have heard good things about the fundamentals of caring! I hear you about reading though, it took me a while to find my groove. Always happy to recommend something if you need a good recommendation!
@emilytravelswild I would love a recommendation. Genuinely want to get into reading so I'm not staring at blue lights before bed. May help me sleep better. I've been thinking about writing a book too recently and I don't even read so it's an issue 😬😅
@Invalid That’s amazing you want to write a book! I would love to do the same. What will it be about? As for a recommendation, how do you feel about audiobooks? Green Lights by Matthew McConaughey is SO GOOD, and I was shocked at how much I liked it. I think it’s better on audio because he narrates it and is so engaging, but it’s good either way.
I've heard Matthew talk about some stuff and he's a really deep thinker. I like him. I will have to give that a go. My book will be a fantasy story based on my life and my ocd recovery. Kind of pans labyrinth / life of pi vibes.
@Invalid If you like him I think you’ll love his book. Let me know what you think if you read it! Your book idea sounds really interesting! Love that you want to share your story. I think it’s so important to talk about things we go through. It’s so helpful to others, but also healing for us at the same time. Have you started writing it yet or in the planning stages right now?
@emilytravelswild I'm fleshing it out and the characters. Got a huge white board I can use to help me plan it. I want a lot of imagery in it to help people understand what ocd feels like
@Invalid That’s so amazing! You’ll have to keep me posted. You’ve inspired me to start planning what I want to write. I have so many ideas lol
Lmk if you still are needing someone to talk to. I'm bored.
@halex43 I’m still around if you want to chat!
@emilytravelswild Sorry I've never seen love actually but I have been listening a lot to this podcast called "normal gossip" it's really fun. They start each episode talking about the function of gossip and what it means. Then they get into real gossip story that is a friend of a friend or whatever and it's usually really entertaining . As for TV I am actually watching I just watched all of blue eye samurai on Netflix. It was really good.
@halex43 Oh that podcast sounds fun! I’ve been listening to National Park After Dark and it’s been wild! They share all these crazy stories about things that happen at National parks. It sounds like I need to revisit Netflix, thanks for the recommendation! I need a new series to watch
@emilytravelswild Oh wow that sounds like a really good podcast. Thanks
@halex43 It is! I’ve been binging it for the past few weeks. Let me know what you think of it if you listen!
@emilytravelswild I thought this was going to be a lot more light hearted and not about people dying haha definitely interesting but I can't handle this stuff anymore without my brain going to dark places.
Unable to chat but want to share that there are places that can help with the combination of challenges you have. Rogers Behavioral is one of- it saved my life.
@Erin P Thanks for sharing! I’ve actually talked about finding a place like this so I’ll check it out. Thanks again
@emilytravelswild Rogers has part and full day programs in a number of states. I’ve been in their Bay Area programs and in their residential program in Wisconsin.
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I’ve been trying my best with ERP and just everything that’s going on. I have severe OCD, GAD, PMDD, panic disorder, recently diagnosed ADHD, and currently experiencing a major depressive episode. Apparently. I was taking a break from this app but I really need support right now. My family is honestly really mean and not understanding of what I’m going through. Right now it’s gotten bad to the point I had to withdrawal from my last semester of university. My only support is my boyfriend and he’s now planning to join the military. I won’t be able to talk to him for 3 months and I feel really scared of being alone with all of this. I know I shouldn’t depend on him to begin with but right now I’m at an extremely low point and I feel like I won’t make it alone. There hasn’t been a single day we haven’t texted and talked in 4 years. I feel really scared, but I don’t want to hold him back. You guys, I feel so sad and terrified right now. I don’t want him to go, he’s all I have.
Hi I kept seeing this app on repeat on TikTok over and over and I thought I give it a shot. I have never been diagnosed with OCD but I know that I have it. I’m a young adult and I found out the first time I had OCD was watching lelelons truth video? I was 14 at the time She had to resist sitting back down in a chair after her having sat down she started having a mental break down when she was told to resist. That’s when I knew. It started with myself going up and down a staircase twice buckling unbuckling my seat belt everytime I’m in the car ect I have always been super anti social but trying my best I can socialize but my mind wants to make it sexual with family and friends ughhhh I hate it because that’s not me when I graduated thoughts of hurting my loved ones corrupted my mind I broke down outside of church one time asking if this was really me or not i question if I’m a good enough friend or person in this world to begin with thinking everyone is judging me so so close how can I make this situation better did I do something wrong I struggle with depression as well not to bad but it’s there I come from a loving family but broken as well i believe in god and my OCD makes me go often he’s not real that stuff isn’t real no one is there to save you the list goes on. Anyway I struggle a lot and I really hope that this will help me because I feel extremely hopeless. Lucky for me I do have the ability to seek therapy and I am excited. The only person I ever tell my thoughts to is God no other human has heard so I’m really really hoping this helps me out if your reading this thank you it means a lot because this is my first time ever admitting all this it’s a lot to take in I know and I hope you are ok and that you have a great night and know that we got this
I’m feeling kind of sad cause today was not a really good day in terms of my ocd. I was feeling kind of foggy/numb and that send me to spiraling. I’m 21 years old currently studying but my family has been having trouble with money for the last couple years(we’re just me and my mom) and I kinda want to get a job but everything is far from my home and I wouldn’t be able to return back at night, also it’s either way more expensive to move or the schedule wouldn’t let me take my classes. The point is that because of that every time my mom is stress tends to treat me bad, she speaks to me like I’m stupid or she just screams to nothing cursing all life and everything and that actually makes me feel soo bad and guilty for not doing anything, I know it’s hard for me to get a job that actually helps us without quitting school but that doesn’t stop me from feeling like I’m a burden. I want to help, I want to maybe hug her or something but I know she will be angrier and probably will reject it. So that’s it, I just feel like she punishes me for the stress she’s carrying and I get it but one day is happy and it feels like all love and the next is treating me like that, Idk it’s hard (also I feel like I shouldn’t be saying this cause it’s all my fault) 🫤
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