QueenE1998

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

Forcing thoughts?

September I had the worst intrusive thought , and I haven’t been right since. I haven’t been able to be around my daughter , avoid her, situations and everything . I was told I had OCD and my depression went away and I am much better than I was but now it’s like I’m waiting for thoughts? Like I’m forcing them? I’m good and then I’m like what if I have a thought? And a thought comes ? It’s very weird. I don’t even know smh.

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

That sounds like a compulsion. You’re checking to see if the thought is still there. I do this too. It sucks!

QueenE1998

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Catlove9 Yes! Then I find myself like omg you have to figure out why this is going on, are they true? Knowing it’s not because come on now, deep down you know the whole time it isn’t but the thoughts feel so weird .

QueenE1998

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@QueenE1998 Real *

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@QueenE1998 It does feel weird. I do go through this. The “forcing” then really resonated with me. And it feels like you just can’t stop them and then they get more aggressive

QueenE1998

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Catlove9 Yes smh!!!!! It’s annoying very annoying are you recovering too ? Or just started

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@QueenE1998 I would say I’m in delayed recovery LOL. I’m 36 and have had OCD a long time but I’ve really struggled with treatment but I’m not giving up. My compulsions are mainly mental and I have such a hard time stopping and then when I get some progress, OCD sends some new scary material that hooks me back in. But I’m getting better.

QueenE1998

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Catlove9 How long have you been struggling? I never got as bad as I did in September . Seriously!!! I was able to manage the others, but not this one .

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@QueenE1998 I would say off and on for 30 years. I was always able to manage for the most part. And then around 5 years ago, harm ocd started for me and it’s been a period of ups and downs. I’m in probably the hardest spot I’ve been in right now.

QueenE1998

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Catlove9 What coping skills do you use ? It’s been since September for me , I have ups and downs as well ugh

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@QueenE1998 I feel like anything I use is a compulsion and just making it worse 😭. What im trying to do now is just accept that I have these thoughts and I really try not to ruminate. Way easier said than done. I also sometimes try leaning into the thoughts and saying “yah okay. Maybe this is true. I’ll have to take the risk.” It’s super scary.

QueenE1998

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Catlove9 I feel like saying that makes it worse, I just don’t respond to the thought, I acknowledge them , and then continue what I am doing without responding and even with the anxiety , no matter how hard it is I continue what I was doing ,I focus on the present moment too and when and if I find myself ruminating I try to get back into the present moment . I just know thoughts are thoughts , they mean nothing

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@QueenE1998 You can do this even when it feels so real? How? I would love any help.

QueenE1998

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Catlove9 Because, you know DEEEEEP down who you are, you know! It’s your mind playing tricks on you. It’s hard to accept the uncertainty , but sometimes you have to let stuff be, sit with the anxiety. It won’t hurt you, it’s an emotion like everything else. Continue doing what you are doing

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@QueenE1998 Okay. Thank you! I get harm ocd urges and they are the worst. It makes me feel like I’m not even me anymore.

QueenE1998

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

@Catlove9 Trust me I know! Been there, but as hard as it is , no response has been working for me. For sure.

Catlove9

Date posted: 1y

@QueenE1998 Thank you so much for taking the time to help! I really appreciate it.

FaithSheagren

Date posted: 25w

Intrusive thoughts about intrusive thoughts

Hi everyone. I’ve been doing therapy for about two months now and I would say it’s slowly helping me a lot. I explained to her the breathing techniques and “sitting in the anxiety for a bit” and I feel like those are helping. But then my therapist said “don’t sit in the thought because then you might act on it”. I don’t “sit in the thought” but rather i sit in the anxiety to comdition my brain into thinking it’s not a threat. But ever since yesterday, my therapy appointment, I’ve been really shooken up. Even though I don’t “sit in the thought” I feel like a bad person that she even had to bring it up even though I explained it wrong. I’m so upset I feel like I just took 3000 steps back from my progress and this little thing is really scaring me. Am I a bad person? I don’t want to act on any of my thoughts and it scares me so bad I hate living.

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts

I’ve had many types of OCD, but I gained control over them over the years, but a new one has started to arise. Do y’all ever have scary thoughts about something you might do? Recently I’ll get extremely uncomfortable no matter where I am because I can’t stop thinking about “what if I screamed really loud in my lecture class tomorrow?” And other stupid stuff like that. Also, this one is kind of funny, but sometimes when I use the bathroom I pause before because I think “what if I’m actually in class right now?” I also cannot control the thoughts about past embarrassing moments. I know everyone does, but I will become visibly uncomfortable and harp on something from years ago. This happens all throughout the day. Also, does anyone else do things that resemble tics when you get these thoughts. Like when they happen I’ll curse under my breath or like jerk my head a little bit. When I’m in public I keep it low key but when I’m alone sometimes I’ll physically get up and pace or something when those thoughts happen. Just curious if anyone has had these experiences

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 21w

Help

I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.

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