I don’t want this to sound like reassurance, I’m just not sure. I’m pretty new to this and not officially diagnosed yet. But please can I ask- I am constantly thinking about this everyday, from the minute I wake up until I go to sleep. It used to ease off but not so much anymore. It’s not so much the original rOCD thoughts anymore (although they’re still there, I’m struggling to find them, I’m just feeling more lost and sad) but I’m constantly questioning is this OCD, or ‘I don’t have that symptom so it can’t be’ or ‘these therapists just want your money, there is no such this as rOCD’. I’m feeling sort of sad really- and my brain is telling me it’s my relationship but there’s nothing wrong with my relationship. Is it normal to be thinking like this, all day every day- is that obsessing? (I know this sounds like a silly question but my brain is playing all sorts of games with me at the moment!)

Going through the same thing right now. Not diagnosed yet but had the same thoughts after my last anxiety attack. The “episode” was so bad I broke down at work and it didn’t stop crying until well after midnight. My parents noticed and made me an appointment with a therapist the next day. I too am worried they are just out to get my money. My appointment is next week and I’m still scared to even go. But a lot of people have told me that this is the first and biggest step. Recognizing that something is wrong and seeking help. According to what others have told me, the whole therapist thing takes time. You might not click with the first therapist you see and might have to see a few before one feels right and can help your specific needs. This of course seems like a daunting task but I’m ready to do it and you should too. I’m sure it’s not normal to think these things everyday. But I don’t know either. Hope we both find a way to a better day free of the thoughts. Hang in there, get help and don’t give up.

I think a lot of us go through this, I definitely do some days. It’s because OCD fills us with doubt and we start to doubt everything. It also lowers our self worth due to being so down and depressed about our symptoms that we start doubting whether we are just bad people and not really ill.

My rOCD hasn't been diagnosed yet too. I'd rather not go to a therapist, because 1. So much money 2. Many therapists in my city don't know about rOCD, and I fear being told that it's a lie 3. ERP is helping me so much. I know that this could be very very stupid, and I should go to therapy and under diagnose because you cannot ever be sure, but, since I've discovered the whole thing, I feel like I'm recovering. I'm so happy right now, I've made giant steps

Yes I have all the same worries @damosuzuki- I’m waiting to get to therapy myself though. I find ERP really tough as I’m not sure what I’m fearful of. @gavsherry i do understand it all, it makes sense, I’ve read so much and watched all the videos but I’m not finding it as helpful as I did a month ago.

Thank you! I think I’m just hoping for a miracle cure or answer that’s not going to come.

So (non-professionally of course) do you think this sort of feeling of nothingness, sadness, irritation hanging over me is a symptom of OCD? Thank you replying too.

Knowledge of this awful condition is power over it