Username: kkddel

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

sad and disappointed

i just switched therapists and today was my first session with my new therapist. while on the call i had a panic attack and ended up hanging up the call cause i couldn’t calm down. i’m extremely sad about how the therapist is treating the situation. i voiced what was going on when the panic attack started. i later messaged her apologizing and explaining that my panic attacks cause a rush of compulsions that i HAVE to submit to rapidly. she’s suggesting i “wait until after the new year” to continue therapy. i don’t understand that because i so clearly need the help now, i can barely function. i’m not sure what to do in this situation and im so sad and hurt. i need help and im literally crying over how disappointing it is to be brushed off by the person who i need help from.

Username: FoolishMortal1000FoolishMorta...

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm so sorry that you're feeling invalidated and abandoned by your therapist, that must feel so isolating :( this might be your cue to meet with a new provider that is more understanding. As far as the panic goes, I completely relate. When I have a panic attack, it's almost like I'm no longer in the driver's seat and my compulsions become automatic. Some advice I can offer is that when it is this early on and your OCD at this level, attempting to stop compulsions altogether is a pretty unreasonable expectation. Instead, try delaying the compulsion by a few minutes, or 1 minute, hell even 20 seconds if that's all you can manage. This will help you to get a crowbar in-between you and your rapid compulsions and start separating you from them. It might sound silly, it might sound impossible, but I encourage youto give it a try. You can do hard things. Wishing you the best ❤

Username: kkddel kkddel

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@aquamarinoo thank you for this 🩷 it’s hard admitting i need help especially having such a misunderstood disorder and phobia, so being brushed off hurt so bad

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

I'm sorry you feel this way. If you want to talk/vent to someone, I'm open to. :) I'm left feeling unfulfilled by the actions of those around me too

Username: kkddel kkddel

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Anonymous thank you 🩷🩷 i appreciate knowing im not alone and you and anyone else are always welcome to reach out even if it’s just to talk

Username: scotty2hottyscotty2hotty

Date posted: 1y ago

Ok KKDDEL. Real quick I'll share my story because It will help. I used to have panic attacks all the time to the point one time I left work in an ambulance and they said Mt blood pressure was on stroke level and wanted to keep me in rehab hospital. I decided no, this was my anxiety, I did this to myself, signed a waiver and walked right our after being there only maybe an hr. My point is, I was so confident I KNEW it was just anxiety and I was right! That's was 15 years ago and I haven't had any health issues so time proved me right. Remember, it ALL in your head! The thoughts are gonna be there. Your brain will send you fear signal however you 100 PERCENT have the power to deny all that and YOU choose how you react to it all. Stay strong.

Username: kkddel kkddel

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@scotty2hotty i needed to hear this so bad, thank you genuinely. i have emetophobia and i convince myself im going to vomit and a massive panic attack ensues to the point i shake so hard i nearly shatter my teeth. it feels impossible to decipher between anxiety and real sickness because the feelings feel so real.

Username: scotty2hottyscotty2hotty

Date posted: 1y ago

@kkddel I totally get it. I remember I used to always work myself up into thinking I was gonna die. One time my anxiety was so bad, I lived alone and it was like 5am and I knocked on my neighbors door and just passed out from the anxiety! I want you to know, I have NOT had an anxiety attack at all in about 10 years! The last 1 I can remember was like 2015 maybe and it was super minor. My last major one was like 2011. I just decided 1 day, I am doing this to myself and enough is enough and I'm not doing it to myself anymore...and I never have. So there is hope!

Username: StayGold StayGold

Date posted: 1y ago

@scotty2hotty Thank you for sharing your story and the hope it includes. I’m at the”enough is enough” phase but still doing it (compulsions, panic) so this is motivating!

Username: scotty2hottyscotty2hotty

Date posted: 1y ago

@StayGold And everyone's enough is enough moment is different. You are having that feeling that you are ready to take that step to finally end the anxiety attacks but you haven't had that moment yet where it happens and that's ok because it will come. Keep fighting

Username: nate01nate01

Date posted: 1y ago

If it is a regular therapist they may not know how to treat ocd. You could try looking into exposure response prevention which is where if you are scared of something you expose yourself to the thing you fear. This could be religious or health based etc. I do recommend you find a licensed ocd therapist to help you

Username: kkddel kkddel

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@nate01 it was a NOCD therapist through this app.

Username: clarpioclarpio

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m so sorry you experienced this! :( It sounds like that therapist is not a good fit. Thankfully not all therapists are like that, though I’ve also experienced similar. Feelings aren’t facts, but feelings ARE 100% valid and real, and I’m sorry this therapist tried to invalidate them. I’m familiar with that terror you feel and the need to do compulsions immediately. It’s not easy and some people don’t get that. Sending you so much love. ❤️ You got this.

Username: Dogboy

Date posted: 5y ago

Hey all. I've been dealing with my OCD for about 2 1/2 years and treatment had been going well. Lots of ups and downs, but I had things under control. Well yesterday I had the worst relapse of my life. It feels like I'm back to square one and my obession switched. I called my therapist but she doesn't have office hours during the weekend. Soonest I'll hear anything is Monday. I'm really scared and lost right now.

Username: Cats in the ...

Date posted: 2y ago

So i was on a wait list for therapy and finally i have someone that can help me. I received a message from a therapist and i lost my shit. I started panicking and my brain is making up all sorts of terrible scenarios. For exemple, i have suicidal ocd and im terrified to potentially be suicidal. Welll my brain is telling me that the therapist will know that im suicidal and will make me go to the hospital. It makes me want to never get help because of all the scenarios. I dont know if its ocd. I want to cry, im so scared

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

therapist leaving

i’ve been with the same therapist for about a year and half now and we’ve built such a close relationship and she knows everything about me. she said shes leaving NOCD in a few weeks and i don’t know what to do. i can either stop therapy or get a new therapist. neither of those options sound good to me. she knows everything and i don’t feel like talking to anyone new but i’m so upset that i can’t have her anymore. what do you guys recommend doing in this scenario. i’m so heartbroken and really don’t wanna talk to anyone else (especially cause i hate change!) pls help

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