Please help

@Anonymous To keep it short I suffer from POCD, suicidal thoughts and harm OCD I have two questions before I lose my mind: 1: with POCD and Harm OCD is it normal for literally everything to trigger your anxiety? I feel like I constantly live in disgust because I’m worried that the second I see a person that triggers me I do 2: with harm OCD - I never have wanted to hurt another soul - I’ve dealt with issues in the past but it never stuck with me like this and sometimes it really gets to me. Are urges normal? Like I feel the urge to wanna hurt someone or a specific person but deep down know I don’t want to do that.

@Anonymous I suffer with POCD. I will only feel triggered in certain situations when I am around little kids and my own from time to time. Your mind will make you doubt yourself no matter what. I can be doing something knowing what I’m doing and a thought comes up and then I start to doubt myself and judge my character when in reality it’s just OCD. It’ll take on what you admire and care for most. Helpful tip: When we don’t engage with intrusive thoughts, we don’t give them power. Types on non-engagement include: mindfulness (“I’m having a thought, I feel anxious, I can notice this and not do anything about it.”), uncertainty (“I can’t be sure what the thought means, but I can tolerate that uncertainty), ACT (I’ll continue with what I’m doing regardless of what thoughts are happening in my brain”). This is come insight that my therapist from NOCD gave me. It helps and let’s me move on with life. It’s very scary when you feel like you’re the only one alive that has this condition but a few months back I was feeling like complete shit everyday and now I might have 2/3 bad days out of the week. Give yourself time to understand your condition and try to live your life. It’s very hard for someone to understand that doesn’t have these problems and intrusive thoughts. The more we ruminate and think about them the worse it gets. It’s very hard to not engage in compulsions and negative behavior but you just have to let OCD know it can “come along for the ride to recovery”. I wish you well. Going through this for myself has been very tough and I can only talk to certain people but hopefully this helps you and know there is always help and hope into our conditions.

@Anonymous Ditto! Well said… there is real hope!!