I need help. Desperately.

@AyseTetik Felt! For me it’s a mix of hypersexuality and taking everything personally as a trauma response. I see a lot of discourse in my walking life, and there’s a lot of biphobia in the lesbian community and because I feel bad for bi ppl now seeing that the community sees bisexuality as a bad thing, I’m like “you only feel bad because your secretly bi and you know it. You have internalized biphobia and you are just repressing it bc you care too much about what others think” and idk. It’s just all a blur now.

@Anonymous1234567891011 Like a year

@Anonymous1234567891011 Thank you so much. I just feel so trapped. I’m currently breaking down because I feel like I’m not a lesbian anymore. Idk

@Anonymous1234567891011 Did you ever have a moment where you’d see something homophobic and because you’re an ally, your ocd tried to use that as a reason to fuel the belief that you’re not straight? Because that happens to me frequently. I see a lot of biphobia in the lesbian community and I feel bad for bi women being hated for simply being bi and that makes me feel like “oh you must be bi then bc you take offense to what you see about bisexuals”

@Anonymous1234567891011 That’s such a relief to hear omg. It’s just… ugh. Thank you for sharing your experiences with me. It really helps.

@Vee <3 Hey! I have soocd too as a straight girl. It’s crazy how I’m afraid of what you enjoy, and you’re afraid of what I enjoy. Even though we both know that if you were really into it, you’d be happy. You’re not alone! X.

@AyseTetik Thank u so much!! <3 Would you like to talk more about it?

@AyseTetik Yes. Like I know for a fact that I’m not attracted to men but I get this constant fear that some day I might be or I’ll find a guy who will change that. And I detest it so much. 😭

@AyseTetik U GET IT OMG. I think one thing that would help you is like… I always tell myself that the difference between denial and the ocd is the fact that even being OPEN to the IDEA of denial isn’t truly denial. If your ocd is telling you that you’re in denial and you feel like “maybe I am” and THAT gives you anxiety in and of itself, then it’s not real denial because ppl in denial wouldn’t even be open to the idea that they’re in denial.

@AyseTetik Exactly! Do you also get false attraction or groinal response? Because that’s one thing that kicks my ocd out of the box.

@Vee <3 Definitely! Been experiencing it recently. And loss of attraction too! Messes with me! X

@AyseTetik It’s the absolute worst. Especially now, around the holidays. It should be a happy time yet we are instead plagued with this disorder. I do wish you gentler thoughts and at least SOME kind of relief <3

@AyseTetik And the way OCD came back stronger and is now telling me I’m just bi with internalized biphobia……………….. like………….. CAN I JUST LIVE😭

@Vee <3 I get you!! Stay strong honestly! You know yourself better than anyone and anything! How was your Christmas? Xx

@AyseTetik It was alright! How was yours?

@Vee <3 It was good! Xx