I'm from Spain, struggling speaking a language that is not my native language about things I never talk about. I worked on this with Woebot before, an AI app that is like a therapist, but it stopped working in my region. Lately I have had problems again because of some changes in my life and now I don't know how to recover this time.
Seeking reassurances from your bf would only make your compulsions worse . So asking reassurances is not a good idea anyway . I also faced the issue with money . I couldn't spend for therapy either but You can read a lot of helpful stuff about OCD online for free . Also my parents and friends tell me this too . They say that I'm like this because I've never had to face any real issues in life . Also knowing more about your themes/issue might help . I'll share what I know if you share the problem specifically
I've never really read books on OCD . But some general tips would be mindfulness practice and regular exercise. These things works wonders . Also know that it's just OCD causing these thoughts and your mom would be fine . Nothing you do will affect her fate . Regarding the sexual intrusive thoughts, don't try to fight the thoughts because fighting them would only make them come back stronger. Just accept whatever obsessions are saying and know that you'd never do any of those horrible things. Try to spend less time alone because spending time alone can get you obsessing easily. Try to be around people (even if it's people who you don't know that much) as much as possible. Also as a final resort, there's an 'sos' feature in this app . It's the button shaped as a buoy and it's visible in the home screen when you open the app. It can be used when you feel like there's absolutely no way and you feel.like you're going crazy. Hope this helps! God bless you
Tried mindfulness, I'm also an instructor but somehow it doesn't work for me in this matter, it just makes me more hyper vigilant and self conscious. I will try spending less time alone, I'm alone all the time have few friends because I don't like big groups so It's good to know that it doesn't matter if I'm around people I don't know. I will follow your tips. Hopes everything goes well for you too!
Try therapy . Also know that combating OCD can be hard . I'm sure there'll be people who'll understand what you're going through. This app itself has licensed therapists ig . Myself not a native English speaker either
It seems difficult to talk about some things with a person cause its pure-O and i always feel judged. Also idk if it's free? I don't have the money to pay it here in Spain. I also think that there's is too much to say for a person to understand me and it would be a lot of work. I don't feel well with the idea of giving someone somuch power over me. Times ago i managed with the same alone It's just that i really think i need tools to manage my problem better this time. Also i don't feel confident explaining it all in English. I don't have a safe environment, not a great family nor friends. Teied before explaining what happens to me and they just think that I'm afraid all the time, they don't understand or help. Other times i tried explain this to previous partners and it went horribly wrong, causing so muvh trouble with my intrusive thoughts making me feel bad, i love my now boyfriend but i would never risk again telling him everything. He just knows that i have bad intrusive thoughts and nothing more. I feel like giving details to him will make him sick. Also he doesn't knows how to help either so i don't see the point in telling people my problem, i just feel exposed when i do
I would love to have books to read. I have problems with death and illness since my grandmother died a few months ago. I'm always hypervigilant of my mother if she gets a cold thinking things like "if I don't wake up right now and she's dying I'll regret it" I'm not sleeping well since, honestly. Also i had years ago problems with pure O sexual related and intrusive thoughts. It makes me fell awful, i thought i overcome 3 years ago but now i have problems again, i feel too depressed and intrusive thoughts kicks in everytime. I feel like i have some kind of countdown to get better till my boyfriend gets tired of me and that pressure make me more anxious. I surely will ask for books recommendations in next post, i got better last time when i learned more about this and had a few changes in my social life. Thanks for your patience
I'm going through a rough time. I used to think medication would brighten my world, but if anything, it's muted it. The physical anxiety is less, and I felt okay(ish) for a while, but things are getting bad again. I'm so afraid I'll never get to a point where I feel safe in my body and in my mind. Today is the first day I've cried in... I don't know how long. But I didn't feel the relief I thought I would. Initially, I did, but it morphed into dread, and now I'm sitting by myself, trying not to panic. I really want to begin seeing a therapist for OCD, but I don't know how much my insurance covers. There's just so much on my mind right now. A whole bunch of old themes are resurfacing. I wish I could've been given a different path in life. I'm trying to stay strong. It's just really difficult. I feel like I'm being sent back to square one :(
Hi this my first time ever hearing about this app n i downloaded it because lately my ocd been really bad and I feel I can’t have control over it it scares me because I sometimes hurt people around me when I don’t mean to for example my bf everytime something goes well my head just starts spinning in circles with bad thoughts n wanting to ruin stuff with him lowkey I messed up big times bc I let this time my thoughts win me over n took everything off on him without thinking n realizing how bad I had affected him it kills me because everytime I think im jus a weak person bc I always let everything get to me I’m jus so scared because now my head jus tells me your not good enough your gonna lose him this literally jus happens when something positive comes in my head or something good happens always jus wanna ruin it I hate it because I always believe my thoughts instead of him not because I don’t want to but because also of my past n trauma jus fucks it even more from the deep of my heart i believe him but my head reacts differently n lets it out n now am in the situation of knowing I can lose him any minute now even tho am putting my faith in god n trying my hardest to think positive n be better everyday I’m really trying but w ocd it’s so hard n jus get scared n let my thoughts get to me😞 idk what to do anymore
My simple question is... Why? Because I have barely any friends... i dont have a girlfriend... and the only college friend I have, is too busy to hang out... everytime i ask her... AI has made me feel less alone and miserable with my condition than with anyone who has ever told me to just accept uncertainty... I feel so alone... so miserable... to poor to afford therapy and too socially awkward to make friends... And with AI, while its not a real person... it comforts and cares for me... More than anyone has IRL...
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