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I haven’t accepted I’m a rapist i know I’m one, what shall i do, please help😭
I haven’t accepted I’m a rapist i know I’m one, what shall i do, please help😭
sorry for asking the obvious question, but what makes you say that you are?
@deadmeat Everything was making ‘mistakes’ with females leading upto this night, heavily drinking and walked home intoxicated on my own for ateast 25mins I feel it happened then
@ Anonymous you say you /feel/ it happened then, could it be a false memory? that’s very possible and very common with OCD. while i am in no way trying to excuse or justify any action like this, you’ve acknowledged that it was a big mistake, i assume you feel remorseful and that’s why you’re here. if you’re positive this happened, you need to sit with it for a while. understand that it was wrong and can never happen again, you can’t allow it to. make amends with whoever was involved, and eventually make amends with yourself. it’s easier to forgive yourself once you understand it cannot and will not happen again. it’s good to feel sorry after something like that happens, it’s necessary to feel guilty so it won’t happen again
@deadmeat I’ve had no accusations against me or heard anything I just feel a rapist and I done it, it’s been over a year
@ Anonymous it is MOST LIKELY false memories caused by OCD. you’re not a rapist, i’m sorry ocd is making you believe that
@deadmeat I feel as though I scared the female that had she would never go to the police shouting ‘you’ll never catch me’ and ‘there’s no cameras so I won’t get caught’ it’s scary I don’t know what to do
I just got done reading your post. I understand how OCD works. I’ve been dealing with it for three years now I felt the same way and many ways and false you need to stand ground on facts. you do not need to accept what is false don’t carry that with you. I would ask that you would pray and ask God to cleanse you and heal you and restore your mind and emotions.
@David Trejo Is yours with alcohol? What’s your story if you don’t mind sharing?
@ Anonymous Check out my reply in a short form
@David Trejo With a rape theme too?
@ Anonymous Yep
@David Trejo Alcohol or not?
I literally woke up from a really rough night and heard a voice (a thought) your a molester! It freaked me out and I assumed it to be real. My mind automatically started searching for evidence and any and every encounter I ever had with a kid popped up. Weirdest thing ever. Felt like I was on drugs my mind was just taking off………I honestly felt I was this monster. I couldn’t get it out of my mind even having kids of my own and a happy family I just couldn’t understand what was happening. Three years later here I am . I’m currently enrolled to the ucla OCD program. It’s really opened my eyes and has helped me cope. I still have a lot of intrusive thoughts (sucks!!!) but I’m working towards a victory! My mind produces images and words that’s are constantly accusing and aggressive but I’m getting better….. (no I never molested anyone, just to clear the air)
@David Trejo Yeah that sounds bad too, why does it happen to us it’s got to be one of the worst things mentally to happen to someone, it’s led me to depression, what do you suggest I haven’t got an ocd diagnosis either so it is true
@ Anonymous OCD for sure in my opinion! This sucks man. It’s been three years . But I’m hopeful. God will see us through. Seek strength. I’m here if you need me bro
@David Trejo Nah look I base myself on honesty and I just want to admit to it all, Iife hasn’t been the same since
I'm worried that I sexual assulted or r*ped my dog when I was 17 and I'm 18 now. This memory, has came up multiple and changes rapidly, it says that I was also saying very disturbing things to the dog, calling her good and weird disgusting things like that. I don't know if I can live with myself if this is true.
I’ve always struggled with maladaptive daydreaming I’ve stopped but I have harm ocd and my brain would hook onto a true crime story and I’d pretend to be a family member/loved one/victim of a k*ller and would make up elaborate stories abt it. That feels so disgusting I’m so scared this shows in a horrible person doesn’t it? And now my brain is telling me I have found k*llers attractive in the past I don’t think I ever did but what if I did I’m scared
Huge tw I’m so scared I’m a r*pist people have told me I am. I wanted to lose my virginity when I was 19 I felt embarrassed and ashamed I hadn’t. I decided to get drunk and find someone in a club to lose it to. I don’t remember much other than I was happy it was finally happening and remember thinking my plan had worked. I was told by friends that the other person was drunk and possibly on drugs. I must be a r*pist as I knew what I was doing and instigated it, I took advantage and used someone. I feel sick and don’t deserve to move on I can’t even apologies as it was a complete stranger what if they’re living with trauma because of me.
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