I have a hard time adapting to change in the most insignificant things like perfumes accessories or colors when I do my nails. The few times I do I've gotten an urge to go right back to the old thing. Sometimes I can't even sleep because of so much debating in my head ?

Anyone get super anxious when change happens or making a big decision? (Tattoo specific question) Mine might be minor but I have anxiety about wanting a tattoo (or more) one day. I really like them and would like to get some, but it makes me nervous to do so for a couple of reasons. One is the opinion of my parents. Even though I’m 24, I still live at home (happily I might add) and they (especially my mom) don’t like them at all. I’ve made choices in the past that they didn’t agree with, like color my hair a bunch, but I think maybe because hair can be changed back and a tattoo really can’t that that part gets me? Two is how I’ll react to it. I normally like change but I don’t tend to react to it well which is an interesting predicament. For example I normally have brown hair but I went and got it silver blonde once because it was something I really wanted for awhile, but it was so different that I broke down crying thinking I made a mistake even though this was what I wanted! I got over it eventually and then I liked it! So I’m afraid that if I get a tattoo that it’ll hit me what I did, even if I do like it, and just break down again (so annoying honestly). I’m also indecisive about it, as in the type of image or words I want. I’ll have an idea and just sit on it for months at LEAST to make sure if it’s what I want and I end up changing my mind. Lately I had an idea I wanted for over a year and I still like it, but I’m still nervous I’ll change my mind again and regret it. I also am worried about changing my look so drastically. I see images of people with super cool tattoos on their arms and legs and whatnot and I’m in awe they look awesome! And I’d want some too! But then part of me feels like I’d be someone I’m not, even thought it’s been something I wanted for actual years, if that makes sense. Any thoughts or opinions on this? I feel like once the virus has lightened up and it’s safe to do more things it’d be cool to maybe get one on my birthday, starting off small, but I don’t know!

For a while now I’ve been having trouble with accepting things have changed. Ever since I started struggling with my OCD in 2021 I’ve been wanting to go back to the past. Many things have changed since that happened and I absolutely hate change. What I mean by change is old routines even if they aren’t my own, but also other peoples I was used to seeing, furniture being rearranged or thrown out so it doesn’t “look” the same etc. me myself has also changed. I’m always wishing I could go back in time and relive or wish things would go back to how they used to be or feel those certain feelings again. I always tell myself maybe if all this never changed my OCD wouldn’t have troubled me. Even though I know that’s totally not true. It’s getting annoying and I wanted to ask if any of you have any tips on how I can just accept things are NOT how they used to be and won’t stay the same forever. I just feel sorta stuck rn.

I don’t know what it is, but I have an odd trepidation of change. There is something about it. When I buy a new shirt, I fear something bad might happen if I wear it. When we moved to a new house, I didn’t like the change at all, for 5 months straight. When I used to rent cars, I would get emotional turning them in. Why does this happen?