Not doing great this morning

I see people living their lives and just enjoying themselves. Not taking things too seriously and not overly stressing. And then there’s me. Who stresses at the slightest thing. Whose OCD has taken massive chunks of my life that I’ll never get back. It feels like I’m going through life just terrified of my own f*cking shadow… Any small thing I have to deal with that to anyone else might just cause slight inconvenience or nervousness, causes me to have an almost complete and utter breakdown. WHY CANT I HANDLE LIFE. I am so ashamed of who I am. I want to be someone who is brave and courageous and who does things and lives life anyway, regardless of fear. But no. I avoid living because of it. Why am I even here if this is how my life is? What is the point? I’m going through it today, friends 😭

Username: Wolfram Wolfram

Date posted: 44w ago

Hey. We all love that morning cortisol but try not let it win. Instead of thinking "why me" maybe use. " Try me". Get up and do something. Maybe a chore, run a bath, go do a walk, eat something healthy. Just something small, and if you feel like you can do more do so. Give yourself a healthy dose of dopamine and drain that cortisol in a healthy way. You don't deserve to suffer and you know that. Hope your day gets better, even if it's a little

Username: NotSoNewb82NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 44w ago

@Wolfram Good answer.

Username: emilytravelswildemilytravels...

Date posted: 44w ago

@Wolfram Damn, I always forget about the morning cortisol…some days when the OCD hits super hard, the amnesia also sets in…

Username: VGHVGH

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 44w ago

Hey my friend, you will get through this, you will find your path out of the misery that is OCD. 🩷 You are brave! You are dealing with one of the most debilitating disorders! You are so open and honest with your journey, and that is so beneficial to this community. Recovery is difficult, it's messy, but it is doable, and your willingness to share helps us all. I hope it helps you too. I once was where you are, and to be honest, I still have bad days. Now, though, I have the tools to implement when I'm stuck in one of those bad days. Don't be hard on yourself. You are here, you are showing up, give yourself grace as you do the work to overcome this disorder. Trust the process, trust the diagnosis of OCD, and give yourself the kindness you deserve for living your life with and working on recovery from OCD.

Username: emilytravelswildemilytravels...

Date posted: 44w ago

@VGH Thank you 💖💖

Username: NicaNica

Date posted: 44w ago

What people show others, especially online, isn’t usually the case. There are plenty of people that will take pictures of themselves smiling and supposedly having fun but it’s actually just a Photoshoot that’s it real and they are miserable inside. Don’t compare yourself or your journey to others; 8 billion individuals are going through their own journey.

Username: NotSoNewb82NotSoNewb82

Date posted: 44w ago

I find when I’m ill it makes me stronger when I’m well again. I wish you wellness.

Username: tylermatthewsneadtylermatthew...

Date posted: 44w ago

I completely understand how you feel. Your not alone

Username: 44years44years

Date posted: 44w ago

Absolutely correct fighting OCD and never giving up makes you very brave

Username: KL428KL428

Date posted: 44w ago

I think we underestimate what it actually takes to go through something like we are going through and the strength it takes to carry on every day. You are so strong a lot of people wouldn’t hold up under the pressure that ocd puts us under. Be kind to yourself ocd in not who you are.

Username: emilytravelswildemilytravels...

Date posted: 44w ago

@KL428 Gosh it’s so true. Feels like I’m barely keeping it together…

Username: ofcourseOliviaofcourseOlivia

Date posted: 44w ago

hey there, i can hear the pain and frustration in your words. 💔 it's truly tough when it feels like ocd is defining your experience and robbing you of living freely. remember, your strength is evident, even in reaching out and articulating how you feel. by the way, have you heard about this new ai-powered ocd therapy tool called 'unstuck?' when i was struggling much like you, my nocd therapist recommended 'unstuck' (unstuckmyocd.com/try), and it made a significant difference. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it's designed to provide that step-by-step support in those overwhelming moments, mimicking what an ocd therapist would do. it's been a game-changer for me. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3

Username: mummers

Date posted: 5y ago

*venting* I’m so tired of life. I just woke up, and I feel like going back to bed and sleep until this nightmare passes. This week has been one of the hardest of my life. I don’t think I can face another day of intrusive thoughts, fear, anxiety. I need some moments of relief, but there are none. I wanna have a life again. Anxiety and obsessive thoughts have killed my social life, my ambitions and desires, my happiness. I’ve been fighting for the past 6 months for nothing. I don’t see any improvement. I’m on day 3 of Lexapro and of course i can’t tell if it’s gonna work for me or not. I’m on the first stages of ERP therapy and I still haven’t got any assigned homework to work on, which I really need because I need to feel like I’m doing SOMETHING to help myself with ocd and Gad. I just hope someone could just take out whatever part of my brain isn’t working properly and replace it with a new piece. I don’t wanna feel like a burden to my family or boyfriend anymore. I can’t believe all the damage that I’m causing. I don’t know what to do with all this self hate. I don’t know where to turn to. I seem to have all the help that one could need - therapy, medication, support system. Yet I feel like I can’t spend another day living like this.

Username: thrutheweather

Date posted: 2y ago

I feel pathetic.

I hate to be so negative but I do. My health anxiety/health concern OCD has been terrible. I’m struggling to do basic functions terrified something bad is going to happen or it’ll trigger an illness. I’m watching all my age mates and colleagues excel and I’m struggling to even function. I can’t do things I would’ve done with ease a couple years ago. I’m struggling to see the point to persevere… I just want to sleep all the time and that’s when I’m not jolting awake in my sleep. Waking up to check something I’m worried about.

Username: Jersey Jayne

Date posted: 32w ago

Scared of who I'm going to be when I wake up

I've been shutting myself away lately because I'm so fu^king sick of this cycle of me turning into a g0ddamned baby and then hysterically crying for hours on end and having my family helplessly watch and not know how to help. Nobody knows how to help. I don't even know what I need. I want to give up and just stare at the wall until somebody can save me. If my brain isn't constantly distracted and numbed I'm spiraling. I switch minute to minute from being super depressed to hyper and talkative yet somehow I manage to hold it all inside. It's getting very hard to communicate/mask. Every night I feel fine. I feel scared and sad, but I feel the most normal at this time. When I wake up, it starts all over again. I wake up in panic attack mode and drag myself to work. I swear to god I can't help myself anymore. Nothing I do helps and it's too exhausting. I think I'm just gonna keep letting myself suffer because I'm so sick of trying to get help and then have it not help. I know this is just an episode but jesus christ it's so f^cking scary. I believe everything my brain tells me but I don't even know what it's telling me. All I know is there's this extreme PUSH to be flooded with extreme sadness and anxiety, and it's very REAL. I feel like I need to be locked up and studied. I truly feel alone in this condition because I genuinely believe there is no one in this world who has been having these symptoms the way I do. Four years of this, several mental health professionals, and I still don't have an answer. When will I be able to rest? Even reading this message makes me think "that's not me. where did I go?" There's not even a specific reason why i'm feeling so extremely horrible. It starts as a pure OCD attack about something and then before I know it I spend a week crying. Anyway I have work in the morning I don't know how I keep going and getting out of bed every day knowing that ending up like this is definitely a possibility. I really don't know how I'm still alive. Something is extremely wrong with me and no one seems to understand just how bad it is. What do I need to do in order to get someone to understand the severity of it all? I wish nothing but healing and peace and permanent remission for all of you tough souls ❤️

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