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Agreed. Treatment is definitely the course of action you want to take with any form of OCD. Please don't underestimate it or the necessity of it. Speaking from experience, treatment has helped me a ton. I was in between a rock and a hard place with my ocd when I started to see my psychologist. But she's been so nice and so helpful with providing articles, information, exercises and books to help me that I am really doing much better. Please take it from us. Therapy helps TONS. :) Hope this helps! Have a wonderful day and see you around the NOCD message boards!
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From my interpretation of what you said, I feel like you spend significant amount of time struggling with OCD. OCD will stay with you forever but once you are treated, OCD becomes manageable. If you go into remission during your treatment, your current theme goes away. Infact the only way to go into remission is when you defeat your current theme. Once a theme is defeated, there is 90%(my assumption) chance of it not coming back if you really go into remission. OCD is a parasite, you are it's host. The thought that it will stay forever or it will go away on it's own is OCD thought because it doesn't want you to get rid of it from you. I have seen and heard stories of people completely ruining their life, their relationships, their social life due to mental illnesses with no treatment. Get treatment and you will realize how much better your life and reality will become.
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I relate to everything you said. Not anymore but about a year ago- it gets better. I made a long post about my advice to get through it. I’m unsure if you are able to access that or find it but if you want I can copy and paste it for you?? If you’ve already seen it- just wanna at least ready out and say- I have related to EVERYTHING you said in this post, you’re not alone, and although not “cured”- OCD is a treatable disorder and can get better. Just lmk if you want me to copy and paste my advice post here if you can’t find it... things get better I know it seems like that’s not true right now but it will.
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How is your therapy going?
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I don’t go to therapy
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Why not?
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I keep thinking this’ll die out on its own
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It won't, if it was supposed to, it would have long time ago. Ask yourself, has things got better? Like do you spend less time obsessing? Do you do less compulsions than before? What about your anxiety? Has it gotten better? If things have gotten better over time, then maybe you are becoming your own therapist (which is the ultimate goal of any therapy). But if not, then you are just lengthening your suffering. If things haven't gotten better, you should really go to a therapist.
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I suppose i just can’t seem so stop questioning and analyzing. My anxiety sort of stopped. The mornings are really bad. It’s feels so damn real I can’t and don’t want to deal with this. I never thought my sexuality would be this much of an issue. I can’t do this anymore. I have a strong feeling this will stick around forever. Because I don’t want to break up with my boyfriend and date a girl. But then it feels like I do but I just don’t want to and I keep going back and forth with myself.
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I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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