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Agreed. Treatment is definitely the course of action you want to take with any form of OCD. Please don't underestimate it or the necessity of it. Speaking from experience, treatment has helped me a ton. I was in between a rock and a hard place with my ocd when I started to see my psychologist. But she's been so nice and so helpful with providing articles, information, exercises and books to help me that I am really doing much better. Please take it from us. Therapy helps TONS. :) Hope this helps! Have a wonderful day and see you around the NOCD message boards!
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From my interpretation of what you said, I feel like you spend significant amount of time struggling with OCD. OCD will stay with you forever but once you are treated, OCD becomes manageable. If you go into remission during your treatment, your current theme goes away. Infact the only way to go into remission is when you defeat your current theme. Once a theme is defeated, there is 90%(my assumption) chance of it not coming back if you really go into remission. OCD is a parasite, you are it's host. The thought that it will stay forever or it will go away on it's own is OCD thought because it doesn't want you to get rid of it from you. I have seen and heard stories of people completely ruining their life, their relationships, their social life due to mental illnesses with no treatment. Get treatment and you will realize how much better your life and reality will become.
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I relate to everything you said. Not anymore but about a year ago- it gets better. I made a long post about my advice to get through it. I’m unsure if you are able to access that or find it but if you want I can copy and paste it for you?? If you’ve already seen it- just wanna at least ready out and say- I have related to EVERYTHING you said in this post, you’re not alone, and although not “cured”- OCD is a treatable disorder and can get better. Just lmk if you want me to copy and paste my advice post here if you can’t find it... things get better I know it seems like that’s not true right now but it will.
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How is your therapy going?
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I don’t go to therapy
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Why not?
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I keep thinking this’ll die out on its own
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It won't, if it was supposed to, it would have long time ago. Ask yourself, has things got better? Like do you spend less time obsessing? Do you do less compulsions than before? What about your anxiety? Has it gotten better? If things have gotten better over time, then maybe you are becoming your own therapist (which is the ultimate goal of any therapy). But if not, then you are just lengthening your suffering. If things haven't gotten better, you should really go to a therapist.
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I suppose i just can’t seem so stop questioning and analyzing. My anxiety sort of stopped. The mornings are really bad. It’s feels so damn real I can’t and don’t want to deal with this. I never thought my sexuality would be this much of an issue. I can’t do this anymore. I have a strong feeling this will stick around forever. Because I don’t want to break up with my boyfriend and date a girl. But then it feels like I do but I just don’t want to and I keep going back and forth with myself.
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- 23w
I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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