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How am I suppose to get better when OCD makes me doubt if I want to get better š. It feels like I just want to live in my OCD thoughts. Itās so scary!
How am I suppose to get better when OCD makes me doubt if I want to get better š. It feels like I just want to live in my OCD thoughts. Itās so scary!
it does and this is something iām learning to deal with is letting myself sit with the uncertainty and to NOT RUMINATE ! bc sometimes , the thoughts feel so REAL and iām like oh my gosh no ! but we have to re wire our brains
i want you to know youāre not the only one !
@LifeIsBeautiful Thank you so much, every thought feels so real. Itās hard to believe this so etimes
I feel this, too.
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
I think when people are saying OCD is egodystonic is really triggering me and I was just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? Iām going through a really bad relapse and right now Iām trying to figure out if my thoughts are truly egodystonic, like I how do I know I wonāt act on them, how can I trust my emotions and everything. I feel really confused and I feel like I donāt know who I am anymore or how I carry on with life because itās so long and Iām so unsure of everything thatās going on in my head. Like how do I know that this is OCD and true desires/urges. Iām so confused.
harm ocd is the bane of my existence. people always tell me that if you have anxiety over a thought, thatās ocd. and these intrusive thoughts cause me IMMENSE anxiety. iām constantly looking for reasons why iām not what these thoughts tell me i am. but WHY DOES IT FEEL SO REAL?? itās like i canāt reassure myself that this isnāt me and i donāt want to do it, but i also look for reasons why itās not me. my brain is constantly telling me āif you donāt act on this, youāll never feel freeā. WHAT EVEN IS THAT?? and why does it feel real?? anytime i think about getting therapy, i constantly think that itās not going to help me positively but help me realize i am this person. i just wish someone with harm ocd could get into my brain, understand me, and tell me everything will be okay. i wish someone in recovery could tell me that theyāve been where i am, felt the same feelings, thought the same thoughts, and got through it when they thought they wouldnāt. i feel like iām drowning in it. another thing is i think about how my mom knows a surface level understanding to this form of my ocd, but if she knew it all, iām scared sheād never look at me the same. iām scared sheād be scared of me and think i need psychiatric help. IM TERRIFIED.
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