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How am I suppose to get better when OCD makes me doubt if I want to get better š. It feels like I just want to live in my OCD thoughts. Itās so scary!
How am I suppose to get better when OCD makes me doubt if I want to get better š. It feels like I just want to live in my OCD thoughts. Itās so scary!
it does and this is something iām learning to deal with is letting myself sit with the uncertainty and to NOT RUMINATE ! bc sometimes , the thoughts feel so REAL and iām like oh my gosh no ! but we have to re wire our brains
i want you to know youāre not the only one !
@LifeIsBeautiful Thank you so much, every thought feels so real. Itās hard to believe this so etimes
I feel this, too.
so I need to get back into ERP, but itās so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mindās like yup make sure itās clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that thatās why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. Itās so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? Itās hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I donāt know many people with this exact theme. Itās such a scary feeling. And Iām constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if itās just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just donāt know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
I have really bed harming intrusive thoughts and sometimes feels like itās feeling! The thoughts happening every day and the hardest part is that Iām testing my self in head all the time if thatās what I am or want!!! Also, so many times feels like Iām been tricking myself and doctor or people and maybe I donāt have OCD, just that maybe itās me really!!!! How can I know who I am really š„¹???!!??
Iāve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately Iāve been spiralingāconstantly afraid that what Iām feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, itās paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldnāt worry that theyāre in it, but then I convince myself Iāve been in it this whole time, and havenāt known, and that maybe Iāve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like Iāll never get better or like Iāll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this wayāconfused, overwhelmed, or scared of whatās happening in their mindāIād really appreciate any support or encouragement.
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