Finding coincidences/ clues / real details / things you believe is evidence / getting distorted memories ETC is this all part of false memory ocd?! I feel like the exception because of this. Not reassurance seeking just want to understand.
I’m going through the exact thing. Do you see signs, and see words or shows, or videos that seem to be giving clues or point out what you’re obsessing about? Does it feel like God is trying to tell you something by putting all these signs In Front of you? From what I have found out by researching is whatever you are constantly thinking of and obsessing about all the time, it makes your mind more aware of things in the real world that will remind you of what your thinking about. For example, have you ever been shopping for a specific car for a while and then it seems like everyday you see that same type of car everywhere. That’s because your mind is focused on that specific thing and so your mind is more aware of it in your everyday life. When I’m reality that type of car has been around you all along but you never noticed cause you were not looking for it or thinking about it.
Sometimes things add up and sometimes they don’t and it’s ok for things to have inconsistency.
@Anonymous I just want the anwser so so bad I want to know if I’ve harmed another human I don’t think I would’ve but there’s one small detail keeping me stuck.
If life was predictable I still don’t think I’d trust it tbh 😂
I’m struggling with this also
@xokyaxo I’m sorry 😭I think I saw your post I can completely relate to your story btw. I’m sorry your struggling x
@LillyX Ocd is the most difficult disorder and truly messes with our minds. We will never know for certain so we just have to accept that and that’s so hard for me.
Can you ask them?
@Anonymous Unfortunately not they are only a teenager and I don’t want to inflict trauma. I’ve seen them since and never once thought this about them, the event was 6years ago , I made it up 6 years later.
@LillyX Im glad you’re here
@Anonymous Means a lot. Thank you for replying btw!
@LillyX Yeah ofc I hope you keep working through things. it gets better with community. The thoughts don’t stop but the ways we respond to them can. I highly recommend virtual group therapy. Super awkward at first but is such a great way to not feel alone and practice setting boundaries.
Write it all down and look at it later to see if it makes sense
@Anonymous Some of it does that’s the scary part😭😭
@Anonymous But some of it also doesn’t and now I’m stuck like a yo-yo between the two.
@LillyX Ur totally not alone feeling this way
@Anonymous Just wish it would go away😭
Does anyone have advice on distinguishing between real event ocd and false memory ocd? If my current obsession is whether this intrusive image in my head is a real memory even though there’s no evidence it is, does that seem more like real event ocd or false memory? I feel like I’m getting into a trap of worrying that I’m obsessing over a real event instead of a false image and keep having thoughts that say “you know you did this” even though I really don’t think I did.
Hey all, I’ve been having some ebbs and flows in recovery, but for the most part I’ve really had a lot of improvements in quality of life since starting treatment in 2023. Something that really trips me up is ruminating on my past and looking for “evidence” or “proof” that the things that I’m obsessed with are real and not OCD. I spend quite a lot of time doing this. I wasn’t fully aware I was doing it until recently. Example: that I’m secretly gay and lying to everyone (I’m bi), that I’m a horrible person deep down, that I’ve never actually loved any person including my family, that I have the “wrong” political or religious beliefs. I look for proof in every corner of my past. It makes some sense that I think this way because with my previous therapist, who I saw for 8 years and did not diagnose me with OCD, we would look for evidence and proof that my obsessions are irrational and I learned to deal with them that way. At the time it was a lot of health concern and contamination themes, but I literally learned to ruminate and search for relief. But I just kept getting sicker and sicker until I got diagnosed with OCD. It’s a frustrating compulsion that keeps showing up for me. What if these scary things are true? What if it’s not OCD at all and I’m in denial? Have I lied my way into thinking I have OCD? It’s so hard. Anyway, I’m curious if anyone else has come across this in recovery? Let me know your thoughts and I hope you’re well. ❤️
Can it feel like you literally remember a false memory happening? And it feels like the memory has always been there and you vividly remember it happening that way? Because I don’t even know if I’m experiencing a false memory or not but god it feels so fucking real. Like I literally remember it happening. But what’s weird is the original memory was kind of different. 2 years later, the memory is not the same, but it feels like I literally remember it happening. And in this memory, I’m fucking snapping. I’m acting on my thoughts. I feel like a fucking psycho. I hope this is just OCD
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