Date posted: 1y

Does doubt lead to anxiety?

I get so confused with all this. OCD is the doubting disorder right. So a thought comes in. “Are you gay?” You’ve been seemingly straight your whole life and seemingly enjoyed it. It never came up before nor did it have to. You’re meant to be able to shrug it off as a random thought but your mind then goes… “are you sure?” Because it asked the question again, you start to feel a little uneasy. Anxious. Why would I be asking myself that? Then it goes “are you attracted to women?” Because you’re anxious, you aren’t really attracted to anything at the moment so your brain goes “see…are you sure you’re not gay?” Obviously more anxiety comes flooding in and doubt has consumed you to the point you don’t now what is up vs down. Is this normal for those with ocd? And - the fact that the brain throws at you thoughts/statements like “you know deep down you want it/like it”. Do these happen purely because of the anxiety your mind is under? In that, we just automatically assume the worse or our fear is or must be true?

Chickens_Frogs

Date posted: 1y

I am not saying I know a tremendous amount about OCD. I am relatively new to finding out that I have ADHD and OCD. I think your on point that it’s the anxiety. I speak for myself but I am anxious and when put on stimulates that interact with other meds it turned what I would have thought were OCD traits into full blown clinical case. I had this absolute need to know who in my family had this, how did I get it and it was a driven force. It all felt like anxiety to me. My therapist told me you can have OCD flare ups.

Fruitsnacks

Date posted: 1y

Yes, those without ocd can have the thought “what if i was gay” or “would i ever be gay” and can shrug it off without spiraling. for us with ocd, those questions will make us so uncomfortable and cause worry and panic because being straight is all we knew so how can we be gay right? I remember long ago before OCD was a thing I asked myself if I would ever go gay for an old friend. And that thought flew by within a couple of seconds. I never thought about it again. I never have questioned my sexuality before and to this day, have always been proud to be a straight man. But now that OCD is in my life, it’s using everything I’ve always thought, could have thought or could have done to tell me it’s evidence

Chickens_Frogs

Date posted: 1y

Doubt and fear raise that level of OCD uncertainty. It’s like I want answers for certain about something even when certainty is not always possible. For instance, ADHD can be somewhat subjective in the sense we are not hooked up to a monitor that gives us a diagnosis. At least I wasn’t. It was a short bit of questions then verified through therapy. I think I asked my therapist so many times “Do you really think I have ADHD?” to the point I got really firm YES’s! She could see it. I had so many questions. So many doubts and I would be back and forth all the time. So glad I am off that thought loop. I couldn’t seem to will myself off it. It took Prozac or my brain had worn itself down on it. That’s usually what happens. I will get on something and go over it and over it. My mom use to say I just get stuck on something and it drove her crazy when that would happen. I don’t have one particular fear unless uncertainty is it? I don’t really know. I had a panic attack as a kid and it forever put me in a fear of having another one. It’s my #1 recurring memory. I visualize the entire experience like I am there back in time. I fear situations that might spark that in me. I can’t even say I know if thats my OCD. I my family OCD (perfectionism) is pretty pervasive. Everything has to be perfect. For me, I battle this difficulty of just feeling I fail and fall short on most aspects of life. Like I struggle to just get by. I do have two brothers who have more the compulsive turning lights on and off so many times and pushing oven off button 5 times then turns around does it again. My doc says I have more the O in OCD. However, asking a question that’s already been answered many times was a compulsion. My compulsions are I think internal mental compulsions. I am still sorting that out.

Elliesmith

Date posted: 23w

Is this ocd

So my whole life I’ve been heterosexual. I have got hocd so I worry I’m a lesbian when I have no reason to worry about it because im straight ( not that my ocd likes to think that tho lol! ). But there’s this thought I have, How do I know I’m 100% straight if I haven’t tried sleeping with a girl? Bear in mind I’ve NEVER WANTED TO and DONT want too. Hence why it is an INTRUSIVE thought. But the thought is so uncomfortable- I can’t seem to shift it. But i do see that THIS IS OCD & wanting to know for certain. Thats the definition of OCD. I do know that but it’s tough with the stupid doubts!!! Do you guys just live with the unknown / uncertainty. I’m so happy and love my boyfriend and only want to be with him etc. Let me say again, I DONT want to sleep with a girl nor have I ever fantasized about it. But why does ocd want 100% certainty.. I just wanna not have that weird niggling thought.

vaiiolyn

Date posted: 20w

Lesbian with Sexual Orientation OCD

I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?

geodrimilis

Date posted: 20w

Hocd is literally a clown in my head.

Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.

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