I just feel a complete weirdo for my actions, I’ve made mistakes with females and I’m scared I went too far this one night on my own intoxicated and feel I done something horrible, what shall I do
I have a false memory at the moment it’s horrible, I’ve convinced myself I’ve seriously cheated on my wife. A women touched my groinal area a few years ago whilst on a dance floor, it couldn’t have been more than a few seconds, but now I’m worrying she did more. I’ve got no evidence to support this, I can remember everything else other than her doing somthing bad - yet I still believe it and feel really anxious. But the reality is - it didn’t happen however real it feels. With you OCD is involved - you know that. OCD attacks your values - so whatever your worried that you have done or not done - the fact it’s worrying you shows it’s against your character. Do you think bad people worry about doing bad things? No they relish in them Your not that
@Jonathan123147 Thankyou for this comment it has helped, I just wish I went to the police a week or so after the night so that cctv was still saved etc. It’s making me feel terrible that I should’ve went to the police sooner, I feel I done it but then turned into a nice person after that night
@ Anonymous Do you feel you have done something to someone?
@Jonathan123147 Yeah I just got rape stuck in my head and full of guilt
@Jonathan123147 I can’t carry on this has haunted me for over a year I’m screwed and struggle to wake up everyday
Feelings are not facts Feeling you have done something wrong doesn’t mean you have. I heard this line of reasoning that helped me. With false memory we doubt if we have done something wrong - but the one thing that is always missing is the memory of actually doing the thing thing you think you have done
@Jonathan123147 I just feel horrible for past mistakes and I felt this night was the finale, I kept quiet about it so street cctv etc was going to be deleted the longer I left it and I actually knew I done it, I’m scared of it all
@ Anonymous If you want you can talk about it - but the fact you are on this app shows you know on some level this is ocd
@Jonathan123147 I’m scared because I was spiralling in making awful mistakes that would put me in jail, I just don’t know if it’s OCD because alcohol was involved
OCD will be making you think it’s worse than it is
@Jonathan123147 It’s like hell 24/7
Try speaking to a therapist, ocd will always make things seem massive where there not
@Jonathan123147 Thankyou, hope your keeping well?
@Jonathan123147 Are you from the uk?
Yes
@Jonathan123147 When I truly think about it I am guilty and for the first 4 months I knew I was then I stumbled across a theme of false memory etc. but deep down always knew I was guilty, just don’t understand why it hasn’t came out with the police etc
If you want to talk to me about it you can I can send you my email. Or I recommend you speaking to a therapist, if you live in the UK you can self refer yourself to a therapist and it’s free
@Jonathan123147 How’d do I go about doing that please, I’ll talk about it to you too I’m just fed up of feeling terrible and constantly full of guilt
How old are you?
@Jonathan123147 22 hold old are you?
@Jonathan123147 How*
Yes sorry how old are you
@Jonathan123147 I’m 22 , how old are you?
I’m 38 My email is Jonathan_brogan@hotmail.com
@Jonathan123147 I just feel terrible about it all I felt so bad for so long over this
If you google nhs self referral for physiological services
@Jonathan123147 I’m getting visual flashbacks from that night is that normal
False memory can play tricks on us it can feel very real
@Jonathan123147 I just feel i’m Just scared to tell my parents and waiting for them to scream at me then I can move on
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