Does anyone else struggle with p*rn and ocd. I feel as though ive watched something terrible or i got off to something terrible and if i did i only did it once but i cant forgive myself to move on. I feel i want to die.
I deal with this a lot. Whenever I watch something that’s legal I always freak myself out that what if I watched something illegal or against the law. But that’s just how deceptive OCD can be
Thank you for replying, i guess im worried because i wasnt sure if this video that i know for sure had like teens on it, i remember watching it because it indirectly played into a fetish i have. Im not proud of it. I watched it just also pf out curosity and I dont remember if i got off to it. I remember feeling disgusted by it but what if i got off to it by accident or partly on purpose. I swear ive never done it since, if it even happend in the first place.... ahhhhh see this is my dilemma right now. Point is, if i didnt do it i hate im overreacting, and if i did do it. I would want someone to unalive me because it makes me sick with myself.
@Anonymous Hard truth and I’ll give a little reassurance. The thing is no amount of ruminating or worrying will ever give you the answer you crave. Ruminating will just result in more lost time and it’s fruitless. The best thing to do is to accept the uncertainty and try to move on. I know how tough it can be but it works after awhile. For the little reassurance: if it was on the internet and you found it pretty easily I’m sure it wasn’t illegal. Like I’m not even sure, nor do I want to know, how illegal videos are found
@GregJ I’m dealing with the same problem right now. I’m a teenager and there’s been times of fallen into temptation and went to YouTube instead of actual porn hub because I would get too scared to go on there and I would literally just search up like people kissing not too much and I want to tell you they very much did look like grown adults Like I can’t when I try to go back and recheck the videos like I’m just still mind blown like there’s no these people are children but I get this really bad thought like but what if they are like what? If in reality? They’re like a 12-year-old being forced? And now I’m worried I might’ve watched illegal content. :( I just don’t know
@andrea_sam730 The best thing you can do is try to move forward while accepting the uncertainty. You’ll never know for certain and OCD won’t ever stop with the “what ifs”. Let the thoughts come in and just let them do what they want. Just because you get a thought doesn’t mean you have to interact with it
@GregJ This is so hard for me it’s getting so bad to the point ion even wanna be here sometimes but I’ll try my best to sit with the uncertainty
@andrea_sam730 It’s hard, it really is. Go easy on yourself. Try sitting with the anxiety for a little bit then allow yourself to ruminate. And then do longer with sitting with the anxiety and thoughts. Try to build upon your tolerance. I promise it will get better
@GregJ Thank you sorry I feel like I sound horrible I’m pretty sure the content I watched was legal it’s just doubt bc I don’t have the certainty ocd wants :/ anyway I’ll try …
I get thoughts about this all the time. I'm dealing with a lot of shame and low self confidence about it.
How I replied above is my repsonse to you
I'm 17 years old I struggle with addiction I have a problem when I masterbate I have intrusive thoughts idk if I think them I'm so scared also back then I know when I was younger I looked at obscure things hentai all that my idk what to do even I feel like I'm a monster or im a bad person I need help I feel so distraught I feel like I can't live life to the fullest anymore even from last year I looked at content that was animated but it had a character in it that was underage I felt so ashamed and felt like a monster I had a compulsion to check it only to find out they are not around my age range idk what to do I probably sound like a freak I'm sorry I'm always trying to replay my memory and try to remember my intention and what I was doing how I come across how I was doing a action yk all that
I’m worried about times when Child P*rn or suspicious porn videos have come up in the past. I tend to use Twitter for porn and it’s not the most moderated app out there but I was never looking for videos or pictures or anything related to that. Unfortunately stuff still has popped up and I’m just worried about if my reaction was perfect because I have intense POCD I want to say it’s nearly as severe as it can get so I just feel as if I remember times when something suspicious came up and I stayed for a moment to make sure I wasn’t attracted or maybe left and came back to be sure I was safe and didn’t like it and I’m afraid this counts as seeking out or engaging in illegal content that would get me in trouble. I’ve never once looked this stuff up and anyone who creates saves distributed or likes this stuff I believe deserves prison time for life but I’m just so worried that I didn’t react in the way I should’ve I’m 20 years old so I’m relatively young and I’m jus worried about what this means about me any one else deal with anything similar?
Hi everyone, I'm struggling with what I think are intrusive thoughts, possibly related to OCD, and I'm hoping someone here might relate. When I was younger, in my early teens, I went through a period where I had a strong interest in pornography. During that time, I encountered hentai involving male characters, related to an anime I enjoyed. One of the characters was someone I even looked up to. I feel incredibly uncomfortable admitting this, but I believe I engaged in sexual activity related to it. Years later, I'm plagued by intrusive thoughts about this. I feel intense self-disgust and shame. It's like this memory has "tainted" my ability to enjoy that anime, and sometimes other things. I'm constantly replaying the situation in my mind, questioning my past actions, and worrying about what it means about me. The anxiety is significantly impacting my life. Does anyone else experience intrusive thoughts focused on past events, particularly those that cause feelings of shame or disgust? How do you cope with the constant replaying and questioning? I'm looking for support and understanding. Thank you for listening.
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