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I want to remind you that when Jesus came here, He hung out with the sinners and touched those who were diseases. He made it so that there are no barriers between us and God and we don't need to fear coming into the presence of God, who is waiting for us and loves you more than you could ever know. Stick to this truth, because OCD is the master lier. I'm so sorry that OCD is warping this for you. OCD has definitely played a part in mucking up my relationship with God, but not permanently and there is hope. hang in there ?
Hello! I think I may have replied to one of your other posts a few weeks ago (about Mary, etc). I’m so sorry you are going through this ❤️ I can relate to “keeping God at a safe distance” - I’ve done that a lot too. I resonate with you saying that OCD f’s up the idea of God. I can relate to this, and I’m glad to hear I’m not alone in this.
HI! I have that exact same problem. I couldn’t even go to church or listen to gospel music or even see the word “God” without getting triggered in some way. It’s extreme guilt of hell, the rapture, dying unprepared, sinning. I pray and read the Bible compulsively. It makes religion unauthentic which is even worse. Just try your best to relax about it. It’s overwhelming, I know. I’m getting better though and you will too. God knows your heart. Remember that. You’re not alone, and we can talk privately and encourage each other if you’d like.
@Sage53 Hi there! I also struggle with these same intrusive fears. I know this thread is kind of old, but I was wondering how you are doing now?
That’s so hard and so confusing for you. God knows the depths of your mind and he knows that’s OCD can have a negative impact on how you view him. He knows you are bigger than your OCD and what it does to your mind.
Its hard my husband has religious ocd. These thoughts are evil.
It is hard, I’ve struggled with the same. But my therapist reminded me that God created our brains and knows how they’re supposed to work, and He doesn’t change and still loves you more than you could ever imagine, no matter what your OCD tells you! Take a deep breath. You are loved!
I especially relate to keeping God at a safe distance, though for a different reason. I lost my 6 week old niece to SIDS last March and my great grandfather a month after that, and then my cat in November. My OCD keeps telling me that if I keep going on with a sin or whatnot, then God will take someone else from me, and also says that it’s my fault they all died because God was punishing me for my sins. At this rate, I’m side-eyeing Him but wanting to trust Him. Take heart! You’re definitely not alone :)
does anybody feel like god is causing them to feel this way? like ocd and everything that’s going wrong? or that you’ve upset god that’s why this is happening. I wasn’t a religious person but i am a bit now, but it scares me, i know you’re not “supposed” to be terrified of god, but i feel like i am? I don’t want to be though and at the same time i don’t want to lean more into religion but what if god is mad at me for not being completely religious? what if it’s not ocd? what if i’m holding myself back? what is happening to me :(
Does anyone struggle with opening up to God because of their OCD? My mom is a born again Christian and I recently started to go to her church with her. I was raised Catholic, but I was never really a practicing Catholic. Recently I have been so down in life and I feel like the only way out of this is through God. My mom said to me today that I have tried different treatments for many years and none have worked, but I still haven’t given God a real chance. I just feel fake if I’m going to God because of my problems. I think I’m afraid that if I open to God and don’t get better I will spiral even worse. I think my mind definitely can go down a path of magical thinking and I don’t want to think God is the answer and will solve all of my problems because I know that’s not realistic either. I just want to get better, but feel very conflicted. I have these fears because I have suffered from magical thinking for a long time. Sometimes it’s not so present in my life and sometimes it is very. It’s hard for me to tell when I’m not doing it and sometimes I’m aware if I am or not. For example I have been obsessing over a certain number lately. It’s been driving me insane. I’m afraid that God will think I’m not good enough to be helped.
In the past, I used to pray 100 times out of fear that God would punish me by giving me or someone I love cancer, or worse. Even though I got out of that compulsion, I still fear God. I pray for my entire family every night out of fear that if I don't, God will kill someone close to me or kill me. During Bible study today, my mom essentially explained that people who don't truly believe in God won't be protected by God. I'm essentially Agnostic, because I'm convinced that if God does exist he hates me. I feel trapped. On one hand I feel like If I stop praying or believing in him then he will make my life worse than it already is. But I have OCD, an eating disorder, I suffer so much in so many aspects of my life and I worry the reason is because God hates me. I'm scared one or these days he's going to push me to my last straw. Does anyone have a similar experience?
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