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- roses_are_rosé
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- 5y ago
I want to remind you that when Jesus came here, He hung out with the sinners and touched those who were diseases. He made it so that there are no barriers between us and God and we don't need to fear coming into the presence of God, who is waiting for us and loves you more than you could ever know. Stick to this truth, because OCD is the master lier. I'm so sorry that OCD is warping this for you. OCD has definitely played a part in mucking up my relationship with God, but not permanently and there is hope. hang in there ?
Hello! I think I may have replied to one of your other posts a few weeks ago (about Mary, etc). I’m so sorry you are going through this ❤️ I can relate to “keeping God at a safe distance” - I’ve done that a lot too. I resonate with you saying that OCD f’s up the idea of God. I can relate to this, and I’m glad to hear I’m not alone in this.
HI! I have that exact same problem. I couldn’t even go to church or listen to gospel music or even see the word “God” without getting triggered in some way. It’s extreme guilt of hell, the rapture, dying unprepared, sinning. I pray and read the Bible compulsively. It makes religion unauthentic which is even worse. Just try your best to relax about it. It’s overwhelming, I know. I’m getting better though and you will too. God knows your heart. Remember that. You’re not alone, and we can talk privately and encourage each other if you’d like.
@Sage53 Hi there! I also struggle with these same intrusive fears. I know this thread is kind of old, but I was wondering how you are doing now?
That’s so hard and so confusing for you. God knows the depths of your mind and he knows that’s OCD can have a negative impact on how you view him. He knows you are bigger than your OCD and what it does to your mind.
Its hard my husband has religious ocd. These thoughts are evil.
It is hard, I’ve struggled with the same. But my therapist reminded me that God created our brains and knows how they’re supposed to work, and He doesn’t change and still loves you more than you could ever imagine, no matter what your OCD tells you! Take a deep breath. You are loved!
I especially relate to keeping God at a safe distance, though for a different reason. I lost my 6 week old niece to SIDS last March and my great grandfather a month after that, and then my cat in November. My OCD keeps telling me that if I keep going on with a sin or whatnot, then God will take someone else from me, and also says that it’s my fault they all died because God was punishing me for my sins. At this rate, I’m side-eyeing Him but wanting to trust Him. Take heart! You’re definitely not alone :)
Sooooooo omg my mom mentioned that she saw a show on televisopn where people with weird mental ilnesses spoke and she mentioned that there was someone with hocd and how she thought it was weird but she thought in this generation she doesnt blame people for having it because it isnt their own fault and there is alot of pressure on your sexuality and omg i got sooo red and i felt like i was gonna burst out in tears and tell them everyything i was sooo close to just break and tell them what ive been going trough for the past year. Im so freaked out and like... i jusr wanna tell them but im ashamed and i know i will n e v e r tell them but i cant believe i got this close. And i just dont know what to do bevause on the show the doctor said a looot of people approached him with having hocd and that its really a new big mental ilness thing. You know what it is, my mom said that the man on the show who had hocd said he wasnt in to guys at all but his brain told him he liked it and that was me in the ebginning of hocd but now i have a feeling i cant relate anymore and that hurts so much because its like hocd has gotten so deep into me that i honestly believe it and like i created genuine feelings towards woman. I dont know what to think anymroe. I pray everynight god will Release me and somehow i feel like this is my punishment for not listenig to Him and i also todsy read in the bible That people who ignore god do things wrong when it comes to sexual stuff and that people wont be able to think clear anymore and that they will be lost and thats just me and im So afraid because the bible says people will be punished for it idk im so freaked out!!!! I wanna be a better person so bad but i cant when my brain is like this i need help from god but im scared he just rejects me vecause ive been a horrrible person. So selfish and i know my heart is ebtter than that but i cant set good apart from bad bevause my brain wont let me. Its like i dont give a shit about anyhting anymore and i miss me who could think clear and who was genuine and honored god. Its like ny current brain cant do that snymore it doesnt have the right functions for it anymorw. Like the good part in me had been cut out and im tryna find it but its destroyed and theres no way it will come back.
This is just too much...and it just sucks because no matter what I do... in reality ocd doesn’t care about what it’s doing to me... it’s gonna keep doing this. My brother is sick with something that causes diarrhea...he was sick with it 2 weeks ago, got better last week, and we all got the stomach flu this week which caused his sickness to come back...he’s playful and doing normal 1 year old things but ocd keeps saying he is going to die. I don’t completely understand how a 1 year old would just magically die from watery shit, but just because this worry makes no sense, it doesn’t mean I’m still not scared.And it showed me a scenario of his funeral and it’s so fucked up.I think the worst punishment God has ever given me was ocd... ocd hurts me more than anyone else can... it’s so fucked up... I used to ask God for help but I guess mental health wasn’t that saving worthy so I just stopped praying about my mental health BC I’d be “wasting my time, he doesn’t answer you.” I just have so mu ch in. My life that isn’t going right and I’m started to get low key sad and miserable about my life at this point. I need help lately but I’m really depending on some sort of relief... just thought control and to get rid of bad people in my life and to get some of my grades up and...to be happy
it’s gotten to the point where it’s way too hard to pray. i can’t pray. so many bad thoughts at once and it’s too much and i can’t tell which ones are mine bc there’s too much. I can’t read the bible or anything. and then i get thought that makes me feel bad for not praying or reading my bible and it’s awful. ik God is good but these thoughts are scary and not okay and i’m afraid He doesn’t want me anymore and idk what to do. i try to reason with myself but it only does so much. i just can’t deal with it and ive prayed ab my ocd but it hasn’t gone away
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