RELIGIOUS I’m scared of God and I’m keeping a safe distance. I’m not leaving him completely I’m just talking to him from far away. If I get too close to him I’ll end up getting hurt. Just because I’m scared of him doesn’t mean I don’t love him either. I want to talk to him but ocd is saying I can’t because I’ve done too many problematic things and he’s judging me for it. So I’m avoiding praying as much as I can. This is painful. I really wish I would’ve come to find God when I was older and I wouldn’t have to question everything he did. I’d just go along with it because I would understand that I have to. Ocd really just fucks Up the idea of God. Completely. It says he’s sending me to hell anyway despite me believing he died and is coming back. It says hes sending me to hell because I’m too problematic. And it says he’s ignoring my prayers because he’s pissed with me. I want Gods attention but not that much attention because then he will see it as a chance to hurt me and call it “ a test of faith.” I even prayed to Mary and asked her to tell God what I need to tell him. Idk how praying to Mary works but I just trusted she told him. I sound so stupid but I’m lost and I just want to leave this alone until I need it. Because this isn’t healthy but I’m scared to make it healthy

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Frandog

Date posted: 5y

I want to remind you that when Jesus came here, He hung out with the sinners and touched those who were diseases. He made it so that there are no barriers between us and God and we don't need to fear coming into the presence of God, who is waiting for us and loves you more than you could ever know. Stick to this truth, because OCD is the master lier. I'm so sorry that OCD is warping this for you. OCD has definitely played a part in mucking up my relationship with God, but not permanently and there is hope. hang in there ?

Lydia Davies

Date posted: 5y

Hello! I think I may have replied to one of your other posts a few weeks ago (about Mary, etc). I’m so sorry you are going through this ❤️ I can relate to “keeping God at a safe distance” - I’ve done that a lot too. I resonate with you saying that OCD f’s up the idea of God. I can relate to this, and I’m glad to hear I’m not alone in this.

Sage53

Date posted: 5y

HI! I have that exact same problem. I couldn’t even go to church or listen to gospel music or even see the word “God” without getting triggered in some way. It’s extreme guilt of hell, the rapture, dying unprepared, sinning. I pray and read the Bible compulsively. It makes religion unauthentic which is even worse. Just try your best to relax about it. It’s overwhelming, I know. I’m getting better though and you will too. God knows your heart. Remember that. You’re not alone, and we can talk privately and encourage each other if you’d like.

brownr7

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y

@Sage53 Hi there! I also struggle with these same intrusive fears. I know this thread is kind of old, but I was wondering how you are doing now?

claire

Date posted: 5y

That’s so hard and so confusing for you. God knows the depths of your mind and he knows that’s OCD can have a negative impact on how you view him. He knows you are bigger than your OCD and what it does to your mind.

Gracie

Date posted: 5y

Its hard my husband has religious ocd. These thoughts are evil.

Cheesecake

Date posted: 5y

It is hard, I’ve struggled with the same. But my therapist reminded me that God created our brains and knows how they’re supposed to work, and He doesn’t change and still loves you more than you could ever imagine, no matter what your OCD tells you! Take a deep breath. You are loved!

biggest-boogara

Date posted: 5y

I especially relate to keeping God at a safe distance, though for a different reason. I lost my 6 week old niece to SIDS last March and my great grandfather a month after that, and then my cat in November. My OCD keeps telling me that if I keep going on with a sin or whatnot, then God will take someone else from me, and also says that it’s my fault they all died because God was punishing me for my sins. At this rate, I’m side-eyeing Him but wanting to trust Him. Take heart! You’re definitely not alone :)

sanshine

Date posted: 15w

Religious OCD

I used to have religious OCD. Still kinda do. Accidentally thought something bad about God once, panicked thought something bad about the Holy Spirit. Fell into doom. This was recently after recomitting myself to Christ. Since then I pretty much gave up. Unfortunately, it also led to me compromising my morals many times because I figured I was going to hell anyway. I wish I knew what OCD was then. I think it would have saved me a lot of pain. I no longer have a relationship with God, and fear I never will again.

G C

Date posted: 6w

Religious ocd

It’s so hard to pray to God. I don’t want o put him on the back burner but I get anxiety talking to him and sitting in his presence. Then I will force myself to but then I just feel dumb since my flesh doesn’t want me to. And I pray and rush it then immediately scroll on my phone after cuz I get stressed and don’t know how to hear from him bc if I pray and just wait for Him I will get intrusive thoughts over and over and like I can’t even hear him anyway my mind is constantly going 1 million miles an hour and I have so many real life problems too on top of the ocd that makes it even harder.

berrybrynn

Date posted: 19d

I am a Christian and I went through religious OCD and I felt like I blasphemy the Holy Spirit

so my dad is Jewish and my mom is Christian. I used to go to Hebrew school when I was younger, but recently I started going to church and becoming a Christian and turning to Jesus and when I recently got diagnosed with OCD a couple months ago I had really really bad religious OCD. I had very disrespectful thoughts about Jesusand God, but mainly Jesus. and I had very disturbing thoughts about Jesus that made me avoid a lot of things, but I know that’s making the OCD worse. I’m doing erp currently my religious OCD has honestly gone away. I’ve dealt with it. I am managing it but ever since I’ve had religious OCD and had disturbing and disrespectful thoughts about God in Jesus mainly Jesus, I’ve felt a awkward distance between me, God and Jesus and it just feels like I’m going to hell and they don’t love me anymore and I haven’t felt the same presence from God ever since I’ve had religious OCD and I’ve had some situations that I felt like I blasphemy the Holy Spirit and I committed blasphemy and I just feel like God really doesn’t love me anymore and I’m done for i’ve kind of been numb to it so it’s not really bothering me, but I want a better relationship with God and Jesus it just feels like they don’t love me anymore. Has anyone else gone through this? and I’ve had situations where I felt like I was very disrespectful and mocked God and Jesus, but mainly Jesus. And i freaked out for days didn’t feel like myself repented multiple times pretty sure this is just religious OCD but seriously I have not felt the same with my relationship with God and Jesus. OCD has really really affected my life and it sucks. I’m going through Harm OCD right now. So religious OCD has kinda gone away but I just want a better relationship with God and Jesus sorry this text is so long. Has anyone else gone through this?

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