RELIGIOUS I’m scared of God and I’m keeping a safe distance. I’m not leaving him completely I’m just talking to him from far away. If I get too close to him I’ll end up getting hurt. Just because I’m scared of him doesn’t mean I don’t love him either. I want to talk to him but ocd is saying I can’t because I’ve done too many problematic things and he’s judging me for it. So I’m avoiding praying as much as I can. This is painful. I really wish I would’ve come to find God when I was older and I wouldn’t have to question everything he did. I’d just go along with it because I would understand that I have to. Ocd really just fucks Up the idea of God. Completely. It says he’s sending me to hell anyway despite me believing he died and is coming back. It says hes sending me to hell because I’m too problematic. And it says he’s ignoring my prayers because he’s pissed with me. I want Gods attention but not that much attention because then he will see it as a chance to hurt me and call it “ a test of faith.” I even prayed to Mary and asked her to tell God what I need to tell him. Idk how praying to Mary works but I just trusted she told him. I sound so stupid but I’m lost and I just want to leave this alone until I need it. Because this isn’t healthy but I’m scared to make it healthy

I always want to get close to God and my ocd is always related to me thinking I'm going crazy however my ocd also sticks to religion it kinda pulls me away because I'm scared that I'll go crazy if I focus too much on one thing or do too much of one thing..so I went to the dentist and I was waiting on my boyfriend when this man that was speaking about God came and he was speaking to me and he kept saying I should give my life to God and I told him I want to do it on my timing and he kept saying no and after a while he showed me something in the daily bread and he turned to another women that was a the desk of the dentist and say something along the lines of me being a dead little girl if I dnt follow the word of God or something similar 😔now this makes me scared and it puts a lot of pressure on me because now idk what to do anymore, and I'm lowkey trying to change and get closer to God in some way

I used to have religious OCD. Still kinda do. Accidentally thought something bad about God once, panicked thought something bad about the Holy Spirit. Fell into doom. This was recently after recomitting myself to Christ. Since then I pretty much gave up. Unfortunately, it also led to me compromising my morals many times because I figured I was going to hell anyway. I wish I knew what OCD was then. I think it would have saved me a lot of pain. I no longer have a relationship with God, and fear I never will again.

I just told my mom my religious OCD has been really really bad lately and she just told me I needed to pray because demons can actually take advantage of me. Because demons are "stress" I'm not stressed I'm hallucinating and having genuine episodes where I think God is talking to me and telling me he hates me and I feel like there is a demon ready to take me away every night. I just feel like she doesn't understand the severity of what I'm feeling right now. She says it will go away but it comes BACK and I constantly feel endangered by something I can't even see. She said it's not that she was implying that I wasn't praying enough but still it just stressed me out. I didn't want to hear "you're right it could be Satan" I wanted to hear "you're okay and nothing is trying to hurt you" I feel like I'm losing my mind and i can't do this. I can't. My religious OCD hasn't been this bad since I was 10 I don't think. All I can think about is how im going to hell and there's nothing I can do about it and that there's an entity in my body and God hates me. I just needed to hear something else but that made me freak out more and I don't know who to turn to. I feel like I can't even explain it. I don't even know if it's OCD that's how serious I'm being. It feels 100% real.