OCD Doubting

My OCD makes me doubt my faith & God! It also makes me doubt myself, my values and literally everything! Makes me even doubt if this is OCD! I love God & Jesus! I know I gave my life to Him! Being reborn! I’ve seen the changes! It hurts to have these thoughts & feelings of doubt! I’ve been having this for 6 months. It started as a thought of “is God real” now it’s like my mind has interrogated me over and over again making me question everything! Yelling accusations at me! Telling me I don’t “believe enough” or “maybe I don’t believe” or “I don’t love Him” and just stuff like that and I hate it! I want faith & belief and I refuse to give up! I try to remind myself this isn’t a Faith problem but an OCD problem but my OCD tries to make me doubt that! Anyone gone through this? Any advice?

Username: Ryan MullenRyan Mullen

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 41w ago

Cammy you are not alone. Your story is my story. I am getting much much better with med change and therapy. Keep going the angels in heaven are rooting you on.

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 41w ago

@Ryan Mullen Thank you so much! It’s just so difficult when these thoughts & feelings of doubt are so intense! Like it makes me doubt reality and of course I had thoughts like these before but they never bothered me until I really wanted to live my life for Jesus! I’m trying to remind myself He is bigger then my doubts! I love Thomas because he was a doubter but Jesus loved him! Nothing I can do can make Him love me anymore or any less! It’s just difficult when OCD makes you doubt yourself, your faith, your values, your feelings and even if this is OCD!! Reminding myself OCD attacks the things you love most! Thank you so much for replying!

Username: Ryan MullenRyan Mullen

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 41w ago

@Cammy123 Its much easier to deal with it once you realize its OCD. I took me 3 months to come to that realization.

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 41w ago

@Ryan Mullen I know. I actually did come to realize it was OCD but for the past month it’s like my mind thinks it’s “me”. What helps bring you back to reality? I’m trying to remind myself it’s OCD but then fallback into thinking “maybe it’s me”.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 41w ago

Hey there! My name is Joseph and I am a 20-year old entrepreneur and student with OCD. Recently I became extremely motivated to help the OCD community so I started a collaborative online space where we can all talk, trade resources, bring in speakers, and just really work together and build connections within this community. My ultimate goal is to get you to harness your OCD for the greatness it can bring in your life. Hang in there, please. I'd really love for you to join so that we can have these conversations in full detail amongst the community. I think it will make a wonderful supplement to your NOCD therapy journey. Love you :) https://www.skool.com/the-ocd-advantage-7537/about

Username: EstridEstrid

Date posted: 41w ago

Remember that it doesn't matter if we doubt that God loves us or if we have checked the lock in the door - if we stop engaging in the thoughts they will die on their own. So - try to notice the thought "ok, there is a scary thought, I don't care" - and then keep on moving! If you do this reguarly you will find reality again - becayse the doubts have no chance to catch you.

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 41w ago

@Estrid Yes I know what you mean! My compulsions are pretty much all mental! Such as checking for thoughts & feelings, if this “means something”, reviewing and checking if it’s actually OCD! I’m trying to remind myself this isn’t a Faith issue it’s and OCD issue.

Username: EstridEstrid

Date posted: 41w ago

@Cammy123 Very good! For a while I used "attention trainkng techniques" at you tube. It was a good way for me to be more aware of how I direct my attention. Maybe something for you?

Username: Cally58Cally58

Date posted: 41w ago

My OCD attacks what is most important to me, making me doubt the most important people in my life...since your faith is so important to you, the OCD is focusing your thought on that.

Username: LoriGarner12LoriGarner12

Date posted: 41w ago

hey, i totally get how tough and confusing it must feel to have your ocd target something so close to your heart like your faith and beliefs. 🙏 it's really brave of you to share and to keep fighting for your faith despite the doubts ocd throws at you. i'm dealing with a different ocd theme myself, so i might not have all the right words for your specific struggle, but i've found some resources that really help me when things get overwhelming. one thing that's been a game-changer for me is this app called "unstuck ocd therapy tools." my local ocd support group recommended it, and it's been super helpful with providing ai-personalized guidance and exercises right when i need them. also, i've found the ocd stories podcast really insightful - it's full of experiences and advice from others battling ocd, which might help you feel less alone in this. 🎧

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 41w ago

My experience right now. He loves you and I love you. It will be okay ❤️ Keep taking the risk that it’s OCD and treat it as such. You can do hard things. I believe in you and I believe in me

Username: a.non2

Date posted: 1y ago

numbness

I got diagnosed with OCD a few months ago after getting plagued with intrusive thoughts last November. It’s been present in my life since I was younger but didn’t become truly debilitating until last November. I’ve been in therapy since May, and I started an SSRI. I’m a Christian, and I’ve struggled a lot with my faith since this started. I’ve had a hard time with ERP because I fear it’s not going to help and actually make things worse. I have also had a lot of emotional turmoil from family trauma and marriage issues. I’ve become so hopeless and numb and desensitized that I don’t know how to continue forward. I don’t feel like I’m able to talk to anyone about it because it’s taboo, so I feel like a fraud and like I don’t deserve to do things I enjoy or hang out with people I love. I do want to get better but I also have a fear that I don’t actually want to. I feel like my whole life is ruined and that I’ll never enjoy living again.

Username: nanchrach

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 49w ago

New

This feels new to me. Has anyone had their OCD almost make them feel like they can trust anything about themselves anymore? I am obsessing over these thoughts of doubts I’ve had recently and I’m feeling kinda down and sad about it. Any tips would be spread! This is new for me. My OCD has really kicked up the volume and trying new things on me.

Username: bunniesnchee...

Date posted: 37w ago

Fake feelings?

Does anyone else ever question if/doubt that their feelings are real? I've been doing that near constantly for a long time now, and it causes a LOT of distress (at least I THINK it's distress). Lately when I feel spiritual and read my scriptures, pray, or watch a religious message, or get the urge to, my brain says, "What if you're only doing this out of compulsion, not cuz you really want to?? What if your spiritual feelings are fake?" It hurts a lot to feel that way. Years ago my OCD was causing me to do insane scrupulous rituals, and in the aftermath, my concept of OCD rituals and healthy, spiritually uplifting rituals got crossed. :/ Like, "Is that the Holy Ghost or are you just being mentally ill again?" There are other feelings that my brains doubts, but spiritual ones are the most distressing.

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