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- 1y ago
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My family keeps mocking my ocd- and acting like its some sort of joke 😭 I can’t handle being near them sometimes
My family keeps mocking my ocd- and acting like its some sort of joke 😭 I can’t handle being near them sometimes
I’m sorry … that’s gotta be tough…
@Sp1999 Yeah 😭😭 its fine though im used to it
I’m so sorry 😔😢 remember u are loved and not alone🤗🙏 make sure to spend time and connect with people that support you and do understand ocd, like the support groups here on nocd, they have them everyday of the week💝 if u feel comfortable, at some point share with your family that it hurts u when they act like that, you can even write it out in a note instead of face to face if thats more comfortable 🤗 remember to be extra kind to yourself and practice self compassion skills , treating yourself like u would a good friend going thru same thing as you are🤗🙏 also, it’s ok to take some space away from them when u need to. Praying for you and sending hugs, hang in there🤗🙏💝
@one step at a time😊🙏💝 Thank you so much 😭💓💓 you’re very sweet
I’m truly sorry ocd especially SO-OCD is no joke. You aren’t alone I promise and just remember things will get better even if it doesn’t feel like it now. I’m rooting for you. You got this!!
@AmandaB345 Thank you 💓✨
My ocd is ruining my relationship with my kids. Because of the intrusive thoughts I avoid being close to them, hugging or cuddling up to watch tv. My ocd is either telling me I wouldn’t care if harm came to them or it turns everything into something sexual or inappropriate. For example, my daughter wanted to show me how long her nails are so she started scratching my arm gently. It felt so nice and relaxing and I immediately panicked because I was scared the ocd would cause a groinal and I don’t ever, ever want a feeling like that connected with my child even though I know it’s the ocd causing it and not me i’d still feel horrible. I just want to be a normal loving affectionate mom and I can never be that for my kids because of ocd😪 I don’t see any other parents posting about going through this or commenting that they do and how they cope. I feel so alone and defeated.
I’ve been dealing with a really bad flare up the last 2 weeks and i’ve been dealing with ocd on and off for years. I was finally feeling better today, So of course my ocd decided to bring up an old intrusive thought that was really upsetting and now i’m stuck on it again. The reason why I struggle so much to conquer my ocd is because I developed ocd as postpartum so my ocd targets my kids, the ones that mean everything to me. The intrusive thoughts range from mild to really disturbing. While I know deep down the intrusive thoughts aren’t true or me, the ocd makes it feel SO real and true which makes me feel like I HAVE to disprove the thoughts and with confidence but the ocd won’t let me. It also makes me question analyze and judge everything I do. It’s an endless cycle of pain and I just want to be a mom without ocd telling me i’m a horrible person all day every day. 😪
I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I feel like I'm not even living, I'm just surviving. Everyone is capable of being a person and functioning and I'm just stuck here avoiding everything. My psychiatrist said my ocd is severe and it will all take time and I'll start erp and I'm already on medication but I just feel so depressed and like I won't be able to handle erp and it's already too late for me. I feel inhuman, it's debilitating. My major theme is just fear or contamination, I can't even make myself a meal I can't touch anything in the kitchen. I get stuck in the shower for 2 hours and when I don't shower because I'm depressed I feel like a walking germ. My hands are a mess, my school work is shit, I avoid and avoid and I'm just so tired of "living" like this. My psychiatrist said they don't have any therapists available right now like.... excuse me? What do you mean u don't have any 😭 I honestly don't even know why I'm typing this becuase nothing helps, nothing ever will. I'm so deep into this I can't get out, my room looks like shit, I can't live in this body anymore, I really can't. I let everyone down, I am and will be such a dissapointment. I don't have any dreams or goals or passions I just wasn't made to be here. I don't know how or who to ask for help like there's nothing anyone can do, I'm already on meds. I can't keep being like this, seeing everyone judge me for acting insane.
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