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I have your subtypes and have the exact same thing. I really fear I'm going to hell. 3 months ago I was better and felt like God was helping and the new pill was a God send, but now it's not working and I've spiraled out of control. I don't think my husband loves me anymore. I can't work.... I'm debilitated. I'll talk to you more on this bc it seems we are in same boat and I'm so terrified.

Also, I feel like I'm going to die soon bc of this. I can't live like this. I'm in bed, can't get daily things done. I'm paralyzed by it. I feel there is no way out

Hey there. I've been there. Here is a resource. Please consider reading or listening to the author's lecture on the topic. Honestly, the author doesn't seem to fully grasp ERP but the theological insights here may be helpful. https://www.ccef.org/jbc-article/scrupulosity-when-doubts-devour

i'm really sorry you're going through this. it sounds incredibly tough, especially when your faith is a big part of who you are. 😞 i've battled with a different ocd theme, but i know how overwhelming and isolating it can feel when your mind is stuck in a loop of fear and doubt. one thing that's been a game-changer for me is this app called "unstuck ocd therapy tools." it was recommended by my local ocd support group, and it offers ai-personalized guidance and exercises that can really help in moments like these. also, the ocd stories podcast has been a comforting resource for me, hearing how others navigate their ocd journeys can make you feel less alone and offer some helpful perspectives.