I thought I done it to a female when I was intoxicated but now everytime I nap I try and remember what happened etc. but when I have a nap or a sleep I have images of it happening etc and don’t know if they’re true because I was so drunk, like I had nap and I had images/memory of me with my trousers down etc. what do I do
This sounds like false memory ocd - so as much as the above is well intended advice, it could send you down a rabbit hole of seeking reassurance, which is heroin for OCD. You have put a lot of messages on about this, and these are the facts - You were drunk and have a period of time where you can’t recollect the period when you went home. You woke up and you had a mark on your chest and some discharge in your underwear. OCD will put 2 + 2 together and get 5 For a moment let’s address the OCD in you. You don’t know the person that you think you have assaulted, because if you did you would have spoke to them by now - or more importantly they would have spoke to you. So let’s say you went and handed yourself in to the police, what would you say? I think I’ve raped someone? What would the police say? “Ok what evidence do you have? And you would explain the above. Do you know what they would say? They would tell you to go home - and that’s before you tell them you have OCD. You have OCD, this disorder manifests itself in so many ways but one word that links us all regardless of our themes is DOUBT People go over a bump in the road - they think they have run someone over. People wash there hands 20 times because they think they have AIDS People think they are predators because of perceived physical responses. These are just to name a few. We all doubt we are all scared because of the dreaded question - WHAT IF. Now think about this - rapists are sexually aroused by power and overpowering their victims- it’s not about sex to them - in fact they don’t enjoy consensual sexual relationships. If you were a rapist you wouldn’t be reflecting with fear you would be enjoying the “memory” This is the REALITY - you got drunk you probably stumbled on the way home and may of had a nocturnal emission when you slept. Now my friend you need to stop wasting your precious life on this. Otherwise quite frankly you are already dead - you will just spend the next few decades digging your grave. Stop getting busy dying and start getting busy living. Be well my friend
@Jonathan123147 Such good advice!!!
@Jonathan123147 Take a bow sir. This is superb
@Jonathan123147 That’s it, that’s the part ‘aroused by power…’ that’s the sentence - I’ve never had a girlfriend and I’ve always seen myself as the dominant one and tried to be that in the bedroom which kept leading to ‘mistakes’ which I told my housemate about and he said it was part of growing up but some of my sexual misconduct has always been when trying to be dominant, I struggle to have normal sex because I struggle to get aroused, that outlines that power is what I look I assume so I need to definitely go to the police
@ Anonymous There’s a difference between being the dominant one and being a rapist. Most men are the dominant ones. OCD is going to take anything anyone says to you out of context.
@LillyX Exactly - all of what was said and that’s what was picked out. You 1000% have OCD - and you know that. Being dominant is not being a rapist. A rapist is someone that is aroused by having sex with someone that they know doesn’t want to have sex with them. It’s predatory behaviour because they see the victim as prey. But I’m sure you will read that and think you are that. This is actually reassurance so I shouldn’t be saying it. For along time I thought I was pedo because of memories when I was a child. Then I worried about memories that I had been unfaithful What If What if What if What if What if You’re doing the same thing - it has a different face but it’s the same. Think about what you have said - I like to be dominant in sex and I can’t get aroused without it. So you think that makes you a rapist - or that is OCDs argument. But in the same breath the thought of you raping someone is so distressing to you, you want to end your life. Can you not see the contradiction?? In my line of work I have had dealings with all sorts of sex offenders. And let me tell you they all have two things that they worry about. Loss of reputation Worrying about getting caught. I have never met one that is truly remorseful about what they have done, if they had that inside of them they would never have done the things they have done. You are not a rapist my friend. You a good person that has a poorly mind. I’ve been where you are - your heart is beating fast, your sweating, your researching online for hours and hours. Your have probably googled things like “can you rape someone and not know you have” You have spent hours and hours on this - hours you won’t get back. If you had an hour left of life - would you spend it talking about this? If the answer is no don’t spend one more minute with it. Say to your OCD - thanks for making me aware of the danger. And yes it is possible that something like this in life is possible for anyone. But that doesn’t mean it’s probable So I’m going to get on with my life now and I’m no longer going to engage with this. I’m not going to seek reassurance. I’m going to sit with the discomfort and try my best to live my life. The be well
@LillyX But I could never differentiate between them I always thought I was the rapist for making the mistakes
I think therapy and talking to that person to get some closure can really help. I know about stories like that and it helps to get some perspective. I know you’re not a bad person at all
I went out 2 years ago with some friends and I can’t remember some of the night - we went to a house party and my friends say nothing happened but I’m so afraid that I cheated on my partner and don’t remember it. It’s consuming my every minute and I can’t let it go. I was reading up on false memory ocd the other day and it triggered me into thinking what if something I imagined happening actually happened and I don’t know what to do and I’m scared that because I imagined something a certain way that if it wasn’t the same thing I imagined that it must be true
Basically I got a lots of vivid dreams last night and I woke up but went sleep again and was sort of trying to sleep but felt like I was awake not asleep but a vivid scene of a man say you did something with an underage person and I started remember but how can I do this in my sleep . I think I did it but not sure when .
I'm worried that I sexual assulted or r*ped my dog when I was 17 and I'm 18 now. This memory, has came up multiple and changes rapidly, it says that I was also saying very disturbing things to the dog, calling her good and weird disgusting things like that. I don't know if I can live with myself if this is true.
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