So I have some false memories or at least exaggerated and distorted memories. If they are true or correct it’s horrifying for what this means about me. My mind can get so dark. I really need some encouragement to not seek answers and to stop ruminating. I know I can’t recall the past, but I’m genuinely surprised by how bad my memory is. Can someone please give me some words of encouragement to stay focused and sit with the unknown?
I think the anxiety and emotional response we get from intrusive thoughts can trick your memory because you are in fight or flight mode. I would just chalk it up to OCD and treat it as so. Try not to read too much into it. Be kind and compassionate to yourself.
@ivrec Trying hard ty
this is totally normal with OCD this was my biggest problem, I was constantly going through my memory, trying to understand what happened, or what didn’t happen. I had learned with my therapist to think of the worst case scenario meaning, think maybe that it did happen, and it’s so hard to do that, but as time goes on, it becomes easier and easier. this almost makes you desensitized to that thought or false memory. it will 100% get easier if you seek OCD based therapy. But it does get better.
i need the same help. i need to sit with the unknown instead of feeling like i need to solve it or figure it out. but i need anxiety coping mechanisms because when i was little i don’t think i learned how to do that
Hey everyone I’m really struggling right now I’m not having any intrusive thoughts I’m just ruminating on the possibility of be being a you-know-what and I’m so anxious because I can’t tell my real memories apart from fake ones and I’m feeling a strong urge to self-harm. Sometimes my OCD fluctuates and I feel completely rational and okay and I know I’m not like this but other times my brain is just completely horrible and stupid and I really do convince myself that I’m a you-know-what. I’m just feeling really triggered and terrible right now I don’t need reassurance I just need some tips or suggestions for coping mechanisms to de-escalate all of this. Somebody please help I’m sorry.
I just need any encouraging words you can give, I have tried so hard to move past these themes but it’s so hard. I feel in denial and starting to question if there’s some desire on my part. Sometimes there’s a thought that I can’t get passed and I feel like it brings me down to square one.
I’m obsessing over every past bad decision or every stupid thing I did as a kid or teenager. I have this terrifying fear that mistakes are going to come back and haunt me and ruin my life. Anyone have any encouraging words?
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