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Meta OCD
Any thoughts on Meta OCD? Is that real?
Any thoughts on Meta OCD? Is that real?
Oh yeah totally real as in the thoughts exist and it’s a theme ‘Do I really have OcD’ ‘What if I’m doing the wrong treatment?’ ‘What if I missed a compulsion?’ ‘What if it comes back?’ ‘Why do I have OCD and not others?’ Etc, etc
It’s like you said. Do I really have OCD? Like I don’t really feel the need to do compulsions as much. (Which will probably change at some point)🤦♀️. But at the same time, IRL it’s not me at all. Like ism just going through the motions. No feelings at times. Idk. Hard to explain. 🤷♀️
Anyone ever experienced Meta OCD?
@Anonymous Yep! One of my main themes
@ListenToTheWind Like you’re completely numb to the thought. Whether you actually liked it or not.
@Anonymous Hmm, I don’t know if I understand the question. But I’m decidedly not numb to the thought all the time, that’s why it’s a theme. But it’s getting better.
@Anonymous Are you struggling with it now?
Anyone else develop it in their 30s? I’m 33 and just started showing symptoms in October 2024. So far have only been diagnosed with GAD , PD and depression.I started having intrusive thoughts after a series of panic attacks . My compulsions would be googling. I have made an effort to stop though because it only makes me feel worse. My intrusive thoughts have been around fear of going crazy
I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
I suffer from religious ocd. My only goal in life is to live in God's will and to serve Him - to live and enjoy His eternal purposes & His presence. Jesus Christ is my life. That is my only desire on this earth, this short trip into eternity, and it's being stripped by ocd thoughts and intrusive thoughts 24-7. I have read many times that ocd can 'feel real', and this is true, our minds lie to us because of fear and anxiety we can't and were never meant to carry. I have begged and tormented myself in every way to find an answer from God. I think His answer may be that this is OCD, but I'm not sure. I started therapy again because I am so exhausted and this had stolen so much of my life in a spiral of negativity, depression, and constant anxiety & intrusive thoughts. I have spent about 2 years trying to figure out if my thoughts are real or not, especially with ocd it can deceive so easily as a spiritual matter when in reality it is just a thought, which is confusing and scary to say the least. Can anyone share their experiences with this sensation? No matter what the theme is... Thank you & Praying for your comfort
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