Scared

I’m in the process of being evaluated by a psychiatrist for ADHD, but I feel like my distress has gotten worse. I don’t feel like my memory recall has kept up with work and school, friends, and family and in the beginning I thought it was due to being an inattentive adhd person. But more recently It been having thoughts of hurting myself and others as well as suicide. Even though I don’t want to die, I just want this to change. I feel helpless and so so tired. I’m constantly worried about being wrong in some fundamental way and I’m worried my friends and family will reject me even though we have good relationships to each other.

sophsophsloph

Date posted: 50w ago

I’m sorry you are feeling this way, you are not alone 🤍

cel56

Date posted: 50w ago

@sophsophsloph Thank you, that means a lot. Hope you’re doing well.

timothysteele

Date posted: 50w ago

I have OCD and bipolar disorder (disclaimer: very few people who have OCD also have bipolar so I don’t want to introduce any fear of that). After a long bipolar episode I had a lot of emotions. One time I played chess with my brother and lost and jumped to the conclusion that there was something wrong with my mind. Later I got mired in shame and guilt over some things. I attempted suicide. I wish I hadn’t. I looked back after it happened and thought I didn’t even have a reason to attempt suicide. That would be my advice from my experience- anything that seems big, maybe you feel like you don’t compare to others, will really seem so small if it ever were to come to a suicide attempt. Comparison doesn’t really help much. Just keep trying your best in life and things will work out.

cel56

Date posted: 50w ago

@timothysteele Thank you, I’m glad you’re alive and here. Hope you’re doing well.

timothysteele

Date posted: 50w ago

@cel56 Thank you, I’m doing much better 😊

WellerStorn98

Date posted: 50w ago

i'm really sorry to hear you're going through such a tough time. it sounds incredibly hard, but it's important to remember you're not alone in this. 💛 you should try "unstuck," it's a new AI-powered therapy tool specifically for OCD (just google "unstuck app for OCD"). my NOCD therapist recommended it to me, and it's been a big help over the past month. it might help you too.

cel56

Date posted: 35w ago

@WellerStorn98 Thanks, I’ll check it out.

marcygirl23

Date posted: 25w ago

Could use some advice

Struggling today with my thoughts and maybe some dissociation. I can’t get any clear thoughts. I felt like lately I’ve started to recover and then the past few days have felt so hard. I feel scared for the future. I am scared I don’t have enough hope for living with ocd. I am scared that I’m not gonna be happy. I’m scared I’ll chose to end my life over this. I’m scared I’ll want to end my life. I feel weird. My thoughts are jumbled today. Something feels like it’s going to happen and that’s what is giving me anxiety.

Lyssaxoxxo

Date posted: 23w ago

Harm OCD

I’ve been feeling really really depressed the past few days due to health concerns. I’ve been really feeling down like not wanting to be here anymore and it’s scaring me. I was in the doctor’s office this morning and I got a scary thought that said maybe I should just k*ll someone in here instead of k*lling myself. Then the thoughts continued… this man walked past and I thought “hurt him” I obviously wouldn’t want to hurt anyone let alone a bug on the sidewalk, but the thoughts began to overtake me and I had a panic attack. It’s still bothering me and I’m still scared it’s real and that I’m going crazy. This happens to me a lot after I watch a documentary about someone who hurt someone else. I begin to think I am somehow going to go crazy like the person in the documentary and hurt someone. Although I don’t want to .. I would never ever want to hurt anyone.

FairyWithaKnife

Date posted: 18w ago

I just don't know

I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.

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