Blackout drunk did I harm my child

honey, you didn’t do anything. remember that our intrusive thoughts are often our WORST fears. That being said, maybe removing the situation of getting drunk around your children would be wise, not because you did anything, but because that’s generally unhealthy and allows space for those intrusive thoughts

I'm a recovering alcoholic and I experienced something exactly like POCD back in 2018. It was hell and I almost drank myself to death over it. I had so much fear that I did horrible things in blackouts and I had to do work with a sponsor to process some of this fear. But that's really all I found it to be, fear. I didn't do anything bad. I learned that with pocd our core value is to nurture and protect children, and that's why it's so scary to think we could have done something in a blackout. Hang in there! It gets better.

I have been through almost this exact situation and it is the hardest kind of ocd to have as a mom. I still struggle with it. I have done some things in my life while drinking that i’m not proud of and my ocd uses that against me as a way to make me believe i’m capable of something this horrible but I don’t believe either of us are. I stopped drinking which doesn’t stop the ocd struggle over it and the uncertainty will always be there but it stops any future issues. You’re not alone. If you ever need to talk just let me know.

Or ever.

Thank y’all. It’s so vivid in my mind. Was it like that for yall?

Omg. I am going through almost the exact same thing. Around 8 months ago, I went to dinner with my boyfriend at the time and his teenage daughter. I drank WAY too much and I don’t remember parts of the night. I woke up the next morning worried I had done something inappropriate to his daughter. Then I found out her and I went to the bathroom together and then the anxiety multiplied by a thousand. I asked her and him over and over if I had done anything bad, but it didn’t matter. I’ve been convinced I did something inappropriate in the restaurant bathroom and it disgusts me. We’ve since broken up, and all I worry about now is “at any moment she’s going to say I did something and my life will be over.” The hardest part is it’s the furthest thing from who I am. I would never want to do anything like that or cause harm or anything. Like you, it has me extremely depressed.

I struggled with the same thing one night but I just had a couple of drinks and still got the intrusive thought. It’s the worst!!!! Hang in there!

So does anyone think it’s possible to act on these thoughts once we get drunk? Like we give in?

Hey there, I can only imagine how tough things must be for you right now. It sounds like you're going through an incredibly difficult time, and it's really important to know you're not alone in this struggle. 🌟 I'm not an OCD expert, especially with this theme, but I really want to help by sharing some resources that might be useful for you. The OCD Reddit is a place where many people share their experiences and support each other, and it might be a good spot for you to find some understanding and comfort. Also, have you heard about "unstuck OCD therapy tools"? My NOCD therapist recommended it to me, and it's an app that offers AI-personalized guidance and exercises for those moments when you really need it. It could be a helpful addition to what you're already working on in therapy. Hang in there. 💙

Hi I know this is an old post but is there any way you could message me? Going through something similar. Did it ever get better?