i don’t know what to do anymore

I wish I had someone in my life that understands this that i could talk to when i feel my panic attacks happening.I feel so exhausted my brain hurts and it’s attacking me every second of the day especially right now.Every day it makes thoughts abut something happening to me or someone i know and i can’t control it ,I am loosing weight and becoming unhealthier than before because my mind has made me think im gonna get hurt every time i eat.I tried eating right now even when the intrusive thought was horrible so that i could get over the fear but now my stomach feels weird and i am nauseous , which is leading to a panic attack.But im just crying alone because i cant explain this to anybody. (sorry for this i just had to write some of my feelings down)

Choosengrace_

Date posted: 1y

Thanks for sharing … I understand. It’s scary.

Liv24

Date posted: 1y

I really do understand I’ve been getting awful intrusive thoughts for a while now and still no one close to me knows about it because I’m ashamed about them! They haut me from the minute I open my eyes till I go to sleep, if I wake in the night for the toilet they are there! I’ve cooked meals before and had one mouthful and not been able to eat the rest because my mind it’s on a literally loop😩😩 I still struggle very much now but I’m able to eat and concentrate just a tinyyyy bit more. I listen to a lot of audio books about OCD. Apparently the reason we get them all day every day it mostly because we are ruminating about that so in these books they talk about helping to stop rumination which is the biggest part of OCD! Hope your okay❤️ please try to eat something, put a podcast on I just told you about honestly it put me a lot more at ease xxx

jayqrc

Date posted: 1y

@Liv24 Thank you for understanding it’s really comforting seeing that someone else in the world has struggled through the same thing as me. I also relate, the thoughts last the entire day and i take a bite or drink of something then i leave the rest,but that’s very unhealthy. I feel like telling someone does help I’m extremely ashamed and harsh on myself for having these thoughts and I didnt want to tell anyone but I told my friend and she didn’t judge me and gave advice that helped,but i understand that it isn’t the same for everyone sadly that’s why i can’t really explain it to my family 🥲.But thanks a lot 🩷and what audio books do you recommend?

Liv24

Date posted: 1y

@jayqrc I know how you feel! We’ll done on telling someone though that’s really good im still yet to tell anyone😩😩 I really feel that by listening to these books it’s helped me to have my good days which im hoping get more and more as I practice what it tell me. - Fast OCD recovery - Rewire your OCD Brain - Can’t stop thinking - Overcoming unwanted intrusive thoughts They are all very interesting and definitely give help on ways to cope! Xx

jayqrc

Date posted: 1y

@Liv24 Thanks! 🙏 i saved this and i’ll listen to all these books

Liv24

Date posted: 1y

Also I started a diary! I feel like when I write init it helps and some days I have a lot better days and I look bad and read over them days and look at what I did different them days to help me understand it is possible to have good days xx

flowerpetals

Date posted: 24w

panic/anxiety attack

i’m currently experiencing a panicky anxiety attack and i don’t know why. i’ve been on edge all day because of being scared to get sick, but right now, i know i’m not going to get sick but i’m just really panicked and cannot calm down. i’m currently listening to music that helps relax me with an icepack on my neck to help, but not much is happening. my sister and mom keep coming into my room and it’s only making it worse but i don’t know why. i just don’t want to talk or be around anyone right now. these kinds of episodes are worse than any other because i don’t know why i’m so scared. it just feels like it’s never going to go away.

rita555

Date posted: 22w

the compulsions and thoughts are consuming me

these days im feeling so bad, I can’t take it anymore, I have thoughts and images I don’t like that just won’t leave me, I feel so heavy, I want to bump my head into a wall until I pass out so I can have a break, I want my brain ti stop working and leave me alone, I can’t exist like this, I’m constantly thinking about this stuff and feeling disturbed, it just won’t leave, what do I do? sorry if this is written so badly but I really need to vent

Anxiousashley

Date posted: 20w

No one understands

No one understands what I’m going through. My husband used to be my biggest supporter but not we’re separated and I try to explain to my parents why I’m upset when I have panic attacks but they don’t get it. For Example: This morning I told my mom I was having a panic attack. And she just kept asking “why? What’s wrong? U were so happy yesterday. When I said, I didn’t know I just was having this panic attack. She did not understand one bit. She just kept asking me why why why? And I’m like I don’t know. 😭 it makes me just wanna stay away from everyone and just isolate because people don’t understand. I know it’s not their fault. I’m actually glad they don’t understand because that means they’re not going through the pain I’m going through.

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