LIVING ON MY OWN

@HASSAN PATEL i hear that, with my sleeping patterns the only thing that has helped was an anxiety med called hydroxyzine and i take another that makes me tired. i can stay up all night and day thinking but having that knock me out really helps deal with the daytime anxiety. or falling asleep to a show or podcast, some say asmr. its like being involved in a convo besides your brain and not having to respond. and im sorry to hear about the autophobia, i would just recommend thinking about time with yourself like your on a date with yourself, or like a girls night. i do that like i do skincare and clean , even though its fs compulsive, and then like entertainment or learning in my freetime so i dont feel guilty about the time alone. i hear u and ur not alone! my obsessions and magical thinking takes ahold of me too. im trying to use exposure to not taking ahold of my compulsions but its so difficult. bouncing between things is the only thing i can do to make me feel "productive" i suppose? and i cannot work on routine either but i understand that's stressful