LIVING ON MY OWN

Hi - just for some context, I have OCD and ADHD. I hate bringing this up, but with these diagnoses, when intertwined, there is ALWAYS a thought. I never stop thinking. This is really hard, especially because I feel like I always need to be talking to someone. Whether it’s my friends or family, talking to people brings me down to earth from certain kinds of thought spirals. However, when I’m alone it is the hardest. When my friends don’t reply I have this compulsion to text again or I need to constantly check my notifications so that I have none left to check. But then to them or new people I talk to, this behavior probably comes across as overwhelming or too much. I’m trying to control it and use erp, but also, I have my moments where I’m just vunerable and give into the compulsion. It’s genuinely so embarassing and maybe not as big a deal as I’m making it out to be but, how do I manage? And how do I relax?

Hey all this is my first post so i’m kind of nervous. I’d like to hear feedback from outside sources and people not directly in my life who might be biased. I am not sure if this is an OCD thing or maybe just an anxiety thing but I would love some advice. I am a night owl and the rest of my family is not. I’m an adult who still lives with my parents since i’m saving money to move out. Every night I stay up until around 12:30 in our living room to relax and wind down with a quiet house (like my own me-time) and then go to bed. My parent’s room is right off the living room and they close their door while I’m awake so they can sleep. They told me not to be up past midnight since their room gets “too stuffy” with the door closed. I haven’t been doing well with midnight but try my best to shut everything off by 12:30 at the latest. They got mad that I don’t listen and now say I am not allowed in the living room after they go to bed. So when they go to bed I have to confine myself to my bedroom. I like my routines and thinking about trying to wind down (by reading or crocheting) in my bed feels wrong because my bed is “for sleeping” only. I feel like I don’t have a comforting safe place to relax before bed now and when I have tried to explain that to them they don’t care and say i’m disrespecting them. I’m curious what you might think about the situation and would appreciate feedback, regardless if i’m in the wrong or not. It makes me wish I didn’t live here but I don’t really have anywhere else to go.

I'm really scared and alone and I don't know how much I can handle! Briefly I lost my whole family and got abandoned too, and the adopted family I currently live with we are having conflicts with each other because they want to control everything about my life friends clothes times of sleep food drinks everything!! I have OCD very bad intrusive thoughts and they don't help at all but at least i have a place to sleep in and food and they aren't that bad after all and thank god they saved me but They are very much dependent on me on everything at home, and the mom treat me like garbage sorry for the word but these days it's been so bad we had alot of fights and i feel like she will abandon me too soon, I know I should have left them earlier but I don't have any where else to go and I don't have the courage to be whole alone!!! I'm crashing I'm terrified and many senarios are on my head and it feels like I'm living in a nightmare, should I obey her? But my life and my mental health would be much more bad, or leave them and face the world alone??? Please tell me anything I want to have hope that everything is going to be okay..