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@Poppy7 I’m so sorry you feel like this. My guess is you really love your husband? This is ROCD. You probably think this is such a unique situation… OCD might even be convincing you it’s not OCD> “No this is serious!” It is OCD though. I promise. Non sufferers would laugh this off and jokingly say “yeah I married my cousin” and never think about it, but you have a brain disorder that won’t let you off the hook that easy, unfortunately. You can deal with this though… use maybe statements. Stand in front of the mirror and say whatever you fear> “maybe I pretty much married my cousin”, “maybe I’ll never get over these thoughts”, “maybe we’ll get divorced because of this”, “maybe people are judging us”, “maybe we can’t have healthy kids”. And then just sit in the anxiety or whatever it is you are feeling. Do not reassure yourself. You know this is ridiculous. Your husband’s response is the normal/appropriate response. But don’t even tell yourself that. Just say “maybe” to OCD and give it time. It sucks but you’ll feel better in time.

@Poppy7 Yeah you recognize it’s OCD which is really good though. I have ROCD issues too. I love my wife more than anything. That’s why OCD targets her sometimes. There’s this weird silver lining with ROCD that proves beyond a shadow of a doubt how much you love your partner. Which is always good to remember. Just don’t use that fact as a compulsive response to your thoughts. You don’t need to go back and forth. Just say “okay OCD maybe you’re right, maybe this is weird”. We can all give you reassurances every day that it’s really not weird at all but OCD isn’t going to roll over so easy. You can’t struggle with it. Do you have a therapist? They can help you do ERP.